Submissions by MeganElisabeth (MeggyMae-MeganElisabeth)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
This is Meggy Mae Eye
DRUGS POEM
Published
31st Dec 2013 00:21am
31st Dec 2013 00:21am
Debating
I can't write lately...
too consumed by other things.
Too wrapped up in stupid shit
that gets me no where.
Well it's been 3 days...
and I just got some money
in my pocket.
I'm debating on seeing my honey
or going to score some shit.
He doesn't like that.
Still, he doesn't know either.
Ring in the New Year high
as a kite, smoke some bud
and drink some jager.
Sounds like a bitchin time but
I think the dope is out of my life.
Pretty sad when this guy may
have changed me and my own
daughter didn't.
It's not she...
too consumed by other things.
Too wrapped up in stupid shit
that gets me no where.
Well it's been 3 days...
and I just got some money
in my pocket.
I'm debating on seeing my honey
or going to score some shit.
He doesn't like that.
Still, he doesn't know either.
Ring in the New Year high
as a kite, smoke some bud
and drink some jager.
Sounds like a bitchin time but
I think the dope is out of my life.
Pretty sad when this guy may
have changed me and my own
daughter didn't.
It's not she...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
26th Dec 2013 1:49am
26th Dec 2013 1:49am
I'm a f**king coward
I lay in bed wondering
what a few pills couldn't do.
But she's laying right beside me.
I wouldn't want her to rise for the morning
and try to make me get out of bed
and I'm not breathing.
But I dont want to breathe.
I don't want to feel.
Right now I feel so much I'm
overwhelmed and a heart attack
is coming.
A heart attack at 30 isn't good.
Then again, maybe that could
kill me.
No one would think it was a suicide.
Can't hang myself or shoot myself.
I don't have the guts.
I'm a coward.
But I've never been shy to a pill...
what a few pills couldn't do.
But she's laying right beside me.
I wouldn't want her to rise for the morning
and try to make me get out of bed
and I'm not breathing.
But I dont want to breathe.
I don't want to feel.
Right now I feel so much I'm
overwhelmed and a heart attack
is coming.
A heart attack at 30 isn't good.
Then again, maybe that could
kill me.
No one would think it was a suicide.
Can't hang myself or shoot myself.
I don't have the guts.
I'm a coward.
But I've never been shy to a pill...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
25th Dec 2013 11:41pm
25th Dec 2013 11:41pm
I'm Scared
Tonight he just went off on me
my beloved wretched ex...
he put me in a hard place
and I"m not talking about sex.
He's fucking with my life
all because I was a shitty wife.
Now's he's risking my daughters well being
maybe even costing me my freedom.
The police have been involved
Protective services have been called...
turn myself in, or rehab
I've really finally failed.
She got out of the car tonight
ran and gave me a hug
I looked in her blue eyes
and felt nothing but love.
Still debating on tomorrow though
does that...
my beloved wretched ex...
he put me in a hard place
and I"m not talking about sex.
He's fucking with my life
all because I was a shitty wife.
Now's he's risking my daughters well being
maybe even costing me my freedom.
The police have been involved
Protective services have been called...
turn myself in, or rehab
I've really finally failed.
She got out of the car tonight
ran and gave me a hug
I looked in her blue eyes
and felt nothing but love.
Still debating on tomorrow though
does that...
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th Dec 2013 00:06am
25th Dec 2013 00:06am
He's not around.
My heart hurts.
Won't answer my calls.
Won't meet up with me for coffee
like normal.
It's like he's just gone.
Part of me worries but
the other part just thinks
maybe he needs his space.
Hell of a way to tell me though.
I wonder what I did wrong.
I can hardly pick up my feet.
I hang my head
and I hold my heart on my sleeve
waiting for him to come back to me.
I suppose I assumed too much
from him.
Maybe I was ahead of the game.
Maybe it WAS just a game.
To him...
sure as hell wasn't to me.
So,...
Won't answer my calls.
Won't meet up with me for coffee
like normal.
It's like he's just gone.
Part of me worries but
the other part just thinks
maybe he needs his space.
Hell of a way to tell me though.
I wonder what I did wrong.
I can hardly pick up my feet.
I hang my head
and I hold my heart on my sleeve
waiting for him to come back to me.
