Submissions by Indie (Miss Indie)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
human, quirky, dark.
SELF POEM
Published
21st Oct 2024 2:29am
21st Oct 2024 2:29am
not made for this
The more you've got it made
the less I feel I belong here
and I don't know how to tell you
I don't want the white picket fence dream
because I don't know how to explain
how lonely walking the line
makes me feel
I wasn't born to fit in
and I think I've always known that
but I still squish my soul
into ill fitting places
because some days
the need to belong
outways the instability
of true freedom
And the choices that have lead me
to this half life of ghosted dreams
and discontent ...
the less I feel I belong here
and I don't know how to tell you
I don't want the white picket fence dream
because I don't know how to explain
how lonely walking the line
makes me feel
I wasn't born to fit in
and I think I've always known that
but I still squish my soul
into ill fitting places
because some days
the need to belong
outways the instability
of true freedom
And the choices that have lead me
to this half life of ghosted dreams
and discontent ...
#money
#relationships
#SelfWorth
89 reads
3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
19th Oct 2024 10:36pm
19th Oct 2024 10:36pm
cheap hotel room
Its got a comfortable bed
and rustic decor
but the view out my window
is a brick wall
and there's dead cockroaches
scattered across my floor
The complimentary coffee is bad
the shower's temperamental
but the walls of this room are thicc
and I can't hear anyone yelling
or fucking or playing loud music
while I'm trying to sleep
I'm glad I picked up groceries
for breakfast already
because the roach problem
isn't giving me much confidence
about their breakfast menu
and I'm not up for a...
and rustic decor
but the view out my window
is a brick wall
and there's dead cockroaches
scattered across my floor
The complimentary coffee is bad
the shower's temperamental
but the walls of this room are thicc
and I can't hear anyone yelling
or fucking or playing loud music
while I'm trying to sleep
I'm glad I picked up groceries
for breakfast already
because the roach problem
isn't giving me much confidence
about their breakfast menu
and I'm not up for a...
#money
#music
#travel
81 reads
6 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
19th Oct 2024 10:34pm
19th Oct 2024 10:34pm
shifting states
I'm a deer caught in the headlights again
my insecurities flay me open
and here I am starting fights
where fights don't belong
You meet my fire with more flames
and in seconds we're an inferno
destroying everything
that gets in our way
including each other
until one of us walks away
(usually me)
and we lick our wounds
in the ashes
trying to figure out
what went wrong
It's not our fault
no one taught us how to communicate
but it's our fault we don't fix
the cracks we always...
my insecurities flay me open
and here I am starting fights
where fights don't belong
You meet my fire with more flames
and in seconds we're an inferno
destroying everything
that gets in our way
including each other
until one of us walks away
(usually me)
and we lick our wounds
in the ashes
trying to figure out
what went wrong
It's not our fault
no one taught us how to communicate
but it's our fault we don't fix
the cracks we always...
