Submissions by addictedhelp (lonely-soul)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Hello everybody I'm a poet and would like to share my work
SELF POEM
Published
17th Sep 2013 11:55pm
17th Sep 2013 11:55pm
abused friendship
Youv got the point through I'm just a crap friend,
With nothing more to do than drive you round the bend,
I no longer understand why you treat me this way,
You might aswell just shoot me so it doesn't hurt so bad each day,
So much mental pain you manage to make me feel,
You throw out all these words like its no big deal,
The next day comes your feeling kinda bad,
But I know you don't care when your making me sad,
I can't even ignore you it just makes you worse,
So a friend I am just live under your curse,
Your meant to care be a friend looking out for...
With nothing more to do than drive you round the bend,
I no longer understand why you treat me this way,
You might aswell just shoot me so it doesn't hurt so bad each day,
So much mental pain you manage to make me feel,
You throw out all these words like its no big deal,
The next day comes your feeling kinda bad,
But I know you don't care when your making me sad,
I can't even ignore you it just makes you worse,
So a friend I am just live under your curse,
Your meant to care be a friend looking out for...
676 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
11th Sep 2013 10:44pm
11th Sep 2013 10:44pm
pissed off
I'm sat all angry I don't know why,
Just me and this mess alone I cry,
Iv had a good day so why am I sad,
All I can do is sit and feel mad,
It has to be me with a fucked up head,
I'm looking inside dam my lifes a wrecked shed,
I want it to go I want to smile,
I no it will pass but in a little while,
Sure I'll shift it drinking can after can,
Then I'll pass out drunk cos I don't give a damn,
For now it just hurts me I'm in a confused mood,
These evil inflictin pain thoughts are nothing but crude,
Has the saying goes fight or flight,
I can't...
Just me and this mess alone I cry,
Iv had a good day so why am I sad,
All I can do is sit and feel mad,
It has to be me with a fucked up head,
I'm looking inside dam my lifes a wrecked shed,
I want it to go I want to smile,
I no it will pass but in a little while,
Sure I'll shift it drinking can after can,
Then I'll pass out drunk cos I don't give a damn,
For now it just hurts me I'm in a confused mood,
These evil inflictin pain thoughts are nothing but crude,
Has the saying goes fight or flight,
I can't...
494 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
11th Sep 2013 10:36pm
11th Sep 2013 10:36pm
lonely island
I sit here a lot thinkin things from my head,
Just wondering why I just wish my self dead,
Its not because am weak and bored with nothing else to do,
Its because iv hit rockbottom and no one to help me through,
Everyone chose to see the one front I show,
Stubborn and hard faced what's inside no one will know,
You all think I'm stubborn because I hide everything away,
But dam its to hard admittin I wish I could die today,
Iv always grew up thinking my family didn't care,
Iv never been far wrong cos no fuckers there ,......
Just wondering why I just wish my self dead,
Its not because am weak and bored with nothing else to do,
Its because iv hit rockbottom and no one to help me through,
Everyone chose to see the one front I show,
Stubborn and hard faced what's inside no one will know,
You all think I'm stubborn because I hide everything away,
But dam its to hard admittin I wish I could die today,
Iv always grew up thinking my family didn't care,
Iv never been far wrong cos no fuckers there ,......
604 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
10th Sep 2013 3:30pm
10th Sep 2013 3:30pm
peoples ways rile me!!
Iv had it I'm done your nothing to me,
Just a faker and user such a shame I can see,
Not aimed its just most but I'll tag any1,
Cos in the end I'm just walked ova and treated all wrong,
I'd love to just grip them who make my day low,
Scarcastic and snappy attitudes push me down were i blow,
I would take it foreva but all this wow its just changed me,
Iv forgot who I am and I aint sure who I'm supposed to be,
Just for once I wish people could just leave me the fuck out,
When there in a mood and angry cos consequences r bad with out a doubt,
Life is...
Just a faker and user such a shame I can see,
Not aimed its just most but I'll tag any1,
Cos in the end I'm just walked ova and treated all wrong,
I'd love to just grip them who make my day low,
Scarcastic and snappy attitudes push me down were i blow,
I would take it foreva but all this wow its just changed me,
Iv forgot who I am and I aint sure who I'm supposed to be,
Just for once I wish people could just leave me the fuck out,
When there in a mood and angry cos consequences r bad with out a doubt,
Life is...
554 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Aug 2013 4:40pm
20th Aug 2013 4:40pm
ready to blow
Slowly has my mood goes bad,
from nothin but still it makes me sad,
Want to claw my self just any were.
Or smash my house if only i dare,
Red hot fueled up body of hurt,
Just dying to treat some1 like dirt,
Realease some presure in any way,
Cos nothing helps theres nothing to say,
To remove this presure this burning pain,
Of anger and evil that has shown up again,
i wish to be nasty a pleasure it would be,
But thats not my ways and its just not me,
Why is it so easy to feel im a bomb,
Ready to blow feel my lifes gon all wrong,
A need...
from nothin but still it makes me sad,
Want to claw my self just any were.
Or smash my house if only i dare,
Red hot fueled up body of hurt,
Just dying to treat some1 like dirt,
Realease some presure in any way,
Cos nothing helps theres nothing to say,
To remove this presure this burning pain,
Of anger and evil that has shown up again,
i wish to be nasty a pleasure it would be,
But thats not my ways and its just not me,
Why is it so easy to feel im a bomb,
Ready to blow feel my lifes gon all wrong,
A need...
