Submissions by Night_Begins
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I'm not me... I'm that other person who wanders at night, should I kill myself tomorrow?
SELF POEM
Published
8th Aug 2013 11:59pm
8th Aug 2013 11:59pm
be silent with me...
I walk on a path deep in a forest and the noise of loneliness fills my head.
I think of all my friends and family that are long since dead.
I listen to the wind blow through the trees, on my face I can feel the warm summer the breeze.
My breath deepens and my heart slows as I fall to my knees.
I hear their voices loud, I hear their voices clear.
I can see their faces through every tear.
Be silent with me.
I realize I am alone and there is no one with me.
Is this I wonder, how my whole life will be?
I have people I call friends; but...
I think of all my friends and family that are long since dead.
I listen to the wind blow through the trees, on my face I can feel the warm summer the breeze.
My breath deepens and my heart slows as I fall to my knees.
I hear their voices loud, I hear their voices clear.
I can see their faces through every tear.
Be silent with me.
I realize I am alone and there is no one with me.
Is this I wonder, how my whole life will be?
I have people I call friends; but...
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SELF POEM
Published
6th Aug 2013 10:08pm
6th Aug 2013 10:08pm
my mask...
I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.
Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.
Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.
Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,...
Having nobody to comfort me,
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.
Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.
Nobody could hear my cries at night
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling
For I designed my mask to be laughing.
Behind all the smiles were the tears
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,...
705 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
6th Aug 2013 10:06pm
6th Aug 2013 10:06pm
why me...
My heart feels like it’s torn in two,
Why can't I just be with you?
Everyday another tear,
Everyday a lot more fear.
I want to hold you in my arms,
I want to keep you safe from harm.
I act like things are all okay,
But I really want to run away.
I act like things are all alright,
But always end up in a fight.
I cry more tears than I can count;
Why won't they just let me out?
I tell myself these things won't stay,
But I don't think they'll go away.
Why can't I just be with you?
Everyday another tear,
Everyday a lot more fear.
I want to hold you in my arms,
I want to keep you safe from harm.
I act like things are all okay,
But I really want to run away.
I act like things are all alright,
But always end up in a fight.
I cry more tears than I can count;
Why won't they just let me out?
I tell myself these things won't stay,
But I don't think they'll go away.
683 reads
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Aug 2013 1:05am
5th Aug 2013 1:05am
i think ive lost it...
Sometimes I just wish, I could run away and hide.
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.
How can I stay here and live each day a lie,
When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?
I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.
I plead with you now mum, let me go instead?
I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,
Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.
Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me.
Thank you for all your love, for all the time...
No matter where I go though, these feelings stay inside.
How can I stay here and live each day a lie,
When all I want to do is close my eyes and die?
I see the pain I cause you, with every tear I shed.
I plead with you now mum, let me go instead?
I wish I could take you with me, to a happy place,
Whether it exists though, is time for me to face.
Can I ask for your forgiveness? For you to set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this life's not meant for me.
Thank you for all your love, for all the time...
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SELF POEM
Published
5th Aug 2013 00:56am
5th Aug 2013 00:56am
just to wonder...
You pass me on the street and out eyes briefly meet.
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.
My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back. ...
You hold the door open for me as I enter behind you.
I say thanks, but you have no idea that my mind is blank.
In the elevator you crack a joke, I flash a smile,
you have no idea that my heart is in denial.
You ask me how my day was and I say fine.
You have no idea that my brain and I are arguing to if I should cross the line.
My happiness is gone as I walk in this world.
The thoughts in my head have me wishing I was laying in a cold dark hole.
Once you lose your soul there is no turning back. ...
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Jul 2013 11:52pm
29th Jul 2013 11:52pm
A loner...
Once when I was little
I was happy and carefree
I used to run around laughing
Until it was time for tea
I used to play games
And smile all the time
I used to feel on top of the world
I used to feel fine
It's amazing how things change
When people let you down
And how that once happy face
Turns into a solemn frown
You search and search
For someone who cares
Anyone who understands
Anyone who dares
Loneliness, it hurts
It kills you deep inside
It makes you feel empty...
I was happy and carefree
I used to run around laughing
Until it was time for tea
I used to play games
And smile all the time
I used to feel on top of the world
I used to feel fine
It's amazing how things change
When people let you down
And how that once happy face
Turns into a solemn frown
You search and search
For someone who cares
Anyone who understands
Anyone who dares
Loneliness, it hurts
It kills you deep inside
It makes you feel empty...
565 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Jul 2013 11:45pm
29th Jul 2013 11:45pm
prisoner of life
Sitting alone in the dark corner.
Knees against my chest, head in my hands.
Watching the tears run from eye to floor.
Happiness left my soul, now so dark and cold.
Life in my eye is no longer shown.
If only I could escape these chains and cuffs
And once again run from my thoughts.
I am a prisoner of life.
Contaminated by this strife.
With Death hanging by my side
Black tears were all I cried.
Anger was builtup in my blood
All the revenge is creating a flood.
These chains will one day break.
You is all I will seek.
Like...
Knees against my chest, head in my hands.
