Submissions by Rayne
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I started writing poetry at 11, and only ever stop when the depth of life drown me, but the words live in secret inside me
SELF POEM
Published
5th Aug 2014 4:36pm
5th Aug 2014 4:36pm
No
Thoughts dissolve in my mind, unformed
Ideas race away from me
And unwilling to process them,
I turn away
What else is there left to say
I don’t have faith, okay?!
I was desperate
I cracked and I shouldn’t have
I asked for help
And I shouldn’t have
Ideas race away from me
And unwilling to process them,
I turn away
What else is there left to say
I don’t have faith, okay?!
I was desperate
I cracked and I shouldn’t have
I asked for help
And I shouldn’t have
409 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Jun 2014 8:54am
12th Jun 2014 8:54am
Unsaid
Torn in two, in three, in four
I'm torn apart in search of you
Little things you do delight me
I find myself just caressing
Your face with my eyes
Delighting in the way you talk
The way you'd catch my eye
I feel a bubble of joy in my chest
Expanding into bursts of happiness
It spills over and i just want to kiss you to share my joy of you
The way you walk slow and steady
Sure and tentative all at once
You fill me up
But you are always worried and serious
It dims my joy
Stop worrying and live with me
And as easy as the...
I'm torn apart in search of you
Little things you do delight me
I find myself just caressing
Your face with my eyes
Delighting in the way you talk
The way you'd catch my eye
I feel a bubble of joy in my chest
Expanding into bursts of happiness
It spills over and i just want to kiss you to share my joy of you
The way you walk slow and steady
Sure and tentative all at once
You fill me up
But you are always worried and serious
It dims my joy
Stop worrying and live with me
And as easy as the...
520 reads
3 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
24th May 2014 6:55pm
24th May 2014 6:55pm
Confrontation
Rocking with tears running down my face
I don't know what you mean when you speak
Your emotions says this
Your voice says that
And I'm expecting a trick
You want me to say something
But I don't know what
Nothing relevant anyway
I wrack my brain but I don't know what you mean
Your emotions say this
Your voice says that
And I'm afraid
Because I don't know what you mean
I don't know what you mean when you speak
Your emotions says this
Your voice says that
And I'm expecting a trick
You want me to say something
But I don't know what
Nothing relevant anyway
I wrack my brain but I don't know what you mean
Your emotions say this
Your voice says that
And I'm afraid
Because I don't know what you mean
379 reads
6 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd May 2014 11:30pm
23rd May 2014 11:30pm
Judgement card
Rocking again. I hate that I notice
It's best when I don't know
I tried to talk
I swear I did
I just do not know how to speak
Without resorting to metaphor
I perceive the world as ideas and emotions
I can't explain the idea without the metaphor
It is as I see it.
That's how I perceive the world
I can't explain it any other way
I know no one understands when I speak
I know I'm totally misunderstood more than half the time
This is why it's best I'm not there
This is why it's best that no one should care
For me at all.
Look how...
It's best when I don't know
I tried to talk
I swear I did
I just do not know how to speak
Without resorting to metaphor
I perceive the world as ideas and emotions
I can't explain the idea without the metaphor
It is as I see it.
That's how I perceive the world
I can't explain it any other way
I know no one understands when I speak
I know I'm totally misunderstood more than half the time
This is why it's best I'm not there
This is why it's best that no one should care
For me at all.
Look how...
407 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
21st May 2014 3:21pm
21st May 2014 3:21pm
Get back up
Terror still claws at my chest
So I smoke it away
The more I smoke
The easier I rest
The less the terror claws at my chest
But days still come where I cry all the way home
Where I fall down on my knees and cry for hours
Without moving at all
Just rocking
Just rocking as I sob in the echoing silence
Then I get up
I wash my face
And I remind myself
You lost it all more than once
You pick it up
You carry on
Because that’s what we do in this family
No time or space for the weak
You get back up
So I smoke it away
The more I smoke
The easier I rest
The less the terror claws at my chest
But days still come where I cry all the way home
Where I fall down on my knees and cry for hours
Without moving at all
Just rocking
Just rocking as I sob in the echoing silence
Then I get up
I wash my face
And I remind myself
You lost it all more than once
You pick it up
You carry on
Because that’s what we do in this family
No time or space for the weak
You get back up
412 reads
8 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
21st May 2014 11:58am
21st May 2014 11:58am
Loves me more
So I saw this thing
I wasn’t supposed to see
Because I locked it down
As not meant for me
I looked and I looked
At the horse and at you
Amused again
Remembering everyone
Laughing at it
Phoning me and asking
Dafuq is that?!
