Submissions by RedRose4689

I feel this empty hole in my heart.
Who knows what i'm searching for,
but i don't love him any longer so i'm out here exploring.

Some days I can't hold back the tears.
I don't even care who notices anymore,
because i'm not even close to hiding my emotions.

I could care less what hes doing.
At times I reminiscence about certain moments,
and i have to remind myself i'm going too far into the past.

I've come so close to finding happiness but the next second i'm right back at feeling the same way again.

I shouldn't even be here...

I'm stuck on mute.
No words to say.
If you knew my pain, you wouldn't ask me to explain anything.
I can't believe it has happened to me.
I've been cheated from my own destiny.
Who am I to blame?
Who caused these games?
I let my guard off and landed in this place.
Watching the children play seems to ease the day away.
Killing time by watching another's precious moments.
It's so unfair that I ended up with scars.
Forever and always a permanent hole in my heart.

Sorry Dad,

I never meant to disappoint you.

I'm confused because he's so much like you.

If you could only understand,

Deep inside he's such a great man.

I never had intentions of a secret love affair.

I'm half his age and I knew something was wrong there.

I was a wilting flower & he gave me my water.

I tried to shut him out but our bond only grew stronger.

He slowly filled in some of my missing spots.

Every once in a while he can connect the dots.

How silly of me to fall for his...