Submissions by Queennels (NELLIE)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
inner monologue
I was always wondering what I'm going to say to you the next time you call, the next time you want to see my face, the next time you decide that it's time for you to come over and spend the night.
i can't even call you when I fucking need you. you're selfish and i'm the second option
I understand we said no strings attached no feelings no games no falling in love and i didn't break any of those rules. i'm just ashamed of myself for fucking a nigga Who can't even call me to see if I'm straight if I'm good can't even call me for a casual conversation like normal human beings and...
i can't even call you when I fucking need you. you're selfish and i'm the second option
I understand we said no strings attached no feelings no games no falling in love and i didn't break any of those rules. i'm just ashamed of myself for fucking a nigga Who can't even call me to see if I'm straight if I'm good can't even call me for a casual conversation like normal human beings and...
#love
#regret
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love lost.
I'm over empty promises and tears that burn of regret
I'd rather sleep with my demons than deal with yours too..broken promises part two..
I can't be the woman you loved and I can't find the woman I used to be.
we're lost in the mist of young, reckless love
and we've both said things into the universe
we can't take back.
i can't love you again but I'm still in love with you
I'm in a twisted love affair with the man you used to be and the stranger I see in front of me now. we broke each other..
we can both try to cover those scars with tattoos painted by new...
I'd rather sleep with my demons than deal with yours too..broken promises part two..
I can't be the woman you loved and I can't find the woman I used to be.
we're lost in the mist of young, reckless love
and we've both said things into the universe
we can't take back.
i can't love you again but I'm still in love with you
I'm in a twisted love affair with the man you used to be and the stranger I see in front of me now. we broke each other..
we can both try to cover those scars with tattoos painted by new...
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things I can't say
I'm trying to give you space so I won't call, I'll keep this to myself.
but there's not a moment I don't miss you, your very existence is constantly in the back of my mind reminding me of where I went wrong. I still love you
I'm clinging on to our memories for as long as my body and mind can handle it
I'm not ready to speak of you as a past friend..past lover.
I'm accepting what is, but I can't let go.
we took each other to temporary universes of bliss, made each other feel emotions so strong it seemed as if our souls used to sing to each other in another lifetime. I...
but there's not a moment I don't miss you, your very existence is constantly in the back of my mind reminding me of where I went wrong. I still love you
I'm clinging on to our memories for as long as my body and mind can handle it
I'm not ready to speak of you as a past friend..past lover.
I'm accepting what is, but I can't let go.
we took each other to temporary universes of bliss, made each other feel emotions so strong it seemed as if our souls used to sing to each other in another lifetime. I...
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energy
I've never been so fond and intrigued by a being so delicate as I.
the lust I have for him is soul consuming, keeps me up at night wondering what he tastes like.
wondering if he wonders about me too..my entire existence is attracted to him, he's probably no good for my heart
but it's my soul that needs touching. the universe didn't work in my favor
and I've had nothing but heartbreak, I pull the love card every time and I think the stars are telling me to let lust capture me
take me to another reality.
we smoke and let Maria take control
of the ambiance,...
the lust I have for him is soul consuming, keeps me up at night wondering what he tastes like.
wondering if he wonders about me too..my entire existence is attracted to him, he's probably no good for my heart
but it's my soul that needs touching. the universe didn't work in my favor
and I've had nothing but heartbreak, I pull the love card every time and I think the stars are telling me to let lust capture me
take me to another reality.
we smoke and let Maria take control
of the ambiance,...
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acid trip
I met the devil last night
we danced and laughed and we drank our sorrows until our breaths reeked of Hennessy.
I let him touch under my skirt and kiss my lips, caress my breasts and let him put his slick tongue on my nipples.
he tastes like sin and paradise mixed in a deadly drink that I couldn't stop sipping.
his skin so perfectly smooth with lips that made my anatomy quiver. I want him.
I had a taste of temptation and I feel so dirty but I need him.
his hands grip my body like his life depends on it, I've never been so wet. I dripped for him effortlessly, he...
we danced and laughed and we drank our sorrows until our breaths reeked of Hennessy.
I let him touch under my skirt and kiss my lips, caress my breasts and let him put his slick tongue on my nipples.
he tastes like sin and paradise mixed in a deadly drink that I couldn't stop sipping.
his skin so perfectly smooth with lips that made my anatomy quiver. I want him.
I had a taste of temptation and I feel so dirty but I need him.
his hands grip my body like his life depends on it, I've never been so wet. I dripped for him effortlessly, he...
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I should have stayed to myself
but I have a thing for innocent souls and poor judgment.
my deepest regret is taking you in when I was unfit to be loved the way you loved me.
what I'm ashamed of the most is turning you so cold after the passion we've been giving each other.
things change and feelings climax but every story has a come down. I would erase the past few months if I could, and store away those memories in a box that
I could pass by and remember you whenever I decide to take a look inside.
but I have a thing for innocent souls and poor judgment.
my deepest regret is taking you in when I was unfit to be loved the way you loved me.
what I'm ashamed of the most is turning you so cold after the passion we've been giving each other.
things change and feelings climax but every story has a come down. I would erase the past few months if I could, and store away those memories in a box that
I could pass by and remember you whenever I decide to take a look inside.