I was kind and said
I’m sure she is nice
It isn’t all about looks you know
Don’t be mean
I don’t need validation
But it wasn’t about me you see
The humor is still there
Because flipping through our pics
I just realized
Oh honey
I was so far out of your league in every way that counted...
I wasn’t supposed to see
Because I locked it down
As not meant for me
I looked and I looked
At the horse and at you
Amused again
Remembering everyone
Laughing at it
Phoning me and asking
Dafuq is that?!
I was kind and said
I’m sure she is nice
It isn’t all about looks you know
Don’t be mean
I don’t need validation
But it wasn’t about me you see
The humor is still there
Because flipping through our pics
I just realized
Oh honey
I was so far out of your league in every way that counted...
521 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
20th May 2014 10:30am
20th May 2014 10:30am
Alone
Locked inside this chest of mine
A secret life, of fear and avoidance
I refuse to live my life in fear
So I avoid all I'm afraid of
That is not a life of courage
That is a life of lies
Rip me open
Tear out my chest
Dont let go and don’t let me rest
Rip it out
Then put it back
Hold onto me and don’t let go
Because I can’t do this alone
A secret life, of fear and avoidance
I refuse to live my life in fear
So I avoid all I'm afraid of
That is not a life of courage
That is a life of lies
Rip me open
Tear out my chest
Dont let go and don’t let me rest
Rip it out
Then put it back
Hold onto me and don’t let go
Because I can’t do this alone
495 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
20th May 2014 10:29am
20th May 2014 10:29am
Counting Scars
The day went by unnoticed
The anniversary of the last day that I held you.
I don’t even remember what I did that day
I don’t remember if we spoke
I am so hollow, so very very hollow
I am counting scars again
I forgot to remember that I had joy
I am counting scars again
This one was you
It doesn’t bleed
It festers
This one was them
The edges are smooth
A precision cut
Cauterized
This one is family
I’m counting scars when I should be counting stars
The anniversary of the last day that I held you.
I don’t even remember what I did that day
I don’t remember if we spoke
I am so hollow, so very very hollow
I am counting scars again
I forgot to remember that I had joy
I am counting scars again
This one was you
It doesn’t bleed
It festers
This one was them
The edges are smooth
A precision cut
Cauterized
This one is family
I’m counting scars when I should be counting stars
526 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th May 2014 8:40pm
19th May 2014 8:40pm
July 26
Days like today I feel the need to be alone
More so than any other day
So many important dates coming up
I need time to reflect
I can't bear the sound of anything
Yet even the silence seem to scream at me
I'm alone. All alone. As I want to be
Reflection
Reflection
Reflection
Memory
The date is coming up you know
The date is coming up and I am facing it alone
Last year I had you
So far away and yet
You talked me through it
This will be the first year that I'm alone
No one who knows why
Or how
Or even if
Why I...
More so than any other day
So many important dates coming up
I need time to reflect
I can't bear the sound of anything
Yet even the silence seem to scream at me
I'm alone. All alone. As I want to be
Reflection
Reflection
Reflection
Memory
The date is coming up you know
The date is coming up and I am facing it alone
Last year I had you
So far away and yet
You talked me through it
This will be the first year that I'm alone
No one who knows why
Or how
Or even if
Why I...
467 reads
2 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th May 2014 3:03pm
19th May 2014 3:03pm
Collector
How can i feel such joy and sorrow
All at once
Gratitude and bliss
Joy
I feel it all, I am happy at last
Yet the sorrow I feel seems to never leave me either
I walk with this weight inside my chest
I am starting to feel like a collector of sorts
I collect losses like others do stamps
Every loss is a bleeding wound inside me
That never heals
Yet my bliss is untouched by this
Happy
At last
Despite the losses bleeding in my chest
Despite the pain that grants me no rest
Despite the sorrow that weighs me down
I smile and I laugh...
All at once
Gratitude and bliss
Joy
I feel it all, I am happy at last
Yet the sorrow I feel seems to never leave me either
I walk with this weight inside my chest
I am starting to feel like a collector of sorts
I collect losses like others do stamps
Every loss is a bleeding wound inside me
That never heals
Yet my bliss is untouched by this
Happy
At last
Despite the losses bleeding in my chest
Despite the pain that grants me no rest
Despite the sorrow that weighs me down
I smile and I laugh...
452 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
17th May 2014 5:45pm
17th May 2014 5:45pm
Judgement
Daddy you said my day would come
Where denying who I am will have to end
You said to me live life in truth
And destiny will be yours to hold
Thank You dad. I'm ready now
Where denying who I am will have to end
You said to me live life in truth
And destiny will be yours to hold
Thank You dad. I'm ready now
404 reads
2 Comments
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