Submissions by Kitty (Kat)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I've been writing since I was 14 but I'm far from being an expert. I mostly write about suicide,pain,cutting,heartache, and now about hope.
SELF POEM
Published
7th May 2012 5:01am
7th May 2012 5:01am
Me
Tears. A weakness I try to hide.
Love. A feeling I’m trying to find.
Fear. A disease I’m trying to cure.
Sadness. An emotion I can’t escape anymore.
Depression: My usual state of mind
Suicidal. What I’ve been called most of my life.
Happiness: An innocent fantasy.
Cutting: Releasing everything.
Strength: What I pray from God.
Pain: What I’ve gained from trust.
My smiles: forced and unreal.
Foolishness: In thinking someday I’ll heal.
Faith: It’s unexplainable
Surviving: …Of what I’m incapable.
Love. A feeling I’m trying to find.
Fear. A disease I’m trying to cure.
Sadness. An emotion I can’t escape anymore.
Depression: My usual state of mind
Suicidal. What I’ve been called most of my life.
Happiness: An innocent fantasy.
Cutting: Releasing everything.
Strength: What I pray from God.
Pain: What I’ve gained from trust.
My smiles: forced and unreal.
Foolishness: In thinking someday I’ll heal.
Faith: It’s unexplainable
Surviving: …Of what I’m incapable.
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2012 6:43am
22nd Jan 2012 6:43am
In His Arms
I slit the blade through my skin
And watched myself bleed
Watching each drop quietly fall to the floor
Then sliding the blade across, once more
I stared at the puddle that was starting to form,
Looking at it but not seeing it at all
I felt nothing, except for the usual numbness I felt before
Slowly, and willingly letting the darkness swallow me as I began to fall.
I closed my eyes, feeling the cold deep within my heart
Allowing it to swallow me whole, without a second thought.
Feeling myself drown more and more
Fleeing from the agony...
And watched myself bleed
Watching each drop quietly fall to the floor
Then sliding the blade across, once more
I stared at the puddle that was starting to form,
Looking at it but not seeing it at all
I felt nothing, except for the usual numbness I felt before
Slowly, and willingly letting the darkness swallow me as I began to fall.
I closed my eyes, feeling the cold deep within my heart
Allowing it to swallow me whole, without a second thought.
Feeling myself drown more and more
Fleeing from the agony...
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
22nd Jan 2012 6:03am
22nd Jan 2012 6:03am
Just Remember
With a heart wide open,
I ventured out into the world.
To live and experience,
Everything it has to hold.
All was great at first
Until I met temptation and sin.
And fell victim into the hands,
Of a person not able to turn away from them.
My heart broke
My innocence was lost
The light in my eyes left
My purity was gone
I looked up at the sky
Crying out to God
Why He let this happen to me
When He was all about justice and love
When no answer came
My heart began to close
I knew I’d never be the same...
I ventured out into the world.
To live and experience,
Everything it has to hold.
All was great at first
Until I met temptation and sin.
And fell victim into the hands,
Of a person not able to turn away from them.
My heart broke
My innocence was lost
The light in my eyes left
My purity was gone
I looked up at the sky
Crying out to God
Why He let this happen to me
When He was all about justice and love
When no answer came
My heart began to close
I knew I’d never be the same...
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ANGER POEM
Published
30th Sep 2011 8:08pm
30th Sep 2011 8:08pm
A Little Piece of Me
You forced yourself on me, along with your touch.
I pleaded for you to stop, but you still wouldn’t get off.
I closed my eyes tightly, wishing I were somewhere else.
Wishing someone had been here to help.
But I was on my own, with you as company.
You were supposed to have been taking care of me.
I guess in your own way, you did…
As a child, I figured I must’ve done something wrong to deserve this.
I must have misbehaved.
Or have said a nasty swear word,
To have been punished this way.
Since then, time has passed
But I can still...
I pleaded for you to stop, but you still wouldn’t get off.
I closed my eyes tightly, wishing I were somewhere else.
Wishing someone had been here to help.
But I was on my own, with you as company.
You were supposed to have been taking care of me.