Watching the tears run from eye to floor.
Happiness left my soul, now so dark and cold.
Life in my eye is no longer shown.
If only I could escape these chains and cuffs
And once again run from my thoughts.
I am a prisoner of life.
Contaminated by this strife.
With Death hanging by my side
Black tears were all I cried.
Anger was builtup in my blood
All the revenge is creating a flood.
These chains will one day break.
You is all I will seek.
Like...
669 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
18th Jul 2013 11:20pm
18th Jul 2013 11:20pm
torture through love
When I was only two years old,
My daddy went away.
He swore he'd always love me,
But he said he couldn't stay.
Days turned into weeks
And weeks turned into years.
I never saw my father,
He never saw my tears.
He never read me bedtime stories
Or tucked me in at night.
He never showed up for my birthdays,
But I always hoped he might.
He missed my first day of kindergarten
And all of my school plays.
He doesn't know how smart I am,
My report cards full of A's.
Sometimes I want to call him
To say Hey Dad I'm still alive!
I'll...
My daddy went away.
He swore he'd always love me,
But he said he couldn't stay.
Days turned into weeks
And weeks turned into years.
I never saw my father,
He never saw my tears.
He never read me bedtime stories
Or tucked me in at night.
He never showed up for my birthdays,
But I always hoped he might.
He missed my first day of kindergarten
And all of my school plays.
He doesn't know how smart I am,
My report cards full of A's.
Sometimes I want to call him
To say Hey Dad I'm still alive!
I'll...
819 reads
3 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jul 2013 10:31pm
14th Jul 2013 10:31pm
im shattering to peices
Broken hearts
Open scars
Behind the fears
Were the tears
Inside my soul
Was only cold
You couldn't see
What you did to me
I'm only a child
So my emotions go wild
I'm sitting on my bed
Banging on my head
Always crying
While you're fighting
I can't take the intense pain
Its all to melancholy and strange
All you're creating is torture to me
Not others in the family
So if you leave
I ask you please
Don't go...
Open scars
Behind the fears
Were the tears
Inside my soul
Was only cold
You couldn't see
What you did to me
I'm only a child
So my emotions go wild
I'm sitting on my bed
Banging on my head
Always crying
While you're fighting
I can't take the intense pain
Its all to melancholy and strange
All you're creating is torture to me
Not others in the family
So if you leave
I ask you please
Don't go...
793 reads
2 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
30th Jun 2013 8:09pm
30th Jun 2013 8:09pm
Cold Call
I blink
My heart hammers in my chest
I breath
My eyes dart everywhere
I panic
My thoughts escape me
I whimper
My voice runs away
I quiver
My hands stay tied
I cry
My tears run down my cheeks
I shiver
My ankles stay shackled
I scream
My instincts evade me
I shake
My ears hear them
I pause
My eyes see them
I wait
My stomach churns
I screech
My blood runs free
I fight
My skin burns
I kick
My legs break free
I scratch
My limbs hit flesh
I punch ...
My heart hammers in my chest
I breath
My eyes dart everywhere
I panic
My thoughts escape me
I whimper
My voice runs away
I quiver
My hands stay tied
I cry
My tears run down my cheeks
I shiver
My ankles stay shackled
I scream
My instincts evade me
I shake
My ears hear them
I pause
My eyes see them
I wait
My stomach churns
I screech
My blood runs free
I fight
My skin burns
I kick
My legs break free
I scratch
My limbs hit flesh
I punch ...
833 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jun 2013 9:02pm
28th Jun 2013 9:02pm
To owe a world that covers your tracks...
I owe the rain
For it hides my spilling tears
I owe my smile
For it hides my disturbed fears
I owe the dark
For it hides my red rimmed eyes
I owe my shadow
For its hidden so many lies
I owe everything
That crosses my path
I owe everything
That yet has time to laugh
I owe loneliness
For it has comforted me for years
I owe you
The one who wiped away so many tears
For it hides my spilling tears
I owe my smile
For it hides my disturbed fears
I owe the dark
For it hides my red rimmed eyes
I owe my shadow
For its hidden so many lies
I owe everything
That crosses my path
I owe everything
That yet has time to laugh
I owe loneliness
For it has comforted me for years
I owe you
The one who wiped away so many tears
684 reads
9 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
28th Jun 2013 8:26pm
28th Jun 2013 8:26pm
you judged me by my cover...
You see from a view that's not mine
All the while I repeat I'm fine
So you sit down and observe
While thinking I'm completely obscured
But what you may see
Isn't everything there is to me
Now here I am all alone
Speaking in a deathly tone
Go away
Stay away
You ruined my life in a single day...
Now we're back at the beginning
Where well never be finishing
The talk we started the talk we ended
And there's
No
Way
Back
...
All the while I repeat I'm fine
So you sit down and observe
While thinking I'm completely obscured
But what you may see
Isn't everything there is to me
Now here I am all alone
Speaking in a deathly tone
Go away
Stay away
You ruined my life in a single day...
Now we're back at the beginning
Where well never be finishing
The talk we started the talk we ended
And there's
No
Way
Back
...
679 reads
2 Comments
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