Submissions by Jimigray (Gray Fraust)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
15th Aug 2020 1:35am
15th Aug 2020 1:35am
What am i, If not what i am?
What am i if not what i am, what we all are?
Individually unique but all as one, the same species.
At least that's what they've engraved in your minds since birth. You're a human.
Of course most just accept and even fear to question, or think different.
For even silence conscious thought to rebel leads to exile.
I know what i'm told. where i allegedly belong, Even Whats right and wrong.
Its strange though its not what i feel but its what i was told.
This empty feeling of being inferior and alone, leads the question how is this possible.
How, when...
Individually unique but all as one, the same species.
At least that's what they've engraved in your minds since birth. You're a human.
Of course most just accept and even fear to question, or think different.
For even silence conscious thought to rebel leads to exile.
I know what i'm told. where i allegedly belong, Even Whats right and wrong.
Its strange though its not what i feel but its what i was told.
This empty feeling of being inferior and alone, leads the question how is this possible.
How, when...
#identity
#consumerism
#morality
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
1st Aug 2020 2:30pm
1st Aug 2020 2:30pm
No thought too small;No thought too big
I had a thought, not too small, not too big.
All though different and obscure; it lacked confidence and charm.
Created with little personality and no self esteem
.i had a though with a firm belief it lacked charisma cheap and weak.
Born with no drive, zero confidence to grow and manifest.
No different than the millions of similar thoughts sharing the same traits.
Thoughts that are noticed then dead before having a chance to live.
Unable to manifest, malnurished and sick, lacking the proper nutrients.
I had a thought regretting to say im now afraid its...
All though different and obscure; it lacked confidence and charm.
Created with little personality and no self esteem
.i had a though with a firm belief it lacked charisma cheap and weak.
Born with no drive, zero confidence to grow and manifest.
No different than the millions of similar thoughts sharing the same traits.
Thoughts that are noticed then dead before having a chance to live.
Unable to manifest, malnurished and sick, lacking the proper nutrients.
I had a thought regretting to say im now afraid its...
#anxiety
#despair
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SELF POEM
Published
19th Jul 2020 6:39am
19th Jul 2020 6:39am
Cliche
I fancy what i dont posses
A minimalist content with second place.
Yesterday no longer exists
I dont know what i want today.
You person, ya you who i do not know
What do you think of me?
Well never meet again just tellvme the truth.
I need to know what people think, in order to change.
Where do i fit in tgis world?
I will escape if i could tie the rope.
Nothing gets better forever im lost
Im stuck alone alienated in a similar world.
How did this become, im worse than a pun.
Im a walking cliche, a teenager...
A minimalist content with second place.
Yesterday no longer exists
I dont know what i want today.
You person, ya you who i do not know
What do you think of me?
Well never meet again just tellvme the truth.
I need to know what people think, in order to change.
Where do i fit in tgis world?
I will escape if i could tie the rope.
Nothing gets better forever im lost
Im stuck alone alienated in a similar world.
How did this become, im worse than a pun.
Im a walking cliche, a teenager...
#anger
#apathy
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
9th Jul 2020 3:02pm
9th Jul 2020 3:02pm
Time lapse
This isnt a test?a trial run to aid my decision.
A demo of experiences and random coincidences .
That may or may not become
A demo of experiences and random coincidences .
That may or may not become
#disappointment
#emptiness
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
9th Jul 2020 2:54pm
9th Jul 2020 2:54pm
Innerwaste
Feel the knot feel the knot
twist and turn, back and forth
nausia gets worse much worse
whats happening
bloated belly a force full relief
first times good, seconds a high class blended treat
a smelly brownish stew
my stomaches waste and rejection
consisting of unwanted vegetables;
cluttered with partial unwanted tainted meat
Yellow pasty stomach vial
bloody broth, colourful fibers
piled in front of me unhealthy toxic relief
mysterious yet obvious pungent odors
spread about through hot steam as would with stewed beef ...
twist and turn, back and forth
nausia gets worse much worse
whats happening
bloated belly a force full relief
first times good, seconds a high class blended treat
a smelly brownish stew
my stomaches waste and rejection
consisting of unwanted vegetables;
cluttered with partial unwanted tainted meat
Yellow pasty stomach vial
bloody broth, colourful fibers
piled in front of me unhealthy toxic relief
mysterious yet obvious pungent odors
spread about through hot steam as would with stewed beef ...
