Submissions by NuBorn (BxckedbyGold)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
SELF POEM
Published
15th Nov 2019 2:46pm
15th Nov 2019 2:46pm
I Am a Troubled Heart
#sadness
#depression
#lust #rejection
#lust #rejection
420 reads
0 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Nov 2019 2:00pm
15th Nov 2019 2:00pm
Slashed Wrists
Pour out my blood on a golden cup and take a sip!
From cut veins, my poetry will seep!
All the voices and screams buried in the graveyard of my mind,
the noises and dreams will all be left behind!
Not a day passes by without images of dead souls flooding my thoughts
visual and auditory hallucinations of gunshots sees me inhaling some drug snorts!
Alone, exposed, abandoned and vulnerable, isn't this the best possible solution?
Isn't this my well deserved execution?
"Don't allow such thoughts to deteriorate your mental state" so...
From cut veins, my poetry will seep!
All the voices and screams buried in the graveyard of my mind,
the noises and dreams will all be left behind!
Not a day passes by without images of dead souls flooding my thoughts
visual and auditory hallucinations of gunshots sees me inhaling some drug snorts!
Alone, exposed, abandoned and vulnerable, isn't this the best possible solution?
Isn't this my well deserved execution?
"Don't allow such thoughts to deteriorate your mental state" so...
#depression
#suicide
#MentalHealth #SelfDiscovery
#MentalHealth #SelfDiscovery
665 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
26th Oct 2019 10:50am
26th Oct 2019 10:50am
Blank
Enveloped by hollowing darkness that creeps at night
Hiding away the shadows of my misery
Anxiety wriggling in as these walls close in on me
I See Nothing yet I Feel everything
I hear the pain of rejection, echoed loudly in this void
"YOU WILL AMOUNT TO NOTHING"
These words are still replayed in my sub-conscience
They still haunt me, each time I fail an attempt
The taste of bitterness still lingers in my tongue
for all the distasteful words I've exchanged,
most times I wish to take them back and apologize
but pride...
Hiding away the shadows of my misery
Anxiety wriggling in as these walls close in on me
I See Nothing yet I Feel everything
I hear the pain of rejection, echoed loudly in this void
"YOU WILL AMOUNT TO NOTHING"
These words are still replayed in my sub-conscience
They still haunt me, each time I fail an attempt
The taste of bitterness still lingers in my tongue
for all the distasteful words I've exchanged,
most times I wish to take them back and apologize
but pride...
#anxiety
#depression
#dark #LifeStruggles
#dark #LifeStruggles
509 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
4th Oct 2019 9:36am
4th Oct 2019 9:36am
Pointless Poem
I have painted my walls with blood
Shame fills the corridors of my heart
Regret ever present in my yard
This is another torn script
A page from my life
I have shed a river of tears
Over lost dreams and countless files of fears
Planned my own funeral
Just burn me alive and throw my ashes in the sewerage pipes of Jo'burg
Together with all those abandoned little souls
I have spent many nights awake
Contemplating in darkness of another step towards breaking free
Yet it all seems like an illusion
A swindled product of...
Shame fills the corridors of my heart
Regret ever present in my yard
This is another torn script
A page from my life
I have shed a river of tears
Over lost dreams and countless files of fears
Planned my own funeral
Just burn me alive and throw my ashes in the sewerage pipes of Jo'burg
Together with all those abandoned little souls
I have spent many nights awake
Contemplating in darkness of another step towards breaking free
Yet it all seems like an illusion
A swindled product of...
#depression
#SelfReflection
#emptiness
529 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
4th Oct 2019 9:22am
4th Oct 2019 9:22am
Purgatory
I feel held up
In this purgatory
Trapped
Waiting for better days
But what if there are none...
What if heaven is an illusion
or God is a man-made idea
kept to oppress our mind;
hell is an illusion
And the Devil is a man-made idea
kept to keep the world at peace
Either way, I wait
believing in an illusion
If is
could be
or doesn't exist at all-
Taint me not with blasphemy
In this purgatory
Trapped
Waiting for better days
But what if there are none...
What if heaven is an illusion
or God is a man-made idea
kept to oppress our mind;
hell is an illusion
And the Devil is a man-made idea
kept to keep the world at peace
Either way, I wait
believing in an illusion
If is
could be
or doesn't exist at all-
Taint me not with blasphemy
#depression
#death
#religion #MentalHealth
#religion #MentalHealth
591 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Oct 2019 8:01am
3rd Oct 2019 8:01am
Love perceptions
We lay in this grass
and define these clouds
You see a dog with floppy ears blown in the wind
I see a God that is unfair to mankind
Our perceptions of life will never be the same
You want it all with its fame
I just want to write poetry and stay sane
I hold no illusions of dancing in the rain
You believe in love and fairy tales
I believe in a life without guarantees
"I have morbid thoughts" you laughed
"No! I just believe in my craft"
You have big dreams and great aspirations
I can't find myself in...
and define these clouds
You see a dog with floppy ears blown in the wind
I see a God that is unfair to mankind
Our perceptions of life will never be the same
You want it all with its fame
I just want to write poetry and stay sane
I hold no illusions of dancing in the rain
You believe in love and fairy tales
I believe in a life without guarantees
"I have morbid thoughts" you laughed
"No! I just believe in my craft"
You have big dreams and great aspirations
I can't find myself in...