#conflict
#love
#relationships
#SelfDiscovery
#SelfReflection
73 reads
1 Comment
LOVE POEM
Published
19th Oct 2024 12:26pm
19th Oct 2024 12:26pm
an intake of breath
Take your words
and slide them beneath my skin
I want to remember this exact moment
and how it feels
Let your words be a breath
of peace in world that keeps
trying to bury me
Let this feeling be the life
I've been missing
between every painful
inhale and exhale
and reminds me that my heart
knows more beauty than pain
and that my sadness is fleeting
Take your words
slide them beneath my skin
and reminds me
how it feels to be alive
and slide them beneath my skin
I want to remember this exact moment
and how it feels
Let your words be a breath
of peace in world that keeps
trying to bury me
Let this feeling be the life
I've been missing
between every painful
inhale and exhale
and reminds me that my heart
knows more beauty than pain
and that my sadness is fleeting
Take your words
slide them beneath my skin
and reminds me
how it feels to be alive
#love
#peace
100 reads
7 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
19th Oct 2024 12:05pm
19th Oct 2024 12:05pm
indie folk pop
It's a lullaby
it's a cool summer night breeze
I didn't know I needed
until it skittered across my skin
I'm falling asleep
drinking red bull
feeling like I'm dreaming
in a midnight sky
full of pillow clouds
and a moon full of comfort
The music is a caress
a hand on the back of my neck
telling me everything
is going to be alright
and in this moment
I believe it
it's a cool summer night breeze
I didn't know I needed
until it skittered across my skin
I'm falling asleep
drinking red bull
feeling like I'm dreaming
in a midnight sky
full of pillow clouds
and a moon full of comfort
The music is a caress
a hand on the back of my neck
telling me everything
is going to be alright
and in this moment
I believe it
#meditation
#music
#SelfDiscovery #SelfReflection
#SelfDiscovery #SelfReflection
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3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
18th Oct 2024 6:17am
18th Oct 2024 6:17am
these secrets on my tongue
I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
but you don't speak my language
and like throwing the bones
of myself into the ocean
they fall through the depths of us
unheard
I scream into the dark silence
I scream at the silent myths
of this existence
I scream at the lies I was born into
I scream at the lies I tell myself
I scream until I'm voiceless
never mind that I always was
it just took losing my voice to notice
the weight of my own nothingness
I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
but you...
but you don't speak my language
and like throwing the bones
of myself into the ocean
they fall through the depths of us
unheard
I scream into the dark silence
I scream at the silent myths
of this existence
I scream at the lies I was born into
I scream at the lies I tell myself
I scream until I'm voiceless
never mind that I always was
it just took losing my voice to notice
the weight of my own nothingness
I kiss all my secrets into your mouth
but you...
#depression
#LifeStruggles
#loneliness #secrets
#loneliness #secrets
116 reads
4 Comments
SELF POEM
Published
6th Oct 2024 11:17pm
6th Oct 2024 11:17pm
insufficient description
I've kept myself small for so long
I don't know how to breathe
outside a space larger
than myself
I solidify with anxiety
statuesque, blank, polite
but I'm not sure
that's how you read me
There are too many names
for shy girl
that I've been painted with
and I wish I didn't care
I wish they didn't leave
indelible tattoos on my skin
that only I can see
but I'm convinced you know
are there
Bitch
Snob
Too smart (insufferable intellectual)
Brooding
Angsty ...
I don't know how to breathe
outside a space larger
than myself
I solidify with anxiety
statuesque, blank, polite
but I'm not sure
that's how you read me
There are too many names
for shy girl
that I've been painted with
and I wish I didn't care
I wish they didn't leave
indelible tattoos on my skin
that only I can see
but I'm convinced you know
are there
Bitch
Snob
Too smart (insufferable intellectual)
Brooding
Angsty ...
#anxiety
#identity
#LifeStruggles
#myself
#SelfReflection
135 reads
4 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
29th Sep 2024 10:11am
29th Sep 2024 10:11am
freedom tastes like today
Your laughter
is the embodiment
of the perfect Spring day
a bright sun breeze tusseling
your dark curls
For just a moment
this is a snapshot
of an uncomplicated childhood
the kind Hollywood makes
pretty movies about
For just a moment
I remember what it was like
to spin carefree in the sun
wet green grass under my feet
and believe there was no greater
freedom than right there and then
with laughter spilling from me
full of a lightness I've never found
in adulthood
...
is the embodiment
of the perfect Spring day
a bright sun breeze tusseling
your dark curls
For just a moment
this is a snapshot
of an uncomplicated childhood
the kind Hollywood makes
pretty movies about
For just a moment
I remember what it was like
to spin carefree in the sun
wet green grass under my feet
and believe there was no greater
freedom than right there and then
with laughter spilling from me
full of a lightness I've never found
in adulthood
...
