Submissions by Lilmizseany
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write about things that are very personal to me, especially to do with my parents.
SELF POEM
Published
6th Apr 2013 10:21pm
6th Apr 2013 10:21pm
All I Ever Wanted
All I ever wanted,
Was to be left alone,
To be independent,
Emotionless to the bone.
All I ever wanted,
Was for nobody to care,
My thoughts are all my own,
I do not wish to share.
All I ever wanted,
Was to get away,
Start over somewhere else,
Where my life's not went astray.
All I ever wanted,
Was the world to forget my name,
Forget I ever met anyone,
Stop with all this fame.
All I ever wanted,
I eventually got,
I am an invisible island,
See me you may not.
Was to be left alone,
To be independent,
Emotionless to the bone.
All I ever wanted,
Was for nobody to care,
My thoughts are all my own,
I do not wish to share.
All I ever wanted,
Was to get away,
Start over somewhere else,
Where my life's not went astray.
All I ever wanted,
Was the world to forget my name,
Forget I ever met anyone,
Stop with all this fame.
All I ever wanted,
I eventually got,
I am an invisible island,
See me you may not.
707 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2013 8:53pm
3rd Apr 2013 8:53pm
I Blame The Mother
Do I dare try and comprehend,
The way my world is so upside down?
Any potential,
Crush by your unforgiving hand.
I might not have to try,
Things never change for me,
I'm stuck in the same place,
In a circle no one can see.
I'm just like a mime,
Trapped in an invisible box,
Only I'll never get out,
I have no keys for these locks.
Nowhere to turn,
Nobody I can trust,
Too many problems manifest here,
Call out and I'm shushed.
The one who was like a sister,
Betrays me like an enemy.
The one who I'd...
The way my world is so upside down?
Any potential,
Crush by your unforgiving hand.
I might not have to try,
Things never change for me,
I'm stuck in the same place,
In a circle no one can see.
I'm just like a mime,
Trapped in an invisible box,
Only I'll never get out,
I have no keys for these locks.
Nowhere to turn,
Nobody I can trust,
Too many problems manifest here,
Call out and I'm shushed.
The one who was like a sister,
Betrays me like an enemy.
The one who I'd...
599 reads
6 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
3rd Apr 2013 2:43am
3rd Apr 2013 2:43am
I Believe They Call You A "Frienemy"
Let's get together baby,
Just for old times sake,
We can pretend everything's okay,
You can flash that smile, oh so fake.
Let's talk about old times,
How you used to give a fuck,
Do you remember that honey?
Now you don't and it freaking sucks.
Let's get nostalgic maybe,
Remember the fun we always had,
Well it was so much better trashed,
The shit we did was bad.
Remember when we were all depressed as fuck?
Believe me babe, I was was worse,
I could kick myself for trusting you,
Your name I'll forever curse.
...
Just for old times sake,
We can pretend everything's okay,
You can flash that smile, oh so fake.
Let's talk about old times,
How you used to give a fuck,
Do you remember that honey?
Now you don't and it freaking sucks.
Let's get nostalgic maybe,
Remember the fun we always had,
Well it was so much better trashed,
The shit we did was bad.
Remember when we were all depressed as fuck?
Believe me babe, I was was worse,
I could kick myself for trusting you,
Your name I'll forever curse.
...
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ANGER POEM
Published
2nd Apr 2013 3:31am
2nd Apr 2013 3:31am
My Shrink Calls This A "Healthy Anger"
831 reads
8 Comments
NON-FICTION PROSE
Published
2nd Apr 2013 00:33am
2nd Apr 2013 00:33am
Repetitive Thoughts
I don't think anyone would care if I died.
Let's be honest,
I've hurt so many people,
That they'd just shrug and get over it.
Sure, my friends might cry a bit,
But really,
They'd get over it.
All I did was bring them down.
"Oh no, she relapsed again,
"Oh no, she's started smoking,
"Oh dear, she's started drinking again."
I know what they'd think,
They'd be glad really.
They could get on with life without me.
