Submissions by KittyFromHell
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I write mostly about my day to day emotions, experiences, and thoughts. Every fucked up thought I have usually ends up here.
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2024 5:19am
2nd Aug 2024 5:19am
blowing kisses at death
The room is crawling
And I've lost my mind.
The walls are living
And the air is lit up
Like every particle
Split a rainbow
And smashed it into dust
To enthrall a brain melting
And a heart exploding
Nemesis of the big bang
Condensed all into one fleshly prison
My void of deep waters
Is in my nose
And filling my lungs
I'm hell burning from inside out
Even if only for a fleeting moment
I felt the rush of standing still
And going so many places
Whether it is sprung from the mind
Of a...
And I've lost my mind.
The walls are living
And the air is lit up
Like every particle
Split a rainbow
And smashed it into dust
To enthrall a brain melting
And a heart exploding
Nemesis of the big bang
Condensed all into one fleshly prison
My void of deep waters
Is in my nose
And filling my lungs
I'm hell burning from inside out
Even if only for a fleeting moment
I felt the rush of standing still
And going so many places
Whether it is sprung from the mind
Of a...
#addiction
#death
#drugs
109 reads
1 Comment
SELF POEM
Published
2nd Aug 2024 5:15am
2nd Aug 2024 5:15am
Melting Mind
I can feel my mind melting into a puddle
As I imagine a puddle sloshing
And spilling out my ears
In a gush like a breaking levee
Washing away all that scourges me
And eroding all that brought me joy
As my daydreams disappear one by one
Until I am plagued by the inescapable feeling
That I am but a shell of who I was
Only half the woman I used to be
Pieces lost in crossfire of youthful mistakes
Chaos so suavely conquering my heart
And twisting it up in knots
As I succumb to my doubt
And believe my pieces are too...
As I imagine a puddle sloshing
And spilling out my ears
In a gush like a breaking levee
Washing away all that scourges me
And eroding all that brought me joy
As my daydreams disappear one by one
Until I am plagued by the inescapable feeling
That I am but a shell of who I was
Only half the woman I used to be
Pieces lost in crossfire of youthful mistakes
Chaos so suavely conquering my heart
And twisting it up in knots
As I succumb to my doubt
And believe my pieces are too...
#addiction
#dark
#depression
#drugs
#SelfDiscovery
99 reads
2 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
1st Aug 2024 5:56pm
1st Aug 2024 5:56pm
Run
Revisiting remembrances rips rapidly, and
Reckless reverie reverses ruthlessly.
Ruined romps ravage repulsive roads
Repeating rashly rebellious realities.
Undoing uglies utmost unsettling
Upon unbound uncertainties,
Unique understandings unveil
Unavailing usurpations of unwavering.
No new note keeping novelty
Nearly nourishes my nitpicking nature.
Nonstop needling, narcissistic nettles,
Niceties never noticing a noggin nicer.
Reckless reverie reverses ruthlessly.
Ruined romps ravage repulsive roads
Repeating rashly rebellious realities.
Undoing uglies utmost unsettling
Upon unbound uncertainties,
Unique understandings unveil
Unavailing usurpations of unwavering.
No new note keeping novelty
Nearly nourishes my nitpicking nature.
Nonstop needling, narcissistic nettles,
Niceties never noticing a noggin nicer.
#acrostic
#escape
#MentalHealth
#metaphor
#rhyming
105 reads
2 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
1st Aug 2024 5:53pm
1st Aug 2024 5:53pm
Romeos Junkie Juliette
Who could love a junkie
Except for me when I was young and blind?
Who could find beauty in this ugly shell
Except for someone who's got no better options?
My life is nothing but paper scattered in the wind
Don't chase it baby
It could ruin you
Just like loving an addict
Ruined me.
Where am I?
I don't think I'm in my body anymore.
Someone hold me please.
I'm lying awake thinking about suicide
Except for me when I was young and blind?
Who could find beauty in this ugly shell
Except for someone who's got no better options?
My life is nothing but paper scattered in the wind
Don't chase it baby
It could ruin you
Just like loving an addict
Ruined me.
Where am I?
I don't think I'm in my body anymore.
Someone hold me please.
I'm lying awake thinking about suicide
#addiction
79 reads
5 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
30th Jul 2024 3:01am
30th Jul 2024 3:01am
Good Ole Days
I live in a world of daydreams
and highlighted memories
a reel of visions I replay
over and over
until the stench of reality
fades into the distance
and I am lost in the reverie of yesterday
and what never was
and highlighted memories
a reel of visions I replay
over and over
until the stench of reality
fades into the distance
and I am lost in the reverie of yesterday
and what never was
#dreams
#memories
101 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
30th Jul 2024 2:57am
30th Jul 2024 2:57am
The Things I Miss
I saw you today...
Passed each other by
Like the strangers we've become.
Sobriety is becoming on you,
Even in the undoing of what used to be us.
Words catch in my throat
Of things better left unsaid.
A younger, crueler me
Would run my fingers through your beard
And pull your face closer to mine
For one more dive into hell.
The taste of unrequited love is a liar,
But it is so sweet.
It tastes like gravel road sunsets
At the edge of nowhere
Two dumbass kids
Meeting up to steal pieces of heaven
In the...
Passed each other by
Like the strangers we've become.
Sobriety is becoming on you,
Even in the undoing of what used to be us.
Words catch in my throat
Of things better left unsaid.
