Submissions by Natalja (Natalya)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
17th Jan 2010 2:58pm
17th Jan 2010 2:58pm
desires
I want to be beautiful
with
fake Hollywood smile
no - not that
I want more
to be stunningly beautiful
so that others
would fade
standing
next
to
me
I want to be talented
no, not that
I want more
to be amazingly talented
so that people would
remind me
about it
every single day
without
every day reminder
I will easily forget
dive into
another
dump
and
dark
wave of
depression
I want
to
be
truly
talented
that’s all I’ve...
with
fake Hollywood smile
no - not that
I want more
to be stunningly beautiful
so that others
would fade
standing
next
to
me
I want to be talented
no, not that
I want more
to be amazingly talented
so that people would
remind me
about it
every single day
without
every day reminder
I will easily forget
dive into
another
dump
and
dark
wave of
depression
I want
to
be
truly
talented
that’s all I’ve...
859 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
10th Jan 2010 12:59pm
10th Jan 2010 12:59pm
duplicity
I believed
in love
back in the days
when I was a child
before my first rape
sexual one
i thought
that love exists
and
people are able
to love
before my second rape
spiritual one
now
they all are
shortbread fillings
for
my hungry heart
we walk together
on a dark narrow
road
you look at me
and ask
Do you believe in love?
I glance
at you
hesitate
smile
quick thought
and
answer back
Yeee ...
Of...
in love
back in the days
when I was a child
before my first rape
sexual one
i thought
that love exists
and
people are able
to love
before my second rape
spiritual one
now
they all are
shortbread fillings
for
my hungry heart
we walk together
on a dark narrow
road
you look at me
and ask
Do you believe in love?
I glance
at you
hesitate
smile
quick thought
and
answer back
Yeee ...
Of...
1258 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
5th Jan 2010 9:28pm
5th Jan 2010 9:28pm
try
I am trying to put things
together
when they are
apart
I am trying
to scare off
my fear
I am trying to learn
swimming
on the surface
and help dead
to feel free
I am trying
to walk straight
when
I’m completely
drunk
think when
my mind is blank
I am trying
to eat
with the
sealed mouth
and breathe
with my
blackened
lungs
I am trying to see
a bloody sky
looking down
on my
dirty shoes
I am trying to
make friends
with white wall
in front
I am...
together
when they are
apart
I am trying
to scare off
my fear
I am trying to learn
swimming
on the surface
and help dead
to feel free
I am trying
to walk straight
when
I’m completely
drunk
think when
my mind is blank
I am trying
to eat
with the
sealed mouth
and breathe
with my
blackened
lungs
I am trying to see
a bloody sky
looking down
on my
dirty shoes
I am trying to
make friends
with white wall
in front
I am...
1135 reads
4 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
4th Jan 2010 3:51pm
4th Jan 2010 3:51pm
hellish pain
it hurts
and
I am trying to see
the real secret
of myself
I’ve got too many thoughts
I can’t catch the main one
I know, it’s there
in the centre
but small rubbish
tumbles and laughs
at me
then
everything vanishes
and I am left
alone
with this pain
hellish pain
and
I am trying to see
the real secret
of myself
I’ve got too many thoughts
I can’t catch the main one
I know, it’s there
in the centre
but small rubbish
tumbles and laughs
at me
then
everything vanishes
and I am left
alone
with this pain
hellish pain
926 reads
5 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
4th Jan 2010 3:45pm
4th Jan 2010 3:45pm
battle
I was fighting
at first
but
not any more
it’s been tooooo
long
now
I am so tired
I feel degraded
my feelings
wishes
die off
I hear sounds
of people
sounds of life
all what’s left
for me:
thoughts
mixed
with feelings
feelings
crushed by
hellish pain
who’s going to win:
mind or pain?
at first
but
not any more
it’s been tooooo
long
now
I am so tired
I feel degraded
my feelings
wishes
die off
I hear sounds
of people
sounds of life
all what’s left
for me:
thoughts
mixed
with feelings
feelings
crushed by
hellish pain
who’s going to win:
mind or pain?
741 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
3rd Jan 2010 7:41pm
3rd Jan 2010 7:41pm
dream
plunging into
unknown
diving
from one reality
to another
making boundaries
disappear
being naked
in front of the
mirror
making
weak
transparent
links
with
cruel
strong
world
destroying
self
as everyone
knows it
waking up
in the middle
of the night
to wipe
cold tears
off
the sleepy
face
unknown
diving
from one reality
to another
making boundaries
disappear
being naked
in front of the
mirror
making
weak
transparent
links
with
cruel
strong
world
destroying
self
as everyone
knows it
waking up
in the middle
of the night
to wipe
cold tears
off
the sleepy
face
898 reads
2 Comments
FICTIONAL PROSE
Published
24th Dec 2009 7:14pm
24th Dec 2009 7:14pm
glimpse in a mirror
I’m back where I was
have been waiting for ages to say few words of mine
and it’s all mine
I’m screaming with my mouth shut
hear and see everything around me, behind me, in me even
it takes few painful moments to open up the door of secrets
have you ever wondered how your first love felt about you?
or have you made the right decision by choosing the job which seems boring now?
or would it be a good idea to get your driving license when you were 16?
