Submissions by Matic55

Original Poem
June 10, 2013

“Why?” By: Matic

Why?....Why?
Why must I keep committing sin
Knowing  the dangers once I walk in? I know I won’t win.
Why must I keep carrying my own weight of guilt and shame
It’s a constant drain of energy that I can’t afford to lose I pray
To maintain.
I’m just another young boy pushing to make ends meet
But once I over heat then I’ll get trapped in my own head of depression
And almost see defeat.

Why?....Why?
Why did I disrespect my own mother growing up knowing she loved me deeply...

We forget about our most high lord and savior
who can put us where we need to be and keeps us in check
of our behavior and as I'm out and about I hear voices sayin
"Keep yo chin up young brotha, Keep yo head high young man"

And then I'm left speechless like a new born baby that can't talk
when he or she is brought into this earth since birth.

Let's conjoint people
Let's conjoint

Let's decease the hate and let's conjoint the love
Let's decease the racial slurs and let's conjoint the world
Let's decease our pride and ego's and...

Sometimes I'm too close to the edge
You know basically feelin magnetic to death
Because alot of times I'm overwhelmed and I dwell
onto the unecessary so mostly I need some advisory.

But wait! Hold up!
Violence always becomes a problem and it's no solvin of gang wars
and gang rivalry which thugs and gangstas kill to get
up and out of poverty and see, I got my hustle
but occasionally it's hard to buckle down when alot of times
you could be runnin in circles, and all that is, it's just a cycle
and I would begin to try to drink to sweat out the pain...

First Verse:
Now I've been chastized by the devil in diguise but I can
only rise fall down and get back up if I act up
These moments of my life could be heart broken wit deep cuts
None other then these so called friends is gettin banned
I need that helpin hand, and only UV understands
So enough about these tantrims now my mothers hit with cancer
I want some answers, gotta let go of my own addictions
in areas that is restricted and I know he's gonna tempt me
cause its nothin ethnic interceptions from all rejections
Cold heart in this...