Submissions by The_Gothic_Nerd (Cory Erickson)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Well I write about what influences me and what happens around me, I'd say most if not all do exactly that, writing without influence is meaningless, I love to write, including messages so feel free to contact me if you wish to talk.
DARK POEM
Published
22nd May 2016 5:06am
22nd May 2016 5:06am
I'm not okay
I'm not okay,
I try to fake it, try to lie,
But I'm just waiting for the end of the day,
When nobody is watching and I can finally cry,
The pill I'm on helps me hide,
All they see is the happy disguise,
I do my best to keep it all inside,
And make sure nobody sees the pain behind my eyes,
I'm still broken, possibly beyond repair,
There's only one person who has the power to fix me,
But forcing them into that life again just wouldn't be fair,
She deserves better than that, even an idiot like me can see,
I don't know what else to do...
I try to fake it, try to lie,
But I'm just waiting for the end of the day,
When nobody is watching and I can finally cry,
The pill I'm on helps me hide,
All they see is the happy disguise,
I do my best to keep it all inside,
And make sure nobody sees the pain behind my eyes,
I'm still broken, possibly beyond repair,
There's only one person who has the power to fix me,
But forcing them into that life again just wouldn't be fair,
She deserves better than that, even an idiot like me can see,
I don't know what else to do...
664 reads
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STORY POEM
Published
13th May 2016 1:17am
13th May 2016 1:17am
Rain and Squishy
There once was an octopus named Squishy,
It was the pet of a girl named Rain,
For some reason it smelled fishy,
The reason why confuses my brain,
A normal octopus this was not,
For it could go on land,
And it didn't die or even get hot,
This creature truly was quite grand,
They went on adventures and saw wonderful things,
From Hyrule to Skyrim it was beyond amazing,
Doing anything they could, from saving people to stopping evil kings,
And even stopping rainbow fires from blazing,
Their time together was short, much shorter than it...
It was the pet of a girl named Rain,
For some reason it smelled fishy,
The reason why confuses my brain,
A normal octopus this was not,
For it could go on land,
And it didn't die or even get hot,
This creature truly was quite grand,
They went on adventures and saw wonderful things,
From Hyrule to Skyrim it was beyond amazing,
Doing anything they could, from saving people to stopping evil kings,
And even stopping rainbow fires from blazing,
Their time together was short, much shorter than it...
518 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
11th May 2016 11:44pm
11th May 2016 11:44pm
Alone
I feel so alone,
Like a worthless waste of life,
I can't deal with this pain on my own,
It's cutting me deeper than even I do to myself with a knife,
Anyone I have either is too busy or just doesn't care,
And I don't want to be a burden to them any more than I already am,
And I'm the only one who should be brought down from my weakness if this becomes too much to bear,
And I'm nothing anyway so why should I expect anyone to give a damn,
The only other thing that seems to help is pain,
Going from mental to physical pain makes it easier to handle,...
Like a worthless waste of life,
I can't deal with this pain on my own,
It's cutting me deeper than even I do to myself with a knife,
Anyone I have either is too busy or just doesn't care,
And I don't want to be a burden to them any more than I already am,
And I'm the only one who should be brought down from my weakness if this becomes too much to bear,
And I'm nothing anyway so why should I expect anyone to give a damn,
The only other thing that seems to help is pain,
Going from mental to physical pain makes it easier to handle,...
617 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
11th May 2016 8:14pm
11th May 2016 8:14pm
Parasite
I am a parasite, taking happiness, leaving only anger and upset,
Either by bothering them with my problems that don't matter,
Or doing things to hurt them that I'll never forget,
And of course to make it worse, the former can cause the latter,
Or the material things I take with no return at all,
When those who have to waste it on me don't have it to waste,
I force myself to make what I take be small,
It's still an amount that would be better erased,
I starve myself, eating only when I have to,
I suppress my emotions and try to stay...