#depression
#breakup
387 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Oct 2019 8:01am
3rd Oct 2019 8:01am
I am the words in my poetry
I am the words in my poetry
That hollowed shell you see engulfed by darkness
That clown with an upside-down smile and an upside-down perception of life
That sex freak that doesn't mind shedding his fears with his clothes
Yet too afraid to confront his demons with a sober mind because he is one with them
I think I write, I breathe, therefore I am
I am the innuendos concealed in my words
The double entendres of my submissions
"I write what I like" and also what I don't like
Like
the depression that seeps from my soul every...
That hollowed shell you see engulfed by darkness
That clown with an upside-down smile and an upside-down perception of life
That sex freak that doesn't mind shedding his fears with his clothes
Yet too afraid to confront his demons with a sober mind because he is one with them
I think I write, I breathe, therefore I am
I am the innuendos concealed in my words
The double entendres of my submissions
"I write what I like" and also what I don't like
Like
the depression that seeps from my soul every...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#SelfReflection
463 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2019 1:23pm
2nd Oct 2019 1:23pm
A fine clown
I say I'm fine
Even though I just crave wine
More than just a kiss
More than just touching the lips
But don't worry, I'll continue to say I am fine
I won't whine
Some days I wish death could just take me away
For from this pain I feel each day
As the jaws of reality bite my ass
I wished today I smoked something more than just this grass
But it's fine I'll no longer talk about drugs
I'll pretend I'm not part of the thugs
Today I watched as the earth waved as the sea and buildings moved like currents
...
Even though I just crave wine
More than just a kiss
More than just touching the lips
But don't worry, I'll continue to say I am fine
I won't whine
Some days I wish death could just take me away
For from this pain I feel each day
As the jaws of reality bite my ass
I wished today I smoked something more than just this grass
But it's fine I'll no longer talk about drugs
I'll pretend I'm not part of the thugs
Today I watched as the earth waved as the sea and buildings moved like currents
...
#depression
#MentalHealth
#SelfWorth
511 reads
2 Comments
EROTIC POEM
Published
2nd Oct 2019 1:13pm
2nd Oct 2019 1:13pm
THOSE SOUNDS
#love
#lust
#romantic #sensual
#romantic #sensual
768 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
18th Sep 2019 12:29pm
18th Sep 2019 12:29pm
Waste
I am the lines you rejected
The emotions your heart injected
I am a torn script
A product of your frustrations
I am squashed and thrown away
You deemed me not fit even for a bin
So I lay here on the floor
unattended
I am called a waste
I guess I am a waste- of thought
I am a "waste" after all
The emotions your heart injected
I am a torn script
A product of your frustrations
I am squashed and thrown away
You deemed me not fit even for a bin
So I lay here on the floor
unattended
I am called a waste
I guess I am a waste- of thought
I am a "waste" after all
#depression
#MentalHealth
461 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
18th Sep 2019 12:27pm
18th Sep 2019 12:27pm
Piece of shit
I am a piece of shit
I stink
I reek
I disgust you
Yes, I am a piece of shit!
I was formed between goodness and gases
Disgusting
I am a leftover
A rejected part of your plate
You've taken away my innocence (my nutrients)
And now you dropping me
Next thing I will be flashed away
Far from your memory
And never again will you long to see me
I am a piece of shit
And this is my life
I stink
I reek
I disgust you
Yes, I am a piece of shit!
I was formed between goodness and gases
Disgusting
I am a leftover
A rejected part of your plate
You've taken away my innocence (my nutrients)
And now you dropping me
Next thing I will be flashed away
Far from your memory
And never again will you long to see me
I am a piece of shit
And this is my life
#anxiety
#rejection
#MentalHealth #breakup
#MentalHealth #breakup
1477 reads
0 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
11th Sep 2019 1:56pm
11th Sep 2019 1:56pm
Picture Us
Picture this
Picture love
Happiness
Success
Picture us
Holding hands through old age
Till death do us part
We continue together in this writing art
With love in our hearts
Just picture that
Picture our garden
Were seeds are sown in songs of love
Watered in echoes of poetry
-a country yard might not be a bad thing after all
Because love is where the heart is
And I want you to be the bearer of mine
Just picture that
Picture having children
Playing on plain fields
Filled with laughter ...
Picture love
Happiness
Success
Picture us
Holding hands through old age
Till death do us part
We continue together in this writing art
With love in our hearts
Just picture that
Picture our garden
Were seeds are sown in songs of love
Watered in echoes of poetry
-a country yard might not be a bad thing after all
Because love is where the heart is
And I want you to be the bearer of mine
Just picture that
Picture having children
Playing on plain fields
Filled with laughter ...
#happiness
#love
#crush
508 reads
1 Comment
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