"Who cares about that silly little girl?
Smokes, drinks, cuts,
How pathetic.
She's not worth...
Let's be honest,
I've hurt so many people,
That they'd just shrug and get over it.
Sure, my friends might cry a bit,
But really,
They'd get over it.
All I did was bring them down.
"Oh no, she relapsed again,
"Oh no, she's started smoking,
"Oh dear, she's started drinking again."
I know what they'd think,
They'd be glad really.
They could get on with life without me.
"Who cares about that silly little girl?
Smokes, drinks, cuts,
How pathetic.
She's not worth...
702 reads
10 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
29th Mar 2013 4:54pm
29th Mar 2013 4:54pm
I Think It's Time For An Exorcism.
No.
I refuse to end up there again.
They HURT me.
Don't you see?
I'm okay, but her?
She's so unstable,
So weak.
Can't handle her thoughts.
We are one,
But we are seprate,
Do you see?
They pretend to be me,
But really,
I'm locked away,
In a tight box at the back of my mind.
Why can't they see?
They'll kill us all.
I can't get them away,
Many have tried,
Many have failed.
They give up,
They leave,
They all do.
I don't want to be like this!
As I settle down for sleep,
I hope it shall come quickly,...
I refuse to end up there again.
They HURT me.
Don't you see?
I'm okay, but her?
She's so unstable,
So weak.
Can't handle her thoughts.
We are one,
But we are seprate,
Do you see?
They pretend to be me,
But really,
I'm locked away,
In a tight box at the back of my mind.
Why can't they see?
They'll kill us all.
I can't get them away,
Many have tried,
Many have failed.
They give up,
They leave,
They all do.
I don't want to be like this!
As I settle down for sleep,
I hope it shall come quickly,...
584 reads
2 Comments
ANGER POEM
Published
27th Mar 2013 6:04pm
27th Mar 2013 6:04pm
Mother Darling
Mother darling?
Do you still love me?
I don't think you ever did.
The perfect daughter I could not be.
Mother darling,
Was it because I wasn't a boy?
Not strong and macho,
Dropped like a broken toy.
You know mother darling,
I'm getting really sick of your shit,
You made me an emotional wreck,
I was the punchbag you'd always hit.
Well mother darling!
A pretty penny I know I'm worth,
You've sponged off me for years,
Taking everything I've had since birth.
Mother darling,
No sympathy remains,
I've...
Do you still love me?
I don't think you ever did.
The perfect daughter I could not be.
Mother darling,
Was it because I wasn't a boy?
Not strong and macho,
Dropped like a broken toy.
You know mother darling,
I'm getting really sick of your shit,
You made me an emotional wreck,
I was the punchbag you'd always hit.
Well mother darling!
A pretty penny I know I'm worth,
You've sponged off me for years,
Taking everything I've had since birth.
Mother darling,
No sympathy remains,
I've...
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SELF POEM
Published
27th Mar 2013 5:35pm
27th Mar 2013 5:35pm
That Kid
I don't want to be "That kid".
The one without a mummy,
Or a daddy,
Who has the ability,
Who has the brains,
But lacks motivation,
Lacks concentration,
Lacks social skills.
"That kid",
Who everyone whispers about,
Because nobody knows her,
Her troubles,
Her fears,
Her scars,
Her life.
I don't want to be "that kid",
Who doesn't believe,
In her family,
In her friends,
In herself.
Too bad I am.
The one without a mummy,
Or a daddy,
Who has the ability,
Who has the brains,
But lacks motivation,
Lacks concentration,
Lacks social skills.
"That kid",
Who everyone whispers about,
Because nobody knows her,
Her troubles,
Her fears,
Her scars,
Her life.
I don't want to be "that kid",
Who doesn't believe,
In her family,
In her friends,
In herself.
Too bad I am.
735 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
13th Mar 2013 10:17pm
13th Mar 2013 10:17pm
Home
Home is where the heart is,
But where is my heart?
Home is where I feel safe,
But I feel safe nowhere.