Either by bothering them with my problems that don't matter,
Or doing things to hurt them that I'll never forget,
And of course to make it worse, the former can cause the latter,
Or the material things I take with no return at all,
When those who have to waste it on me don't have it to waste,
I force myself to make what I take be small,
It's still an amount that would be better erased,
I starve myself, eating only when I have to,
I suppress my emotions and try to stay...
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DARK POEM
Published
11th May 2016 12:55pm
11th May 2016 12:55pm
Talk
I just want to talk,
About the stupid things clouding my mind,
But honestly the only thing that shoud happen is people should mock,
Me for being so weak, my thoughts should stay confined,
Why should I bother anyone else, what gives me the right?
They're my problems, I shouldn't need anyone's help to deal with it,
But I'm too weak on my own for this fight,
It would be so much easier just to quit,
It's my fault for being depressed anyway,
And other's have their own problems, and they're more important than a wretch like me,
I only even deserve...
About the stupid things clouding my mind,
But honestly the only thing that shoud happen is people should mock,
Me for being so weak, my thoughts should stay confined,
Why should I bother anyone else, what gives me the right?
They're my problems, I shouldn't need anyone's help to deal with it,
But I'm too weak on my own for this fight,
It would be so much easier just to quit,
It's my fault for being depressed anyway,
And other's have their own problems, and they're more important than a wretch like me,
I only even deserve...
567 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th May 2016 3:45am
11th May 2016 3:45am
Happy
I'm not good enough for you,
This is something I've always known,
And even though trying to be worthy is all I ever do,
The only thing I deserve is to be alone,
You're beautiful, smart, perfect in every way,
And everything I could ever want but don't deserve to have in my life,
And even though I try to make you as happy as I can every day,
All that I seem to cause when we're together is strife,
I want you to be happy and perhaps you'd be happier without me,
It seems that way sometimes with the pain I bring,
You stay and say you love me, but...
This is something I've always known,
And even though trying to be worthy is all I ever do,
The only thing I deserve is to be alone,
You're beautiful, smart, perfect in every way,
And everything I could ever want but don't deserve to have in my life,
And even though I try to make you as happy as I can every day,
All that I seem to cause when we're together is strife,
I want you to be happy and perhaps you'd be happier without me,
It seems that way sometimes with the pain I bring,
You stay and say you love me, but...
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DARK POEM
Published
11th May 2016 3:30am
11th May 2016 3:30am
Disappear
I feel like I'm going insane,
My mind's a warzone with only calms before the storms,
The only thing that seems to help is pain,
Luckily for me, pain comes in many forms,
I've thought of death, the one true peace,
But do I really deserve freedom from this torment,
At least the pain I bring to others would cease,
But the pain to myself is the only way I can repent,
Shutting myself away is the only way to go,
As much as it will hurt to fade from those I hold dear,
I know at least they will be happier without me though,
And I'll actually...
My mind's a warzone with only calms before the storms,
The only thing that seems to help is pain,
Luckily for me, pain comes in many forms,
I've thought of death, the one true peace,
But do I really deserve freedom from this torment,
At least the pain I bring to others would cease,
But the pain to myself is the only way I can repent,
Shutting myself away is the only way to go,
As much as it will hurt to fade from those I hold dear,
I know at least they will be happier without me though,
And I'll actually...
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DARK POEM
Published
26th Mar 2016 6:15am
26th Mar 2016 6:15am
Selfish and stupid
I tell you I'm depressed and you just ignore it,
I show that I'm upset and you just get mad,
All I want is a sign you care even just a bit,
Is that really asking too much, is that really so bad?
You make a lot of jokes, claim you're just kidding when you insult me,
And say I'm stupid for taking the jokes in a serious way,
But based on tone and context, how kidding can you be,
How many times can you make the claim before the joke starts to decay?
But when I bring myself down,
You get mad and say I'm...
I show that I'm upset and you just get mad,
All I want is a sign you care even just a bit,
Is that really asking too much, is that really so bad?
