Submissions by Nixprty
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write the words my tongue can’t speak, and for those who can still see clearly through the foggy windows.
DARK POEM
Published
Yesterday 2:35am
Yesterday 2:35am
New
It is new
It shines
It spins
And flashes
Blue
Purple
Pink
It plays
Music
And it dances
They gather to watch
They rush to the edge of the stage
Screaming
Encore
Encore
Encore
It was beautiful
Pure and soft
White as flame
Fresh and sweet
They ran their fingers down its side
Greasy trails left behind
Impossible to wash out
Slowly the song
Skips and wavers ...
It shines
It spins
And flashes
Blue
Purple
Pink
It plays
Music
And it dances
They gather to watch
They rush to the edge of the stage
Screaming
Encore
Encore
Encore
It was beautiful
Pure and soft
White as flame
Fresh and sweet
They ran their fingers down its side
Greasy trails left behind
Impossible to wash out
Slowly the song
Skips and wavers ...
#abuse
#childhood
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2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
25th Sep 2024 8:05pm
25th Sep 2024 8:05pm
Permission to State my Case
Am I allowed to survive?
To be here,
Alone or with another.
Am I allowed to die?
To be somewhere you cannot see,
Or hear,
Or imagine.
Am I allowed to hurt?
I am shaped of blood,
But so are you.
Are you?
Are you?
Are you?
The rising,
Up to the clouds,
And out the front door.
I cannot see past the screen.
Am I allowed to leave?
To be there,
Away from where I have been.
To be safe,
And feel it too.
I’m happy.
Aren’t I?
Can I be?
Am I allowed?
Am I allowed? ...
To be here,
Alone or with another.
Am I allowed to die?
To be somewhere you cannot see,
Or hear,
Or imagine.
Am I allowed to hurt?
I am shaped of blood,
But so are you.
Are you?
Are you?
Are you?
The rising,
Up to the clouds,
And out the front door.
I cannot see past the screen.
Am I allowed to leave?
To be there,
Away from where I have been.
To be safe,
And feel it too.
I’m happy.
Aren’t I?
Can I be?
Am I allowed?
Am I allowed? ...
#anger
#frustration
#MentalHealth
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DARK POEM
Published
17th Sep 2024 8:29pm
17th Sep 2024 8:29pm
I Swear
The morning after the dark will be littered with ghosts,
It will smell of death and life and frosty windows.
I will rise with them.
This morning will end,
It will taste of car exhaust and mold and fog.
I will end with it.
Before and before and the before until,
After,
I promise,
Soon.
Soon the time will come when the hands begin to turn back,
I promise my mushy bones respite from the push and pull of the waves.
They creak and groan as my veins crackle,
I promise the morning will end.
‘How much...
It will smell of death and life and frosty windows.
I will rise with them.
This morning will end,
It will taste of car exhaust and mold and fog.
I will end with it.
Before and before and the before until,
After,
I promise,
Soon.
Soon the time will come when the hands begin to turn back,
I promise my mushy bones respite from the push and pull of the waves.
They creak and groan as my veins crackle,
I promise the morning will end.
‘How much...
#suicide
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1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
16th Sep 2024 9:31pm
16th Sep 2024 9:31pm
Unwilling Ending
It’s dark
In the
Space
Between your jaws
But
I know
If I
Struggle
You won’t
Bite down
Harder
To
Keep
Me
I’ll slip
Between
The cracks
But I’ll
Trial behind
Your
Wandering
I’ll stop
When you
Look back
You hate
Me
You bite
Harder
You inject
Venom
Into
My
Blood
I stay
Perfectly
Still
It’s over
Isn’t it
Isn’t it?
Finished
Done
Dead
Forgotten ...
In the
Space
Between your jaws
But
I know
If I
Struggle
You won’t
Bite down
Harder
To
Keep
Me
I’ll slip
Between
The cracks
But I’ll
Trial behind
Your
Wandering
I’ll stop
When you
Look back
You hate
Me
You bite
Harder
You inject
Venom
Into
My
Blood
I stay
Perfectly
Still
It’s over
Isn’t it
Isn’t it?