A younger, crueler me
Would run my fingers through your beard
And pull your face closer to mine
For one more dive into hell.
The taste of unrequited love is a liar,
But it is so sweet.
It tastes like gravel road sunsets
At the edge of nowhere
Two dumbass kids
Meeting up to steal pieces of heaven
In the...
#boyfriend
#gratitude
#love
#lover
#memories
143 reads
3 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
8th Jun 2024 5:39am
8th Jun 2024 5:39am
Blah f**king Blah
"I haven't been to the beach in thirty years,"
"All I do is go to work and go home."
"How are you?"
Can't complain... Nobody would listen."
"I want to burn this place to the ground."
"I haven't had a day off in 14 days."
Working class blues permeate the air,
Choking the life from our once hopes and dreams.
My ambitions have faded into survival.
I watch classmates get Master's Degrees
While I sport two years sober
And don't even have a...
"All I do is go to work and go home."
"How are you?"
Can't complain... Nobody would listen."
"I want to burn this place to the ground."
"I haven't had a day off in 14 days."
Working class blues permeate the air,
Choking the life from our once hopes and dreams.
My ambitions have faded into survival.
I watch classmates get Master's Degrees
While I sport two years sober
And don't even have a...
#addiction
#dreams
#job
#LifeStruggles
#poverty
140 reads
5 Comments
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
8th Jun 2024 5:20am
8th Jun 2024 5:20am
Mournfully, Mother
I wish I could remember your baby snuggles—
Every coo, every wiggle, every kiss.
Dissociation and my youthful foolishness
Stole away something I didn't think I'd miss.
I forgot to cherish those tiny feet
And the way your hand wrapped around my finger.
I didn't kiss the top of your head enough
While the newborn smell still lingered.
I'll never get those moments back,
And they haunt me in your little brother's eyes.
If I'd been less busy, less afraid, less sad...
Maybe I'd been woman enough to stay by your side.
...
Every coo, every wiggle, every kiss.
Dissociation and my youthful foolishness
Stole away something I didn't think I'd miss.
I forgot to cherish those tiny feet
And the way your hand wrapped around my finger.
I didn't kiss the top of your head enough
While the newborn smell still lingered.
I'll never get those moments back,
And they haunt me in your little brother's eyes.
If I'd been less busy, less afraid, less sad...
Maybe I'd been woman enough to stay by your side.
...
#children
#family
#memories
#motherhood
#regret
124 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
7th Apr 2024 6:05am
7th Apr 2024 6:05am
Delusional
I saw another woman in my dreams the other night.
Her pain soaks through my pillow
In phantom tears I cannot feel.
If this is how the tide must turn, set me free.
The paranoia grows tiresome.
Her pain soaks through my pillow
In phantom tears I cannot feel.
If this is how the tide must turn, set me free.
The paranoia grows tiresome.
#love
#lies
#betrayal
#dreams
#sleep
163 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
21st Feb 2024 5:15pm
21st Feb 2024 5:15pm
stormy eyes
Your love is manipulation
Creeping into the cracks of my walls.
Vines growing like tendrils
Splitting me to my core.
Tears feel like blackmail
Holding me hostage
While your helpful ways
Chain me to the floor.
I feel naked when you look at me
In ways bare skin never felt.
We fucked but love
Was never part of the deal.
There's rage in my eyes
And war in my hands.
You offer me safety and tenderness.
And all I can do is make you bleed.
Creeping into the cracks of my walls.
Vines growing like tendrils
Splitting me to my core.
Tears feel like blackmail
Holding me hostage
While your helpful ways
Chain me to the floor.
I feel naked when you look at me
In ways bare skin never felt.
We fucked but love
Was never part of the deal.
There's rage in my eyes
And war in my hands.
You offer me safety and tenderness.
And all I can do is make you bleed.
#anxiety
#love
#conflict
#MentalHealth
#fear
193 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
21st Feb 2024 5:05am
21st Feb 2024 5:05am
Wild Mother
My roots grow deeper
Into soil I never intended to plant myself.
My dandelion seed settled
As a weed growing into a wish
Broken into pieces by a child
To begin the journey again.
Into soil I never intended to plant myself.
My dandelion seed settled
As a weed growing into a wish
Broken into pieces by a child
To begin the journey again.
#birth
#motherhood
#childhood
#learning
#PersonalGrowth
144 reads
2 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
21st Feb 2024 4:49am
21st Feb 2024 4:49am
Dare I?
I clutch my covers childishly
And pull them close
To burrow into the warmth of my sorrows.
The chaos of years gone by
Have become nothing more than
Settling dust and distant screams,
And this bubble I've created
Has become quite cozy.
I have snapped the necks
Of a dozen versions of myself.
Their ghosts linger
As if to taunt me
With glories and regrets
Of my youth,
And their skin and bones
Clutter my halls.
I hesitate to emerge
From this state of reflection
And mourning. ...
And pull them close
To burrow into the warmth of my sorrows.
The chaos of years gone by
Have become nothing more than
Settling dust and distant screams,
And this bubble I've created
Has become quite cozy.
I have snapped the necks
Of a dozen versions of myself.
Their ghosts linger
As if to taunt me
With glories and regrets
Of my youth,
And their skin and bones
Clutter my halls.
I hesitate to emerge
From this state of reflection
And mourning. ...
#depression
#grief
#meditation
#fear
#PersonalGrowth
139 reads
2 Comments
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