I suppose I assumed too much
from him.
Maybe I was ahead of the game.
Maybe it WAS just a game.
To him...
sure as hell wasn't to me.
So,...
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LOVE POEM
Published
23rd Dec 2013 00:57am
23rd Dec 2013 00:57am
Ultimatum for tomorrow.
I hate to hear you like this....
when your in that mood.
The "fuck the world" mood.
Now here I sit wanting to see you.
Wanting to hold you and tell you
every thing will be alright.
But trying to tell you that is
stupid to even try.
I hate that I love you sometimes.
You're so difficult.
I'm addicted to you.
I often tell myself that if this is
all I'm going to get then fuck it.
Fuck it, Megan...move on.
I can't imagine you not in my life
though.
I can't imagine not seeing your smile
and kissing those perfect...
when your in that mood.
The "fuck the world" mood.
Now here I sit wanting to see you.
Wanting to hold you and tell you
every thing will be alright.
But trying to tell you that is
stupid to even try.
I hate that I love you sometimes.
You're so difficult.
I'm addicted to you.
I often tell myself that if this is
all I'm going to get then fuck it.
Fuck it, Megan...move on.
I can't imagine you not in my life
though.
I can't imagine not seeing your smile
and kissing those perfect...
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LOVE POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2013 00:36am
22nd Dec 2013 00:36am
Happy to hear from you
I hadn't heard from you in days
then today out of the blue
the phone rang, my stomach fell
when I saw that it was you.
I played off like it didn't matter
but really I was dying
wondering what you'd been doing these days
if you knew I'd been crying?
It's like I could hear you smiling
you'd explained everything
I don't care if it's a lie or not
I just wanted to hear something.
You made a comment
that we talk more than we did before
before I was single again
before I went through the divorce.
It seems like it's okay now...
then today out of the blue
the phone rang, my stomach fell
when I saw that it was you.
I played off like it didn't matter
but really I was dying
wondering what you'd been doing these days
if you knew I'd been crying?
It's like I could hear you smiling
you'd explained everything
I don't care if it's a lie or not
I just wanted to hear something.
You made a comment
that we talk more than we did before
before I was single again
before I went through the divorce.
It seems like it's okay now...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
22nd Dec 2013 00:11am
22nd Dec 2013 00:11am
Me and my dope buddy
I call him on the way to town
and he's always there for me
when I need him.
My dope buddy.
I always buy his shit too.
I kick myself in the ass every time
cause I can get twice the dope
but I always give him half.
He expects it now.
It's kind of like a payment.
So, I make my order and go to
his house where it's dropped
off just like a pizza.
Then we hide ourselves in his room.
The ceiling fan makes the light
flicker as I look at that pretty
brown dope layed out on the table.
He puts his in the spoon
and I lay...
and he's always there for me
when I need him.
My dope buddy.
I always buy his shit too.
I kick myself in the ass every time
cause I can get twice the dope
but I always give him half.
He expects it now.
It's kind of like a payment.
So, I make my order and go to
his house where it's dropped
off just like a pizza.
Then we hide ourselves in his room.
The ceiling fan makes the light
flicker as I look at that pretty
brown dope layed out on the table.
He puts his in the spoon
and I lay...
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LOVE POEM
Published
20th Dec 2013 00:57am
20th Dec 2013 00:57am
Please Call
I get so confused so easily.
Yesterday, we talked non-stop.
Today, I haven't even heard your voice.
I keep telling myself I don't
give a shit....
but I do and it sucks.
The other day you came to my
rescue when he slammed me
up against the wall.
Damn ex-husbands.
You listened, you cared and
the next thing I knew...you drove
40 miles in 20 minutes to
be there for me.
Today...not a word.
I just want to laugh like I did
yesterday.
Hear your voice that makes my
heart drop in to my stomach.
The voice that makes...
Yesterday, we talked non-stop.
Today, I haven't even heard your voice.
I keep telling myself I don't
give a shit....
but I do and it sucks.
The other day you came to my
rescue when he slammed me
up against the wall.
Damn ex-husbands.
You listened, you cared and
the next thing I knew...you drove
40 miles in 20 minutes to
be there for me.
Today...not a word.