Finished
Done
Dead
Forgotten ...
#betrayal
#friendship
#sadness
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SELF POEM
Published
16th Sep 2024 5:20pm
16th Sep 2024 5:20pm
Ever Since
Uniformly informal
Figure me out
Pick at my hanging edges
Imperceptible to the naked eye
Unable to be looked for
Unable to be found
Lost in the endless chaos of being
Struck by the ever expanding future
Sleeping among the grass blades
Growing up and around my figure
Fight or flight or freeze or fawn
A missing persons poster without a name or face
A being
Being without a mouth or head
Being without living
Living without death
A mirrored image
Of a closed eye ...
Figure me out
Pick at my hanging edges
Imperceptible to the naked eye
Unable to be looked for
Unable to be found
Lost in the endless chaos of being
Struck by the ever expanding future
Sleeping among the grass blades
Growing up and around my figure
Fight or flight or freeze or fawn
A missing persons poster without a name or face
A being
Being without a mouth or head
Being without living
Living without death
A mirrored image
Of a closed eye ...
#identity
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Sep 2024 1:48am
11th Sep 2024 1:48am
Parental Vampiric (Blue)
She scrubs furiously at my skin,
It’s bleeding and raw.
She scrubs harder.
It’s a hopeless endeavor,
I bleed from hollow veins.
A simmer among the flares,
I burn so red that I’m blue.
I want to sleep,
She screams into the hand I place over her mouth.
This wicked boy bleeds the ocean,
I wax and wane with the moon.
I burn so red I’m blue.
He digs his nails into my eyes,
He sinks his teeth into the meat of my arm.
I can taste...
It’s bleeding and raw.
She scrubs harder.
It’s a hopeless endeavor,
I bleed from hollow veins.
A simmer among the flares,
I burn so red that I’m blue.
I want to sleep,
She screams into the hand I place over her mouth.
This wicked boy bleeds the ocean,
I wax and wane with the moon.
I burn so red I’m blue.
He digs his nails into my eyes,
He sinks his teeth into the meat of my arm.
I can taste...
#dark
#emptiness
#parent #sadness
#parent #sadness
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LOVE POEM
Published
11th Sep 2024 1:21am
11th Sep 2024 1:21am
Being Unlovable; Unloved
Second to
One
First to
None
But
The last
I’d kill for
You
Had I
Known
The gun
Was loaded
I’d have
Aimed
Up
Hands where
I can
See them
Face me
Look at
Me
Too
Infernal aching
I know
You’d rather
Die
Than revere
My being
That of
A clover
Three
Of four
Taken
To the sound
Of drums
Ringing
Like echos
But they
Get louder and
Louder
And louder
And louder
One
First to
None
But
The last
I’d kill for
You
Had I
Known
The gun
Was loaded
I’d have
Aimed
Up
Hands where
I can
See them
Face me
Look at
Me
Too
Infernal aching
I know
You’d rather
Die
Than revere
My being
That of
A clover
Three
Of four
Taken
To the sound
Of drums
Ringing
Like echos
But they
Get louder and
Louder
And louder
And louder
#frustration
#loneliness
#shame
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
1st Sep 2024 9:43am
1st Sep 2024 9:43am
Hypocrite
There’s something wrong with me,
Smudged and broken.
I lied to her,
I’m lying to her.
I think she knows,
I think she sees it in my eyes.
I know she’ll never ask,
I’ll never tell.
I promised I’d be better,
I’m just like him.
I’d understand if she hated me,
I’d hate me too.
I never meant to be this way,
I can’t stop.
If I can just run far enough away,
We can both pretend it never happened.
I think she’d run after me though,
I won’t run very fast.
I hope she knows I don’t mean to hurt her,
When I...
Smudged and broken.
I lied to her,
I’m lying to her.
I think she knows,
I think she sees it in my eyes.
I know she’ll never ask,
I’ll never tell.
I promised I’d be better,
I’m just like him.
I’d understand if she hated me,
I’d hate me too.
I never meant to be this way,
I can’t stop.
If I can just run far enough away,
We can both pretend it never happened.
I think she’d run after me though,
I won’t run very fast.
