Submissions by alwayslaughing (Krystal Montoya)

"Aww"... "It is YOU I see, who waits to devour and decieve." I scream, "STOP, GO AWAY PLEASE QUIT HAUNTING ME!" I run into the night where darkness fills the womb. I hide inside my sheltered mind thats put inside its tomb. A voice so faint,yet is near calls my name so that i will hear... all thats 'vein'... I AM ASHAMED! I searched for light as others prayed.Now I'm taunted, AND feel played.. by all the monsters that i create! All I wanted was 'a piece', even 'a taste'.... "NOT A FEAST!" My heart is big and full of love!.. "How I HATE TO...

Teeth Grinding,Mind Winding,Soul Finding.EVERYTHING BLINDING!ALWAYS wrong timing!Feeling bad, but actually just SAD.Looks like I'm Glad, but inside I'm MAD! LOST AT LOVE TO PUSH AND SHOVE!Now I wished for a hug, enstead I reach for a drug!Actin' a fool thinkin' shits cool.T houghts are numb, lookin' real dumb. As i run from the sun,I get chased and stay misplaced. Decieved with grace by some face...DEATH IS NEAR..., LIFE I FEAR!

Once was a man so different than all the others.He presented himself very well while out on front of others.He spoke with confidence,he walked with meaning.He said all the right words to sound believeing!On went time with all seeming fine...Until THE TRUTH i started seeingand boy... Had i been blind,Blinded by all his decieveing....never quite walked away completely knowing NOTHING will ever be fine..Someday/every other dayif it is not me going it is him that is leaving.he always pulls me back.My love i had for him was REAL and had so much REAL meaning!I can't get over "the truth"...

Fighting a loseing battle, A war at which seems to never end...OVER and over standing our grounds to honor and defend.Forgetting what it was we were Both fighting to try and mend. Now ourwar continues and sadly it is our end...We caused so much DESTRUCTION TEARING EACH OTHER DOWN! We threw away our love to walk away with frowns!

Sucide.... WHY do you hide? SUCIDE, sucide WHY can't I find? Sucide, sucide,SUCIDE; Inside myself i do run...HOW? OH HOW SUCIDE can this job ever get done?Sucide, sucide, sucide, SUCIDE!...NO, NOT TODAY!I changed my mind and decided to go ahead and continue to LIVE, cuz to all of you I AM ALREADY DEAD!