Submissions by Quinnzelle
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
27th Nov 2020 1:15am
27th Nov 2020 1:15am
Darkness
Can you see I am hurting?
My heart has been wronged.
I'm doing my best to stay strong, I never give up. I find ways to fill my cup.
But the sorrow is never really gone.
There are times when happiness comes my way, but nothing in this world was ever meant to stay.
Just because I carry it all so well, does not mean it isn't heavy. It has made me dark and fragile.
Not fragile like a wilting flower, no, fragile like a bomb, don't get it wrong.
I have become strong enough that even most demons fear me. I no longer look to escape my darkness, for I have learned...
My heart has been wronged.
I'm doing my best to stay strong, I never give up. I find ways to fill my cup.
But the sorrow is never really gone.
There are times when happiness comes my way, but nothing in this world was ever meant to stay.
Just because I carry it all so well, does not mean it isn't heavy. It has made me dark and fragile.
Not fragile like a wilting flower, no, fragile like a bomb, don't get it wrong.
I have become strong enough that even most demons fear me. I no longer look to escape my darkness, for I have learned...
#grief
#dark
#heartbroken
#apathy
#bittersweet
248 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Nov 2020 7:18pm
23rd Nov 2020 7:18pm
Betrayal
He ran his hands over my pain, lingering over the dents and worn edges of my past. When I thought he would run away he told me I was a warrior, and I would never again have to fight another battle alone, and I never did. For every bad dream, every PTSD attack, every anxiety attack, he was at my side calming me, reasuring me I was safe with him. He had conquered what no man or psychiatrist ever had. He brought down my walls, brick by brick. He let me be raw and vulnerable. He made me feel safe. He removed my armor, piece by piece, until I was bare and unprotected; guarded only by the strength...
#anger
#heartbroken
#disappointment
#emptiness
#bittersweet
293 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Aug 2020 5:01pm
30th Aug 2020 5:01pm
The Price of a Tortured Soul
My life has been plagued with one nightmare after the next. What have I done to be so vexedCould I have been so awful in a past life I am reaping the karma of former victims?
As if this is God's own dictim?
Oh what a monster I must have been.
The person I must have been back then.
I imagine it all makes perfect sense,
given the bits of lingering monster still left inside me present tense.
I feel her hunger and rave, I feel her stir and crave. Though there is light of some compassion, her taste of particular predictors spark her true passion. I feel I am...
As if this is God's own dictim?
Oh what a monster I must have been.
The person I must have been back then.
I imagine it all makes perfect sense,
given the bits of lingering monster still left inside me present tense.
I feel her hunger and rave, I feel her stir and crave. Though there is light of some compassion, her taste of particular predictors spark her true passion. I feel I am...
#rebirth
#fate
#pagan
#redemption
#curse
278 reads
4 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
29th Aug 2020 11:01pm
29th Aug 2020 11:01pm
My Darkest Days
I've been ripped from my family and sequestered away, moved from one safehouse to the next. Being hunted like prey by those I once thought to be friends but turned out to be monsters in diguise. Unable to talk to family or friends, alone, abandoned, forgotten. Unable to explain to my loved ones my where about and circumstance. Nothing but journal pages to tell my story and a wet pillow case to feel my sorrows. With each new location comes a new name, a new look, Ive almost forgotten who I really am. Who is this woman in the pictures I see from years ago? It's almost hard to remember a normal...
#sadness
#anger
#loneliness
#heartbroken
#frustration
301 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
19th Nov 2019 3:02am
19th Nov 2019 3:02am
PTSD
My world is getting dark
All is fading to black.
My mind is racing
My vision is pulsating.
These memories are intrusive
They know no boundaries.
I know what has triggered me
My coping techniques aren’t working.
It is in full motion
For this has no breaks.
I must ride it out
It’s terrifying.
I want to run
I want to fight.
I’m paralyzed by fear
I can’t move.
I can’t breathe
I can’t speak.
I’m screaming inside
“Help me!”
I’m a prisoner in my own head.
Fear is my...
All is fading to black.
My mind is racing
My vision is pulsating.
These memories are intrusive
They know no boundaries.
I know what has triggered me
My coping techniques aren’t working.
It is in full motion
For this has no breaks.
I must ride it out
It’s terrifying.
I want to run
I want to fight.
I’m paralyzed by fear
I can’t move.
I can’t breathe
I can’t speak.
I’m screaming inside
“Help me!”
I’m a prisoner in my own head.
Fear is my...
#PTSD
589 reads
7 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
18th Oct 2019 10:47pm
18th Oct 2019 10:47pm
Awakened
So I'm a danger to myself?
Just think what I can do to you.
They talk about me as if they dont know who I am.
I have tried so hard to chang my ways
But all this bullshit has brought me full circle.
Do you not remember the monster inside?
Years it took to tame her, keep her at bay.
You had to poke her, why are you so foolish?
Dormant she lies no more.
She is sick, this beast
A lack of apathy for you all.
She has torn apart many, just for fun.
She destroys all in her path to desire.
Her desires are grim, dark, and...
Just think what I can do to you.
They talk about me as if they dont know who I am.
I have tried so hard to chang my ways
But all this bullshit has brought me full circle.
Do you not remember the monster inside?
Years it took to tame her, keep her at bay.
You had to poke her, why are you so foolish?
Dormant she lies no more.
She is sick, this beast
A lack of apathy for you all.
She has torn apart many, just for fun.
She destroys all in her path to desire.
Her desires are grim, dark, and...
#dark
556 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Oct 2019 7:02pm
10th Oct 2019 7:02pm
Unrequited Love
It's just not right
Having to live this lie
She fakes her smiles
And holds her cries
Wishing she didn't have to say goodbye
Deep down she knows the truth
She is too kind
He thinks she is blind
She sees too clearly
But still she holds him dearly
She wished it wasn't true
All the things they say about you
Can you do me a favor
Has become as exhausting as manual labor
It took an old flame to spark her self worth
She has been neglected
She feels rejected
This man she thought she loved
Has...
Having to live this lie
She fakes her smiles
And holds her cries
Wishing she didn't have to say goodbye
Deep down she knows the truth
She is too kind
He thinks she is blind
She sees too clearly
But still she holds him dearly
She wished it wasn't true
All the things they say about you
Can you do me a favor
Has become as exhausting as manual labor
It took an old flame to spark her self worth
She has been neglected
She feels rejected
This man she thought she loved
Has...
#jealousy
#heartbroken
#lies
#betrayal
#IMissYou
741 reads
8 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
10th Oct 2019 6:49pm
10th Oct 2019 6:49pm
Just need to Vent
How dare you say you feel taken advantage of! Your words are selfish and one sided. I have helped you in so many ways and you leave me here to feel like a burden. You go here and there and waste your money away. You expect me to pick up your financial slack and raise your family.
I gave up my freedom, I gave up my happiness and all you do is want for your selfish needs. I will not be lost, I will not be forgotten. You are about to see this devil inside. She speaks her mind, she doesn't hold her tongue or give a thought to what you feel. She has been through enough. She doesnt need...
I gave up my freedom, I gave up my happiness and all you do is want for your selfish needs. I will not be lost, I will not be forgotten. You are about to see this devil inside. She speaks her mind, she doesn't hold her tongue or give a thought to what you feel. She has been through enough. She doesnt need...
#anger
#anxiety
#frustration
#greed
#disappointment
503 reads
7 Comments
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