...
have been waiting for ages to say few words of mine
and it’s all mine
I’m screaming with my mouth shut
hear and see everything around me, behind me, in me even
it takes few painful moments to open up the door of secrets
have you ever wondered how your first love felt about you?
or have you made the right decision by choosing the job which seems boring now?
or would it be a good idea to get your driving license when you were 16?
...
1131 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
24th Dec 2009 7:09pm
24th Dec 2009 7:09pm
christmas time
merry fucking christmas
a jammed tape of the same songs
chewed words
artificial smiles
forced wishes
rip-off sales
exhausting long queues
“Santa Claus is coming
to town”
75% off - special offer
strained smile
have a nice Christmas
hidden tears
anger ripping off
your soul
always waiting
loneliness
so obvious in christmas time
pain
exhausting, long
never ending
memories
depressive thoughts
artificial atmosphere
lightened up
by electric
bright
street lights
be good
and smile...
a jammed tape of the same songs
chewed words
artificial smiles
forced wishes
rip-off sales
exhausting long queues
“Santa Claus is coming
to town”
75% off - special offer
strained smile
have a nice Christmas
hidden tears
anger ripping off
your soul
always waiting
loneliness
so obvious in christmas time
pain
exhausting, long
never ending
memories
depressive thoughts
artificial atmosphere
lightened up
by electric
bright
street lights
be good
and smile...
919 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2009 8:45am
23rd Dec 2009 8:45am
no title
I don’t want to waste any time
any more
with u
or
without u
what is better?
who could tell me
make decisions for me
nice dinner
put me to bed
with the stories
of
wonderful world
who or what?
do I sound desperate?
is there anyone
more desperate
than
I
already
am?
something may happen
in
my life
click suddenly
change me
challenge me
something
which I create
day to day
in my dreams
sweet plots of my
imaginary life
can you take me the way
I am?
Or can...
any more
with u
or
without u
what is better?
who could tell me
make decisions for me
nice dinner
put me to bed
with the stories
of
wonderful world
who or what?
do I sound desperate?
is there anyone
more desperate
than
I
already
am?
something may happen
in
my life
click suddenly
change me
challenge me
something
which I create
day to day
in my dreams
sweet plots of my
imaginary life
can you take me the way
I am?
Or can...
906 reads
0 Comments
DARK POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2009 8:41am
23rd Dec 2009 8:41am
sunset
it may be darkness
in my soul
or just
my pure imagination
it may be darkness
of your eyes
or
of my mind
this time
so many answers
no questions
has that ever happened
with u?
blackness
dullness
bitterness
no, no
let me guess
you know how to
DEAL WITH THAT
make your living
live your making
I look at the sky
and see stars
bright, shiny
so far away
I look at you
and see
bitterness
but so close
near
one smile away
I couldn’t get
a...
in my soul
or just
my pure imagination
it may be darkness
of your eyes
or
of my mind
this time
so many answers
no questions
has that ever happened
with u?
blackness
dullness
bitterness
no, no
let me guess
you know how to
DEAL WITH THAT
make your living
live your making
I look at the sky
and see stars
bright, shiny
so far away
I look at you
and see
bitterness
but so close
near
one smile away
I couldn’t get
a...
886 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
20th Dec 2009 12:49pm
20th Dec 2009 12:49pm
degradation
we were wet under
grey rain
Black and White
others gossip about
didn’t care
spring for both
doesn’t hurt
nowhere to hide from
you took me for
somebody else
some
other
body
and we were grey under
remember?
Black and White
what did we think about?
love, care
rape yourself
for that mistake
grey rain
Black and White
others gossip about
didn’t care
spring for both
doesn’t hurt
nowhere to hide from
you took me for
somebody else
some
other
body
and we were grey under
remember?
Black and White
what did we think about?
love, care
rape yourself
for that mistake
720 reads
0 Comments
UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
20th Dec 2009 12:47pm
20th Dec 2009 12:47pm
coffee
coffee
in the morning
so refreshingly tasty
hot
no sugar
still
sweet enough
latte
cappuccino
expresso
white coffee
with
hazelnut
caramel
chocolate
syrup
with cigarette
in a cold
awakening morning
with full English breakfast
in the afternoon
petrol
which drives
peoples’ engines
liquid
which makes
heart work
harder
stronger
pumping blood
quicker
tasting life
brighter
breathing
enjoying
every breath
day
every word of a stranger
friend
lover...
in the morning
so refreshingly tasty
hot
no sugar
still
sweet enough
latte
cappuccino
expresso
white coffee
with
hazelnut
caramel
chocolate
syrup
with cigarette
in a cold
awakening morning
with full English breakfast
in the afternoon
petrol
which drives
peoples’ engines
liquid
which makes
heart work
harder
stronger
pumping blood
quicker
tasting life
brighter
breathing
enjoying
every breath
day
every word of a stranger
friend
lover...
822 reads
0 Comments
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