I just want to laugh like I did
yesterday.
Hear your voice that makes my
heart drop in to my stomach.
The voice that makes...
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LOVE POEM
Published
19th Dec 2013 00:40am
19th Dec 2013 00:40am
its ok to move on
The last couple days
have been....
different.
I no longer carry the last name
let alone the burden of my
ex-husband.
Am I happy? More than ever.
Every one says it's a disguise
but it's not.
Part of me feels like a failure
but I tried all i could.
All of a sudden though....
this man I'm smitten with
started coming around more.
Calling more.
Caring SO much more.
I keep falling harder...
and now it seems like its
actually okay.
He thinks now nothing is
standing in our way.
Yet, he wants nothing from me...
have been....
different.
I no longer carry the last name
let alone the burden of my
ex-husband.
Am I happy? More than ever.
Every one says it's a disguise
but it's not.
Part of me feels like a failure
but I tried all i could.
All of a sudden though....
this man I'm smitten with
started coming around more.
Calling more.
Caring SO much more.
I keep falling harder...
and now it seems like its
actually okay.
He thinks now nothing is
standing in our way.
Yet, he wants nothing from me...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Dec 2013 8:26pm
15th Dec 2013 8:26pm
I'm so pathetic
A tempting phone call today
There's some good shit around.
I try to be tough
I think I'm going to let myself down.
It's hard
I can't stand the pain
the sickness that takes over your body
drives me completely insane.
Just a little bit, I say
it won't get me hooked again
but apparently I still am
I guess it's my best friend.
So, I already found the money for it....
it's set for the morning
so at 9:00 a.m. tomorrow
I'll be in my glory.
I'm trying to be strong
but I'm nothing but a joke....
I can't...
There's some good shit around.
I try to be tough
I think I'm going to let myself down.
It's hard
I can't stand the pain
the sickness that takes over your body
drives me completely insane.
Just a little bit, I say
it won't get me hooked again
but apparently I still am
I guess it's my best friend.
So, I already found the money for it....
it's set for the morning
so at 9:00 a.m. tomorrow
I'll be in my glory.
I'm trying to be strong
but I'm nothing but a joke....
I can't...
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SELF POEM
Published
15th Dec 2013 9:58am
15th Dec 2013 9:58am
JudgeMent Day
Friday was the day...
I signed us away...
In front of the judge I stood
not a word misunderstood.
She made sure we couldn't be repaired
off into the distance I stared.
Not a second thought
as I realize all the turmoil he's brought.
I walked out of those doors
I felt like a failure for sure.
I tried, couldn't make it work for shit
but a beautiful little girl was brought from it.
He didn't even show up that day
he was too scared...too afraid.
Up until then he tried to get me back
but there were so many things he lacked....
I signed us away...
In front of the judge I stood
not a word misunderstood.
She made sure we couldn't be repaired
off into the distance I stared.
Not a second thought
as I realize all the turmoil he's brought.
I walked out of those doors
I felt like a failure for sure.
I tried, couldn't make it work for shit
but a beautiful little girl was brought from it.
He didn't even show up that day
he was too scared...too afraid.
Up until then he tried to get me back
but there were so many things he lacked....
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DRUGS POEM
Published
15th Dec 2013 9:43am
15th Dec 2013 9:43am
4:30 A.M
It's 4:30 in the morning
don't know why I'm awake...
might be my cravings
Those damn night sweats fucking kill me.
Last night I missed you...
I missed both of them...
the feeling of nodding off
and the smell of his skin.
So, I drank some beers
like that'd help a whole fucking lot.
All it did was make me cry
and wait for the phone to light up
with a message from him.
That message never came until 4:00.
I heard the vibration of the phone
and it was like my skin crawling
down my spine.
It gets that way when I'm fiending.
I...
don't know why I'm awake...
might be my cravings
Those damn night sweats fucking kill me.
Last night I missed you...
I missed both of them...
the feeling of nodding off
and the smell of his skin.
So, I drank some beers
like that'd help a whole fucking lot.
All it did was make me cry
and wait for the phone to light up
with a message from him.
That message never came until 4:00.
I heard the vibration of the phone
and it was like my skin crawling
down my spine.
It gets that way when I'm fiending.
I...
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