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lovelust
I'm having a hard time telling love and lust apart.
I'll spread my legs but be too afraid to share my heart.
his eyes pierce my soul in ways I can't even fathom
I sold myself to him
his hands know every trace of my body but he doesn't know what makes me cry at night. I'm so afraid of dancing alone, so when the devil offered his hand I didn't dare resist.
the rhythm of our breaking breaths are stronger than any jazz player, my moans sound like New Orleans in the spring time.
'I made sure you get yours before I get mine.'
I love him I love him I lust him....
I'll spread my legs but be too afraid to share my heart.
his eyes pierce my soul in ways I can't even fathom
I sold myself to him
his hands know every trace of my body but he doesn't know what makes me cry at night. I'm so afraid of dancing alone, so when the devil offered his hand I didn't dare resist.
the rhythm of our breaking breaths are stronger than any jazz player, my moans sound like New Orleans in the spring time.
'I made sure you get yours before I get mine.'
I love him I love him I lust him....
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What Does Your Heaven Look Like
what does your heaven look like?
is it full of butterflies and flowers every where?
are you alone, are you happy?
do you see mountains and waterfalls..are you happy?
am I in your heaven, is our love for each other a part of your paradise?
are we old? is it just us or are we surrounded by our old lives?
I need to know what your heaven looks like.
I need to know if I mean something to you
is our love that deep?
I think our souls whisper to each other in our sleep, we’re meant for each other. we need each other.
is this life temporary? is heaven our...
is it full of butterflies and flowers every where?
are you alone, are you happy?
do you see mountains and waterfalls..are you happy?
am I in your heaven, is our love for each other a part of your paradise?
are we old? is it just us or are we surrounded by our old lives?
I need to know what your heaven looks like.
I need to know if I mean something to you
is our love that deep?
I think our souls whisper to each other in our sleep, we’re meant for each other. we need each other.
is this life temporary? is heaven our...
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I should've..
I should've never fronted like I was fine
now I'm contemplating whether or not I wanna hang off my tree's vine after I drink this bottle of wine.
I'm curious, I wanna know what death taste like. The devil himself sounds sexier when you call him Diablo.
I'm scared I'm hurt and all I do is paint a smile on my face, I'm a corrupt version of frida kahlo herself.
I should've never fronted like I was ok
bleach looks like champagne to me now and I'm finding it hard to tell the difference between hello and goodbye.
I miss who I was and I hope someone pulls her out of my...
now I'm contemplating whether or not I wanna hang off my tree's vine after I drink this bottle of wine.
I'm curious, I wanna know what death taste like. The devil himself sounds sexier when you call him Diablo.
I'm scared I'm hurt and all I do is paint a smile on my face, I'm a corrupt version of frida kahlo herself.
I should've never fronted like I was ok
bleach looks like champagne to me now and I'm finding it hard to tell the difference between hello and goodbye.
I miss who I was and I hope someone pulls her out of my...
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The Calm After the Storm
the calm after the storm is when I feel so alone.
the silence after the music turns off, the come down when the high wears off..
The fall after the climax.
You were my wind and I was the ocean, you controlled how strong I am
disregard the fact that I'm vast and full of life, without my wind I lose my waves.
You left and I was nothing but whirlpools and typhoons and shit. I was crazy as shit
But there's always a calm after the storm
where everybody and everything sits still for awhile.
the silence after the music turns off, the come down when the high wears off..
The fall after the climax.
You were my wind and I was the ocean, you controlled how strong I am
disregard the fact that I'm vast and full of life, without my wind I lose my waves.
You left and I was nothing but whirlpools and typhoons and shit. I was crazy as shit
But there's always a calm after the storm
where everybody and everything sits still for awhile.
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I Moved on (I Swear)
I moved on I swear I did but why do I keep getting flashbacks of us
and how we spent our summer nights together
why do I remember every word you've said to me
I go back to places we've been
in hopes I'll see us exactly where my dreams left off.
Why do I melt every time I see your face
and why does it hurt to see you with her.
I moved on I swear I did
but I say your name all the time in my head
because you owe me something
you owe me time and hope and love and hate and more love.
I miss you but fuck you
I can't keep torturing my soul...
and how we spent our summer nights together
why do I remember every word you've said to me
I go back to places we've been
in hopes I'll see us exactly where my dreams left off.
Why do I melt every time I see your face
and why does it hurt to see you with her.
I moved on I swear I did
but I say your name all the time in my head
because you owe me something
you owe me time and hope and love and hate and more love.
I miss you but fuck you
I can't keep torturing my soul...
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Past Lifetime
I know I've felt you before, maybe way back when I was four Or maybe I'm trippin.
This love is strong and familiar
Our souls must've touched in another realm, another world. We were probably king and queen or maybe two butterflies that always crossed paths. But I know I've felt you before. This love can't be foreign, we are too synchronized.
I feel what you feel, you feel what I feel.
This love is comfortable, when I'm with you I feel like I'm home again.
This love is strong and familiar
Our souls must've touched in another realm, another world. We were probably king and queen or maybe two butterflies that always crossed paths. But I know I've felt you before. This love can't be foreign, we are too synchronized.
I feel what you feel, you feel what I feel.
This love is comfortable, when I'm with you I feel like I'm home again.
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