#childhood
#happiness
#memories
116 reads
5 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
27th Sep 2024 7:18am
27th Sep 2024 7:18am
a you shaped absence
I get the feeling
you're gone from my life now
like you woke up the morning after
and decided the way this all feels
is too much
and closing the door on me
was easier
than riding out the pain
of being you
Because it never gets easier
in the lifetime we've sipped
at each other's souls
it never gets easier
And I don't blame you
for making that silent decision
without me
for all my love
it's never been my decision
to make
Instead I stare at my phone
and the...
you're gone from my life now
like you woke up the morning after
and decided the way this all feels
is too much
and closing the door on me
was easier
than riding out the pain
of being you
Because it never gets easier
in the lifetime we've sipped
at each other's souls
it never gets easier
And I don't blame you
for making that silent decision
without me
for all my love
it's never been my decision
to make
Instead I stare at my phone
and the...
#friendship
#heartbroken
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
#LifeStruggles #MentalHealth
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1 Comment
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
25th Sep 2024 3:46am
25th Sep 2024 3:46am
surgery day snapshot
Nerves make me a weirdo
I don't know whether to laugh
or cry
so instead I space out so hard
the receptionist has to call my name twice
In pre op I can't decide what to do
so I daydream, listen to music
put on an erotic cowboy audiobook
and people watch
pretending not to think about
other people's sex lives
I want to be anywhere but here
never mind that I've been waiting
8 months for this surgery
If drown my thoughts in erotica
and inappropriate thoughts about
the secret sex lives of...
I don't know whether to laugh
or cry
so instead I space out so hard
the receptionist has to call my name twice
In pre op I can't decide what to do
so I daydream, listen to music
put on an erotic cowboy audiobook
and people watch
pretending not to think about
other people's sex lives
I want to be anywhere but here
never mind that I've been waiting
8 months for this surgery
If drown my thoughts in erotica
and inappropriate thoughts about
the secret sex lives of...
#healing
#illness
#loneliness
115 reads
3 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
18th Sep 2024 2:33am
18th Sep 2024 2:33am
someone's 1950s dream
You gift me your white picket fence dreams
when I never fucking asked for them
I'm the glass bubble everyone looks in on
complete with a fairy tale ending
no one has ever asked if I'm living
I'm not
but what does that matter
when fantasy blooms brighter
than reality
I sometimes wonder
if maybe I'm too jaded for all this
I've become everything I hate
but let's play for appearances
let's play for fake smiles
let's play for things that don't really matter
let's keep pretending I...
when I never fucking asked for them
I'm the glass bubble everyone looks in on
complete with a fairy tale ending
no one has ever asked if I'm living
I'm not
but what does that matter
when fantasy blooms brighter
than reality
I sometimes wonder
if maybe I'm too jaded for all this
I've become everything I hate
but let's play for appearances
let's play for fake smiles
let's play for things that don't really matter
let's keep pretending I...
#conflict
#relationships
150 reads
6 Comments
OBSERVATIONAL POEM
Published
15th Sep 2024 11:57am
15th Sep 2024 11:57am
are you done yet?
Are you done yet?
Do you remember every word you said?
Do you remember every word I said back?
Or am I just another fever dream
that you'll wake up from like
you're Alice in fucking Wonderland
and I'm a white rabbit that's only worth chasing
when you're asleep
Don't tell me about love
I don't plant roots in the earth
I plant roots in people
and you are a landslide
How long until you rip my heart out?
How long until I let you?
I'm in too deep to try and untangle myself now
Are you done yet?
Or...
Do you remember every word you said?
Do you remember every word I said back?
Or am I just another fever dream
that you'll wake up from like
you're Alice in fucking Wonderland
and I'm a white rabbit that's only worth chasing
when you're asleep
Don't tell me about love
I don't plant roots in the earth
I plant roots in people
and you are a landslide
How long until you rip my heart out?
How long until I let you?
I'm in too deep to try and untangle myself now
Are you done yet?
Or...
#depression
#friendship
#LifeStruggles
#loneliness
#suffering
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