#anxiety
#addiction
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
3rd Jul 2020 3:30am
3rd Jul 2020 3:30am
Waning awake
Sleeps all but foegotten, dreams t become impossible.
Bullied to the depths of my brain.
With less and less rest to reset, days begin to mesh.
Sleep becomes inconcievable, the more hours spent waning awake.
Whats it like to be normal just a guy with friends and hobbies to keep him sane.
Talking with myslef reveal secrets, but rather dry, theres nobody awake in the hours i wane awake.
Should I get ready fiffle my hair, and iron my pants, Who's gonna see?
Theres nobody to judge, no people to impress, no status quo.
I could not slower wear only boxers...
Bullied to the depths of my brain.
With less and less rest to reset, days begin to mesh.
Sleep becomes inconcievable, the more hours spent waning awake.
Whats it like to be normal just a guy with friends and hobbies to keep him sane.
Talking with myslef reveal secrets, but rather dry, theres nobody awake in the hours i wane awake.
Should I get ready fiffle my hair, and iron my pants, Who's gonna see?
Theres nobody to judge, no people to impress, no status quo.
I could not slower wear only boxers...
#sleep
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OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2020 5:41am
2nd Jul 2020 5:41am
Invisible
Invisible,
Remember me,
The once you used to see
Now faded in, Camoflouged
with the other normal trees.
INVISIBLE,
What happened?
When was i Silenced?
Tuned out and non existent.
A manifestation outside, A ghost looking in
INVISIBLE
I Cant remember, help me.
Whats it like to be heard?
To be acknowledged and fully aware.
I only feel lonley and hollow, DEAD TO THE WORLD
"HELLO"?! REMEMBER ME,
The sight, the smell, the sound i sing?
Im losing touch; realities a blur.
I feel its pulling farther...
Remember me,
The once you used to see
Now faded in, Camoflouged
with the other normal trees.
INVISIBLE,
What happened?
When was i Silenced?
Tuned out and non existent.
A manifestation outside, A ghost looking in
INVISIBLE
I Cant remember, help me.
Whats it like to be heard?
To be acknowledged and fully aware.
I only feel lonley and hollow, DEAD TO THE WORLD
"HELLO"?! REMEMBER ME,
The sight, the smell, the sound i sing?
Im losing touch; realities a blur.
I feel its pulling farther...
#confusion
#denial
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SELF POEM
Published
2nd Jul 2020 5:33am
2nd Jul 2020 5:33am
HAIKU TEST #1
Mind my malign stare
I am aware, but not here
Gone. Lost what went wrong
I am aware, but not here
Gone. Lost what went wrong
#confusion
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SELF POEM
Published
29th Jun 2020 10:25am
29th Jun 2020 10:25am
YES/NO/I DONT KNOW
Lately,
Not sure, I don't know.
Wait,
Ya I do, I know
Hold on,
I'm confused, can't choose
Why all the contradiction,
Who am I? I thought I knew me,
Turns out theres not one but two persons,
Which ones Dylan, fighting for control,
All day the two voices yell and scream.
I'm an asshole a nice hyoocrite,
Don't ever ask things of me, you'll leave lost,
Not closer, but farther from right and truth.
The two personalities in battle for a voice,
Help me, what is me, I'm losing grip,
Or don't it's up to you, I can't...
Not sure, I don't know.
Wait,
Ya I do, I know
Hold on,
I'm confused, can't choose
Why all the contradiction,
Who am I? I thought I knew me,
Turns out theres not one but two persons,
Which ones Dylan, fighting for control,
All day the two voices yell and scream.
I'm an asshole a nice hyoocrite,
Don't ever ask things of me, you'll leave lost,
Not closer, but farther from right and truth.
The two personalities in battle for a voice,
Help me, what is me, I'm losing grip,
Or don't it's up to you, I can't...
#SelfWorth
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DARK POEM
Published
29th Jun 2020 10:21am
29th Jun 2020 10:21am
Hide
Pained by life
Alive by mistake
Too different
I can't relate.
I wear my mask
Day by day.
To feel accepted
Crudely hide my pain
Alive by mistake
Too different
I can't relate.
I wear my mask
Day by day.
To feel accepted
Crudely hide my pain
#anxiety
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