I guess in your own way, you did…
As a child, I figured I must’ve done something wrong to deserve this.
I must have misbehaved.
Or have said a nasty swear word,
To have been punished this way.
Since then, time has passed
But I can still...
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LOVE POEM
Published
30th Sep 2011 8:05pm
30th Sep 2011 8:05pm
In My Fantasies
I close my eyes again,
Not wanting to wake up to reality.
Not wanting to return to this situation.
I want to keep on dreaming,
But sadly I can't remain asleep.
The first rays of sunlight have started to poke my eyes.
But oh, how I yearn to go back and dream,
To fall back again into a coma of never-ending perfection.
Knowing, deep inside that I can't.
I have to go face the cruel reality,
Of a heart's loss.
Trying not to cry,
Trying to maintain my head help up high.
Hiding the agony as best as I can.
Pushing back the memories,
Ignoring...
Not wanting to wake up to reality.
Not wanting to return to this situation.
I want to keep on dreaming,
But sadly I can't remain asleep.
The first rays of sunlight have started to poke my eyes.
But oh, how I yearn to go back and dream,
To fall back again into a coma of never-ending perfection.
Knowing, deep inside that I can't.
I have to go face the cruel reality,
Of a heart's loss.
Trying not to cry,
Trying to maintain my head help up high.
Hiding the agony as best as I can.
Pushing back the memories,
Ignoring...
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SELF POEM
Published
25th Sep 2011 5:43am
25th Sep 2011 5:43am
Just Me
Is there anyone out there
In whom I can confide?
My deepest secrets, darkest thoughts
My thirst to find that one true love?
Can anyone hear me?
When I cry out at night
Or feel my emptiness
When nothing feels right.
Can anyone see me?
Or am I invisible to all?
All I’ve ever wanted
Is to love and be loved.
Can anyone feel me?
Feel this pain?
This hollow sensation
That I cant quite explain
Does anyone know me?
Or have I put up too many walls?
It doesn’t matter
Since no one’s tried to get through them...
In whom I can confide?
My deepest secrets, darkest thoughts
My thirst to find that one true love?
Can anyone hear me?
When I cry out at night
Or feel my emptiness
When nothing feels right.
Can anyone see me?
Or am I invisible to all?
All I’ve ever wanted
Is to love and be loved.
Can anyone feel me?
Feel this pain?
This hollow sensation
That I cant quite explain
Does anyone know me?
Or have I put up too many walls?
It doesn’t matter
Since no one’s tried to get through them...
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UPBEAT INSPIRATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Sep 2011 5:36am
25th Sep 2011 5:36am
I Hope
Does He really hear my cries?
Does He really love me even when I sin?
Am I really beautiful in His eyes?
Does He really feel my pain?
All these thoughts always go through my mind,
Day and night.
One voice says He does.
That He loves me with all His heart.
Another says it isn’t true.
That He doesn’t really love you.
How can He?
When I’m always making mistakes.
Falling into temptation,
And thoughts that never go away.
I try to be good,
To do things right.
I read His book,
And try to praise Him day and night.
...
Does He really love me even when I sin?
Am I really beautiful in His eyes?
Does He really feel my pain?
All these thoughts always go through my mind,
Day and night.
One voice says He does.
That He loves me with all His heart.
Another says it isn’t true.
That He doesn’t really love you.
How can He?
When I’m always making mistakes.
Falling into temptation,
And thoughts that never go away.
I try to be good,
To do things right.
I read His book,
And try to praise Him day and night.
...
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ANGER POEM
Published
29th Jun 2011 10:25pm
29th Jun 2011 10:25pm
"Not Like the Others"
You lied to me.
You told me all these sweet things.
You told me you had fallen for me.
And I felt the same way.
With you I felt like nothing could go wrong.
You were so sweet and caring,
Almost too good to be true.
And you were.
Yes, you were sweet and oh so sensitive,
But not just to me.
I looked behind you and there they were…
A sea of other girls you had also lied to.
I realized then, that I wasn’t so different,
Like you had said.
Just another toy you played with.
To make yourself feel great.
You told me I...
You told me all these sweet things.
You told me you had fallen for me.
And I felt the same way.
