Submissions by RobynRenee

It was happening again.
One moment I was with my class sitting in our music room, listening to our teacher play a song on his saxophone, and the next moment I was swept away.
Carried away on a stream of color and light. Every sound was a beautiful splash of breathtaking color. Every beat was a wonderful vibrating black, basing and carrying the song along.
I could see my classmates on the outside. They were all still just sitting there. Listening to notes, paying attention to the accents and all the million other things we had to know.
And suddenly I felt an immense...

You don’t understand
And you never will
What it’s like to be cheated off
That work is not just work
It is not just scribbles
I conjured using magic
That work
Spells out hours of frustration
Days of crying in anger at my own confusion
Arguments and debates
Self hatred slicing deeper than a blade
Terrifying times, when I am so sure I will never understand
Never grasp this concept
To some, it is life and death
For those scribbles on a page
I almost killed myself
Multiple times
I was so desperate
To...

If I had known
I would have taken you in my arms
And never let go
If I had known
I would have treasured every word you said
And asked you the questions left unread
If I had known
I would have stayed there beside you
Never letting you out of my sight
If I had known
I would have guarded you
Day and night
If I had known

They’re gone now
the house is filled with a queer feeling
a sort of emptiness
and quietness
that is somehow wrong
and bad
a bit like when you walk outside
and suddenly feel cold
even when there’s no wind
or chill
but your body shivers anyway
only it’s somehow between a shiver
and a sob

My best friend’s dad
Died last night
Two weeks ago
We had a fight
It was my fault
Full and truly
But when I said sorry
She wouldn't believe me
We haven't really spoken
Or seen each other at all
Since she started at a different school
Apart from me last fall
I’ve really missed her
I hope she’s ok
But I don't know how to help her
Without forcing her away
How do you protect
And love someone dear
When that same person
Doesn't even want you near?