Submissions by Swan37
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I need a void to scream into. This is not a cry for help I just feel better when I write and let it all out
SELF POEM
Published
25th Apr 2023 12:39pm
25th Apr 2023 12:39pm
Changeless
Nothing is wrong
Nothing is right
That is the constant predicament of my life
I make wrong choices all the time
Might as well not make any
And it would all be the same
I'd still wake up in the same bed and leave it unmade
I'd still eat the same meals and worry about the same things
The fatigue in my body wouldn't leave
And the never-ending ache in my heart would still be a familiar melody
reminding me with every dreary heartbeat
that I'm still here
Never-ending
Never-changing
Me
Nothing is right
That is the constant predicament of my life
I make wrong choices all the time
Might as well not make any
And it would all be the same
I'd still wake up in the same bed and leave it unmade
I'd still eat the same meals and worry about the same things
The fatigue in my body wouldn't leave
And the never-ending ache in my heart would still be a familiar melody
reminding me with every dreary heartbeat
that I'm still here
Never-ending
Never-changing
Me
#aging
#despair
#suffering
#emptiness
#FeelingTrapped
231 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
15th Oct 2022 3:37pm
15th Oct 2022 3:37pm
The problem is me
I wish I had at least a bit of self-control
because maybe then all of my problems would be solved
Whenever I have a problem I just wait until it goes away
But perhaps the real issue is that some problems always stay
And I only have myself to blame
Which is too much for me
I cannot take that kind of pain
I can't accept that the real problem is me
because maybe then all of my problems would be solved
Whenever I have a problem I just wait until it goes away
But perhaps the real issue is that some problems always stay
And I only have myself to blame
Which is too much for me
I cannot take that kind of pain
I can't accept that the real problem is me
#depression
#confessional
#shame
#acceptance
#weakness
241 reads
3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
14th Oct 2022 8:19pm
14th Oct 2022 8:19pm
Smile for me
I wish this world wasn't so silly
and that people were nicer
at least a bit kinder
What does it even cost to spare a smile?
and that people were nicer
at least a bit kinder
What does it even cost to spare a smile?
#kindness
#loneliness
#LifeStruggles
314 reads
6 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
14th Oct 2022 8:02pm
14th Oct 2022 8:02pm
Rotten friends
I walk, dragging along my friend's limp and heavy body
We had a good time together though now he is dead
I hope he doesn't mind because this is how it always ends
To make it up to him, he can sleep in my bed
I'm in need of some company anyway
All I have are souvenirs
Their eyes and their teeth-- perfect memories, reminding me of all the fun we had
Solitude is getting boring
And life is becoming dull
I would kill for some company right about now
But instead, I find myself surrounded by the dead ...
We had a good time together though now he is dead
I hope he doesn't mind because this is how it always ends
To make it up to him, he can sleep in my bed
I'm in need of some company anyway
All I have are souvenirs
Their eyes and their teeth-- perfect memories, reminding me of all the fun we had
Solitude is getting boring
And life is becoming dull
I would kill for some company right about now
But instead, I find myself surrounded by the dead ...
#loneliness
#dark
#emptiness
#apathy
#Halloween
216 reads
2 Comments
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
6th Apr 2022 11:15pm
6th Apr 2022 11:15pm
Lady in red
You watch as she sucks on a lollipop
Her lips are stained cherry red
Her looks could make you wish you were dead
She's unreal, like a siren from a foggy dream
When she laughs her perfect white teeth gleam
You could never guess someone so beautiful is so mean
A devil in angel's skin
You wish you were her or with her
but you're neither
She takes a sip of her drink and sets it down
Her red coffin-shaped nails drum against the glass
She smiles at you, and you wonder if...
Her lips are stained cherry red
Her looks could make you wish you were dead
She's unreal, like a siren from a foggy dream
When she laughs her perfect white teeth gleam
You could never guess someone so beautiful is so mean
A devil in angel's skin
You wish you were her or with her
but you're neither
She takes a sip of her drink and sets it down
Her red coffin-shaped nails drum against the glass
She smiles at you, and you wonder if...
#lust
#women
#sensual #temptation
#sensual #temptation
407 reads
7 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
5th Apr 2022 11:20pm
5th Apr 2022 11:20pm
Monotone Monday
The daily routine is draining
And I am dry
There is nothing to drain out of me anymore...
I just want to die
And I am dry
There is nothing to drain out of me anymore...
I just want to die
#sadness
#dark
#suicide
#aging
#emptiness
572 reads
8 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
5th Apr 2022 11:20pm
5th Apr 2022 11:20pm
When we die
All dead people are just meat turned bone
Time isn't any kinder to them than it is to us
As we dread getting our first silver hair they dread turning from bone to dust
Becoming nothing is a must
It's so inevitable that even God can't help you
No matter how much you pray
So pick yourself up, dust off your knees, and feel the freedom's breeze
Time isn't any kinder to them than it is to us
As we dread getting our first silver hair they dread turning from bone to dust
Becoming nothing is a must
It's so inevitable that even God can't help you
No matter how much you pray
So pick yourself up, dust off your knees, and feel the freedom's breeze
#death
#atheism
#religion
#faith
#fear
348 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
25th Mar 2022 12:07pm
25th Mar 2022 12:07pm
How does one save themselves?