I hope she knows I don’t mean to hurt her,
When I...
#shame
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
29th Aug 2024 6:04am
29th Aug 2024 6:04am
The World Ended Today At 9:32
Oh god
I’m so sorry
What have
I done
I’m disgusting
I hate myself
How could I
How dare I
I’m so sorry
Please
Don’t
Leave
I’m sorry
I know
I promised
I wouldn’t
Tell me
What
Do I
Do
I didn’t
Want to
I’m so
Sorry
God
Please
Don’t
Hate
Me
I’m so sorry
What have
I done
I’m disgusting
I hate myself
How could I
How dare I
I’m so sorry
Please
Don’t
Leave
I’m sorry
I know
I promised
I wouldn’t
Tell me
What
Do I
Do
I didn’t
Want to
I’m so
Sorry
God
Please
Don’t
Hate
Me
#shame
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LOVE POEM
Published
27th Aug 2024 2:59pm
27th Aug 2024 2:59pm
Spaces
Hidden in the many paragraphs I scrawl and haphazardly type,
An unintelligible phrase is burrowed in the spaces.
It’s a riddle to be broken,
Just for the smallest of hands.
A trial of the soul,
It mocks time itself.
Written only in indigo ink by the light of the moon,
A beckoning without a ballroom to dance in.
She showed me what I’d lost,
I’ll show her to the door.
I’ll interlace our fingers until she’s shivering,
Burrowed in the spaces.
And when I bring her mouth to mine,
Pardoning the flesh...
An unintelligible phrase is burrowed in the spaces.
It’s a riddle to be broken,
Just for the smallest of hands.
A trial of the soul,
It mocks time itself.
Written only in indigo ink by the light of the moon,
A beckoning without a ballroom to dance in.
She showed me what I’d lost,
I’ll show her to the door.
I’ll interlace our fingers until she’s shivering,
Burrowed in the spaces.
And when I bring her mouth to mine,
Pardoning the flesh...
#ForbiddenLove
#love
#UnrequitedLove
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SELF POEM
Published
26th Aug 2024 8:20pm
26th Aug 2024 8:20pm
The Safety of Being Solitary
The fear of being seen,
Not the physical action of someone processing the curves and dips in my features,
But rather the sharp edges and bumps of my personality and being.
The knowledge that someone else knows me,
Like the plants know the sun,
It crushes my chest inward.
The fear of being heard,
Not the physical action of processing the sounds that vibrate up my throat,
But rather the meaning of the words I force out of a frown.
The knowledge that someone hears me,
Like the animals hear the rushing water,
Listening for a...
Not the physical action of someone processing the curves and dips in my features,
But rather the sharp edges and bumps of my personality and being.
The knowledge that someone else knows me,
Like the plants know the sun,
It crushes my chest inward.
The fear of being heard,
Not the physical action of processing the sounds that vibrate up my throat,
But rather the meaning of the words I force out of a frown.
The knowledge that someone hears me,
Like the animals hear the rushing water,
Listening for a...
#emptiness
#loneliness
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Aug 2024 1:53am
20th Aug 2024 1:53am
I Exist, I Exist, I Exist
I like to take my glasses off randomly,
Watch the blurry world speed past me.
Even with them on,
I can’t see any better.
Identifying the colors,
And not the shapes.
I hate when people turn entirely to look at me,
Straining their necks to see me.
I’m just lazily looking back,
It takes no effort to meet their eyes.
If I tried just a little harder,
I could see them.
I exist here in the crowded hall,
I look out of place when it’s empty.
Moving so fast I’m blurry,
Slowing to a crawl.
I explained what...
Watch the blurry world speed past me.
Even with them on,
I can’t see any better.
Identifying the colors,
And not the shapes.
I hate when people turn entirely to look at me,
Straining their necks to see me.
I’m just lazily looking back,
It takes no effort to meet their eyes.
If I tried just a little harder,
I could see them.
I exist here in the crowded hall,
I look out of place when it’s empty.
Moving so fast I’m blurry,
Slowing to a crawl.
I explained what...
#despair
#emptiness
#loneliness
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