With you I felt like nothing could go wrong.
You were so sweet and caring,
Almost too good to be true.
And you were.
Yes, you were sweet and oh so sensitive,
But not just to me.
I looked behind you and there they were…
A sea of other girls you had also lied to.
I realized then, that I wasn’t so different,
Like you had said.
Just another toy you played with.
To make yourself feel great.
You told me I...
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DARK POEM
Published
12th Jan 2011 3:03am
12th Jan 2011 3:03am
"Done"
It's over now
We're through.
I always said
It was going to happen in the end.
Now, that day has come.
You're finally seeing itthrough my eyes.
How you don't have to go through the pain anymore,
Or figure out the truth from the lies.
You're finally free,
And now she's going to take care of you.
So worried I'm not.
Because now you'll be in better hands,
Than in my wounding ones.
You don't have to worry about me anymore,
You don't have to care.
You don't have to ask what's wrong when I'm all alone,
You don't have to be...
We're through.
I always said
It was going to happen in the end.
Now, that day has come.
You're finally seeing itthrough my eyes.
How you don't have to go through the pain anymore,
Or figure out the truth from the lies.
You're finally free,
And now she's going to take care of you.
So worried I'm not.
Because now you'll be in better hands,
Than in my wounding ones.
You don't have to worry about me anymore,
You don't have to care.
You don't have to ask what's wrong when I'm all alone,
You don't have to be...
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LOVE POEM
Published
12th Jan 2011 2:49am
12th Jan 2011 2:49am
"You"
I despise how you make me feel,
How I can't ignore you without feeling the guilt.
I hate how much I need you there,
Listening with your reassuring eyes, showing how much you care.
I loath how much I need your touch,
And how I still love you oh so much.
I despise how much I want you with me,
When I know it's not meant to be.
I hate how much I think of you.
You leave me speechless with everything you say or do.
I loath how much I want to hold your hand,
Not just when you need me there, to listen and understand.
I despise how much I want to believe...
How I can't ignore you without feeling the guilt.
I hate how much I need you there,
Listening with your reassuring eyes, showing how much you care.
I loath how much I need your touch,
And how I still love you oh so much.
I despise how much I want you with me,
When I know it's not meant to be.
I hate how much I think of you.
You leave me speechless with everything you say or do.
I loath how much I want to hold your hand,
Not just when you need me there, to listen and understand.
I despise how much I want to believe...
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ANGER POEM
Published
24th Sep 2010 6:26am
24th Sep 2010 6:26am
"What Gives You The Right?"
Do I have a voice?
If I do, why doesn't anyone listen?
They say I do this,
They say they saw me do that,
The call me this and that...
Some people don't say anything at all,
But at the beginning.
Then they start listening,
But to the things others say.
What happened to me?
Why doesn't anyone listen?
Don't I have a voice?
I guess not.
But I want to say something,
To defend myself.
But it seems no one wants to listen.
They're only hearing one side of the story.
Doesn't my side matter?
Is it only a one sided story?
No,...
If I do, why doesn't anyone listen?
They say I do this,
They say they saw me do that,
The call me this and that...
Some people don't say anything at all,
But at the beginning.
Then they start listening,
But to the things others say.
What happened to me?
Why doesn't anyone listen?
Don't I have a voice?
I guess not.
But I want to say something,
To defend myself.
But it seems no one wants to listen.
They're only hearing one side of the story.
Doesn't my side matter?
Is it only a one sided story?
No,...
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DARK POEM
Published
24th Sep 2010 6:05am
24th Sep 2010 6:05am
"Raped"
Raped, by someone close.
Raped, and now feeling cursed.
Raped, and now feeling different and dirty.
Raped, and now I've lost my purity.
Raped, and now wishing I was dead.
Raped, and now my life's fullwith dread.
Raped, and now life's lost its fun.
Raped, and now my childhood's over and done.
Raped, and now feeling cursed.
Raped, and now feeling different and dirty.
Raped, and now I've lost my purity.
Raped, and now wishing I was dead.
Raped, and now my life's fullwith dread.
Raped, and now life's lost its fun.
Raped, and now my childhood's over and done.
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