856 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Aug 2013 9:36pm
13th Aug 2013 9:36pm
being controlled
You must enjoy the feeling of full control on me,
Cos no matter what i do from ur wrath i cant get free,
May just be 30 minutes i come home late at night,
But its an argument to drag me down surely that aint right,
Your only an uncle in fact thats not even real,
My auntie never married you maybe she felt wot i feel,
Forever goto lie to u just so im not hurt,
Cos were i go or wot i do im still treat like fucking dirt,
I even get a mouth full cos im constantly in my room,
Or jus cos i like to lay in rite up till noon,
Cant av a friend over cos no ones...
Cos no matter what i do from ur wrath i cant get free,
May just be 30 minutes i come home late at night,
But its an argument to drag me down surely that aint right,
Your only an uncle in fact thats not even real,
My auntie never married you maybe she felt wot i feel,
Forever goto lie to u just so im not hurt,
Cos were i go or wot i do im still treat like fucking dirt,
I even get a mouth full cos im constantly in my room,
Or jus cos i like to lay in rite up till noon,
Cant av a friend over cos no ones...
747 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
12th Aug 2013 1:34am
12th Aug 2013 1:34am
self harm and the way it makes me feel
689 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Jul 2013 6:55pm
27th Jul 2013 6:55pm
my sisters labour day
Full of such exitment soon my sister will be a mum,
Shes already at the hospital waiting for me i better run,
My first stop i drop my cousins home then to the bus stop i walk real fast,
Every minute passing seems so much longer than the last,
I now reach the station and shocked at what i see,
The hospital bus has started i shout so it doesent leave me,
I soon get there in time after an hour she starts to push,
She crys that shes not strong enough then theatre she gets rushd,
Im so scared but more im gutted this was so important to me,
Third time to see...
Shes already at the hospital waiting for me i better run,
My first stop i drop my cousins home then to the bus stop i walk real fast,
Every minute passing seems so much longer than the last,
I now reach the station and shocked at what i see,
The hospital bus has started i shout so it doesent leave me,
I soon get there in time after an hour she starts to push,
She crys that shes not strong enough then theatre she gets rushd,
Im so scared but more im gutted this was so important to me,
Third time to see...
713 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
27th Jul 2013 2:43pm
27th Jul 2013 2:43pm
the positive thoughts
Forever in debt is what i should be,
My sister gave more than enough to me, aleshas my light in the dark of a road, just seeing smile her smile brings my mood from being cold,
Then theres her mum does the best anyone could,
Puts her self last so her daughter feels good,
my own mum well shes the reason iv ever got through,
And the bond that we have will always be true,
Things have been hard but its the story to be told,
For my own kids later when im grumpy and old,
Children grow without mother or dad,
Fightinng stronger than most with out feeling...
My sister gave more than enough to me, aleshas my light in the dark of a road, just seeing smile her smile brings my mood from being cold,
Then theres her mum does the best anyone could,
Puts her self last so her daughter feels good,
my own mum well shes the reason iv ever got through,
And the bond that we have will always be true,
Things have been hard but its the story to be told,
For my own kids later when im grumpy and old,
Children grow without mother or dad,
Fightinng stronger than most with out feeling...
591 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Jul 2013 3:55pm
25th Jul 2013 3:55pm
its just a front
Iv barely lived yet iv seen far to much,
Seen enuf to mek ppl avoid my friendly touch, I'm much better than most so why do baduns get more, is it cos I'm not side tracked to be a little whore, its wrong that bad ppl get more with out trying, when the best of us struggle an break down crying, its a nasty and cruel world that we have to live, bullied or judged for the front that we give, take my advice and live your happiest way, cos you won't get it bak it just ruins your day, take a bad path for street cred or more,
But don't take that route unles 100% sure,
U really do only have...
Seen enuf to mek ppl avoid my friendly touch, I'm much better than most so why do baduns get more, is it cos I'm not side tracked to be a little whore, its wrong that bad ppl get more with out trying, when the best of us struggle an break down crying, its a nasty and cruel world that we have to live, bullied or judged for the front that we give, take my advice and live your happiest way, cos you won't get it bak it just ruins your day, take a bad path for street cred or more,
But don't take that route unles 100% sure,
U really do only have...
663 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
25th Jul 2013 3:53pm
25th Jul 2013 3:53pm
im not who you think i am...
Im not who people think im a secret that cannot show,
Cos whats inside is painfull and my feelings you cant know,
No questions id have to answer no efforts no one can fake,
No telling me this aint depression when for me its so hard to take,
Im not who people think im now a mess behind a show,
With the daily fight of holding things back so you dont know,
I barely have a person thats willing to help me,
im making an issue of nothing an you say its how iv come to be,
Im not who people think but a time bomb soon to blow,
How much longer can i take the feelin...
Cos whats inside is painfull and my feelings you cant know,
No questions id have to answer no efforts no one can fake,
No telling me this aint depression when for me its so hard to take,
Im not who people think im now a mess behind a show,
With the daily fight of holding things back so you dont know,
I barely have a person thats willing to help me,
im making an issue of nothing an you say its how iv come to be,
Im not who people think but a time bomb soon to blow,
How much longer can i take the feelin...
670 reads
0 Comments
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