You make a lot of jokes, claim you're just kidding when you insult me,
And say I'm stupid for taking the jokes in a serious way,
But based on tone and context, how kidding can you be,
How many times can you make the claim before the joke starts to decay?
But when I bring myself down,
You get mad and say I'm...
687 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
21st Mar 2016 4:01am
21st Mar 2016 4:01am
Strong
Where to begin on this horrible mess,
Where to even start?
Where to begin in transforming my stress,
Into a sorry excuse for art?
Harder and harder even faking a smile has become,
As each day just goes by adding more pain,
Making me feel more worthless, ugly, and dumb,
And a bunch of other things that I feel are too unimportant to explain
I could talk about what's bothering me and why,
But I don't want to bother anyone by doing so,
It gets to the point where all I want to do is disappear or...
Where to even start?
Where to begin in transforming my stress,
Into a sorry excuse for art?
Harder and harder even faking a smile has become,
As each day just goes by adding more pain,
Making me feel more worthless, ugly, and dumb,
And a bunch of other things that I feel are too unimportant to explain
I could talk about what's bothering me and why,
But I don't want to bother anyone by doing so,
It gets to the point where all I want to do is disappear or...
552 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
21st Mar 2016 3:59am
21st Mar 2016 3:59am
Returning to my addiction
I didn't want to do this,
I really tried to stay away
But honestly it's something I kinda miss,
But at the same time leaves me feeling nothing but dismay,
Writing these poems, pouring out my heart,
Trying to lessen my pain,
But it's hard for me to control once I start,
I simply have no other choice, I'm going insane,
I have to channel my emotions into something, somehow,
And with nowhere else to turn for a release
Returning to writing I must allow,
For any hope of even momentary peace....
I really tried to stay away
But honestly it's something I kinda miss,
But at the same time leaves me feeling nothing but dismay,
Writing these poems, pouring out my heart,
Trying to lessen my pain,
But it's hard for me to control once I start,
I simply have no other choice, I'm going insane,
I have to channel my emotions into something, somehow,
And with nowhere else to turn for a release
Returning to writing I must allow,
For any hope of even momentary peace....
597 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Mar 2015 6:45pm
22nd Mar 2015 6:45pm
I'm not the one
Everything you're making me have to do,
Is because of what you've done,
I don't want to end it with you,
But I'm clearly not the one,
That makes you happy, that's clearly not me,
He makes you happy, I make you upset,
So this is how it has to be,
But for my time with you, I have no regret,
I'm sorry you had to put up with me this long,
That's not a fate I'd wish upon any person,
Soon enough I'll be gone,
So your pain no longer has to worsen,
For everything I put you...
Is because of what you've done,
I don't want to end it with you,
But I'm clearly not the one,
That makes you happy, that's clearly not me,
He makes you happy, I make you upset,
So this is how it has to be,
But for my time with you, I have no regret,
I'm sorry you had to put up with me this long,
That's not a fate I'd wish upon any person,
Soon enough I'll be gone,
So your pain no longer has to worsen,
For everything I put you...
926 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Mar 2015 1:20pm
22nd Mar 2015 1:20pm
The parting of ways
You say I don't love you for doing this,
And that I don't care about you,
And although me saying otherwise you dismiss,
What I'm doing is the most loving thing I can do,
For you love him, not me,
Regardless of what you say,
It's clear for anyone to see,
And so I had no choice, much to my dismay,
If you didn't want to be with him, he wouldn't get your time,
That you always say I can't have because you're hanging out with him,
If you wanted to be with me, the privilage of your time would be mine,...
And that I don't care about you,
And although me saying otherwise you dismiss,
What I'm doing is the most loving thing I can do,
For you love him, not me,
Regardless of what you say,
It's clear for anyone to see,
And so I had no choice, much to my dismay,
If you didn't want to be with him, he wouldn't get your time,
That you always say I can't have because you're hanging out with him,
If you wanted to be with me, the privilage of your time would be mine,...
842 reads
2 Comments
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