Home is the place I feel most comfortable,
But I do not feel comfy in my own skin.
Home is where I can cry,
But my tears mark every pavement.
Home is a haven,
But I only know hell.
Home is just a myth to me,
Yet others claim it's their reality.
Home is a beautiful lie,
Which I told myself was truth.
Home is a unrealistic dream,
One slumber never indulges me with.
Home is where I want to...
But where is my heart?
Home is where I feel safe,
But I feel safe nowhere.
Home is the place I feel most comfortable,
But I do not feel comfy in my own skin.
Home is where I can cry,
But my tears mark every pavement.
Home is a haven,
But I only know hell.
Home is just a myth to me,
Yet others claim it's their reality.
Home is a beautiful lie,
Which I told myself was truth.
Home is a unrealistic dream,
One slumber never indulges me with.
Home is where I want to...
846 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
8th Mar 2013 7:28pm
8th Mar 2013 7:28pm
Not The Stereotypical Teenage Female.
Girls today,
Thinking they're all that,
Strut about in a severe lack of clothes,
Starve themselves yet still say they're fat.
Arse on display,
Tits all over the web,
Sucking off whoever asks,
Popping their cherry at twelve.
Caking their face in makeup,
Looking like Nemo,
Or slapping on black eyeliner,
And labelling themselves an "emo".
The younger ones!
They're in danger too!
They smoke at 10!
And steal alcohol from you!
So what happened to the little girls?
The ones who liked to play dress up?...
Thinking they're all that,
Strut about in a severe lack of clothes,
Starve themselves yet still say they're fat.
Arse on display,
Tits all over the web,
Sucking off whoever asks,
Popping their cherry at twelve.
Caking their face in makeup,
Looking like Nemo,
Or slapping on black eyeliner,
And labelling themselves an "emo".
The younger ones!
They're in danger too!
They smoke at 10!
And steal alcohol from you!
So what happened to the little girls?
The ones who liked to play dress up?...
857 reads
4 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
7th Mar 2013 4:48pm
7th Mar 2013 4:48pm
My Mental Chains
You tell me conflicting stories,
Versions that don't add together,
On one hand she's evil and twisted,
On another you've been unfaithful to her.
You tell me she doesn't trust,
She tells me you vanished into dust.
You tell me she made life hell,
She tells me you had no truth to tell.
You tell me she controlled your life,
She tells me you threatened her with a knife.
For mature adults,
You lack guts and brains.
Can't one of you speak the truth?
To unlock my mental chains?
Do you think this is fair?
Do you even...
Versions that don't add together,
On one hand she's evil and twisted,
On another you've been unfaithful to her.
You tell me she doesn't trust,
She tells me you vanished into dust.
You tell me she made life hell,
She tells me you had no truth to tell.
You tell me she controlled your life,
She tells me you threatened her with a knife.
For mature adults,
You lack guts and brains.
Can't one of you speak the truth?
To unlock my mental chains?
Do you think this is fair?
Do you even...
618 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
5th Mar 2013 6:24pm
5th Mar 2013 6:24pm
I Speak In Hushed Tones
I SPEAK IN HUSHED TONES
Will you ever see me,
As I've always seen you?
Stronger, smarter, all-round better,
A being above my worthless soul.
Oh so much more,
Than I could ever be,
You're perfection in human form,
A true fact you cannot see.
My devotion to you,
May as well be in blood,
It cannot be expressed,
You mean more to me than life itself.
I speak in hushed tones,
As baby, I want to be more than friends,
This could jeopardise our relationship,
I could not cope if it ends.
You're always going to...
Will you ever see me,
As I've always seen you?
Stronger, smarter, all-round better,
A being above my worthless soul.
Oh so much more,
Than I could ever be,
You're perfection in human form,
A true fact you cannot see.
My devotion to you,
May as well be in blood,
It cannot be expressed,
You mean more to me than life itself.
I speak in hushed tones,
As baby, I want to be more than friends,
This could jeopardise our relationship,
I could not cope if it ends.
You're always going to...
685 reads
8 Comments
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