Submissions by HoldermanRJ

Party the pain away.
Hide the pain till you fade away.

Feel nothing but the burn in your nose-the heat in your throat.

Get wasted.

Fuck till you cry.
Get high as the sky.
Get drunk till you puke.
Repeat.

Get wasted.

Repeat.

Don't stop till you feel nothing but this heat, it burns away your pain-your hate.
Burns away your brains.
Your life.

Get wasted-repeat.

I'm on the brink-
The edge-
Oh how I wonder what will push me over this ledge..
Will it be the pills?
The booze?
My haunted past- that's causing me to choose?
Choose what you may ask-
Suicide. But suicide feels like such a daunting task..
A single drink from a flask.
A single line- straight up my nose.
A blast of bliss.
Now I shall slit my wrists..

I still feel your kiss on my lips.


-RJ

One sip then the whole bottle,
It'll send me straight to heaven with a single swallow.
Cures that hollow feeling deep inside,
A feeling of bliss I can no longer hide.
Sip it, swallow.

Who is he? Who am I?
How could I be so Inlove with a lie?
I mean was I blind? You were never mine. You were my fuckin dream-you turned into a nightmare it seems.
Promises of love-denied.
It was never enough- I was never enough. Enlighten me please- how could you rape me, cage me, control me, show me love that brought me so close to a hell disguised as heaven?
How how you claim to love me- But treat me like a dog? Like steps you could just walk over.  You take-take-until there's nothing left of me. Nothing but broken little pieces...

Enlighten me please, on how...

It grabbed me..
Dug it's claws in deep..
Didn't let go.
Let go...
It never let's go.
It's a demon- a disease.
But I love it-and it loves me.
It sets me free-it cages me.
It gives-it takes.


I pay the price.


can you pay the price?