I eat and I feel guilty
then I overeat and feel guiltier still
but I can't seem to stop
I fear my body will rot
I want to be healthy and happy
I want to make good choices for myself
choices I know I should be making
choices I know would make my life better
but I don't have the strength
so I just sit in my room as I write and chew
I am miserable and numb at the same time
I can't make up my mind
it's hard to breathe and I'm dying on the inside
I need saving from myself
then I overeat and feel guiltier still
but I can't seem to stop
I fear my body will rot
I want to be healthy and happy
I want to make good choices for myself
choices I know I should be making
choices I know would make my life better
but I don't have the strength
so I just sit in my room as I write and chew
I am miserable and numb at the same time
I can't make up my mind
it's hard to breathe and I'm dying on the inside
I need saving from myself
#EatingDisorder
#despair
#suffering
#emptiness
#FeelingTrapped
391 reads
0 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Mar 2022 12:07pm
25th Mar 2022 12:07pm
Life is beautiful
The weather is nice and sunny
It hasn't been this warm in months
The sun shines on my skin and I can feel it melting my numbness away
A light breeze is blowing and it tousles my hair
I breathe it in and it makes me feel lighter somehow
Frees me from whatever has been weighing me down
Life is beautiful, comes to my mind, unbidden
And it catches me off guard
Startles me even
Because when was the last time I thought that?
I don't really...
It hasn't been this warm in months
The sun shines on my skin and I can feel it melting my numbness away
A light breeze is blowing and it tousles my hair
I breathe it in and it makes me feel lighter somehow
Frees me from whatever has been weighing me down
Life is beautiful, comes to my mind, unbidden
And it catches me off guard
Startles me even
Because when was the last time I thought that?
I don't really...
#LifeStruggles
#LifeCycle
#aging
#acceptance
#bittersweet
420 reads
10 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2022 6:53pm
23rd Mar 2022 6:53pm
Echoes of thunder
The sky is so dark that I can barely see what's in front of me
and the air smells of thunder
I can feel it approaching more than I can see or hear it
but I know it's there
so I wait...
as a shiver tingles my skin in anticipation
And I am rewarded with the sound of the first boom
strong and defiant, ready to wreak havoc
Ready to pierce through me with the truth it brings
It's nighttime, the sky is violent
And I ache as thunder echoes all around me
I ache for the past and for the future
I don't...
and the air smells of thunder
I can feel it approaching more than I can see or hear it
but I know it's there
so I wait...
as a shiver tingles my skin in anticipation
And I am rewarded with the sound of the first boom
strong and defiant, ready to wreak havoc
Ready to pierce through me with the truth it brings
It's nighttime, the sky is violent
And I ache as thunder echoes all around me
I ache for the past and for the future
I don't...
#dark
#sky
#storm
#aging
#FeelingTrapped
222 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Mar 2022 00:04am
23rd Mar 2022 00:04am
Dark and lonely
My eyes sting with unshed tears
I just feel like I need a good cry
Some relief from my emotions
because they're all stirred up inside
A potion of apprehension, sadness, and emptiness
is swirling inside me like a violent storm
and I just want to break free
I feel nothing and everything at once
and it is too much
I can't take it anymore
I feel numb to my very core
And with each breath I take, I think of ending it all
But I just can't
There are too many things I have to do
And...
I just feel like I need a good cry
Some relief from my emotions
because they're all stirred up inside
A potion of apprehension, sadness, and emptiness
is swirling inside me like a violent storm
and I just want to break free
I feel nothing and everything at once
and it is too much
I can't take it anymore
I feel numb to my very core
And with each breath I take, I think of ending it all
But I just can't
There are too many things I have to do
And...
#sadness
#anxiety
#loneliness
#confusion
#emptiness
298 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Mar 2022 11:50pm
22nd Mar 2022 11:50pm
liquid courage
Drunk text me
Let me hear your voice, your words-- slurred and incomprehensible
But honest for once
Just tell me what you've been up to lately
Tell me how your life has been miserable and crazy
Mumble about how badly you want me back
And how you're no good ever since I left
Murmur something sweet so I have a reason to forgive and forget
Tell me you miss the way things were and that I'm better than her
And I just might believe your dulcet words
Let me hear your voice, your words-- slurred and incomprehensible
But honest for once
Just tell me what you've been up to lately
Tell me how your life has been miserable and crazy
Mumble about how badly you want me back
And how you're no good ever since I left
Murmur something sweet so I have a reason to forgive and forget
Tell me you miss the way things were and that I'm better than her
And I just might believe your dulcet words
#forgiveness
#breakup
#separation
#bittersweet
#manipulation
420 reads
1 Comment
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