Submissions by HidingFromMe
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
DARK POEM
Published
10th Jul 2013 00:41am
10th Jul 2013 00:41am
Family
Is this what you call a fucking family
Daddy chose the needle
Mama chose the money and pills
Big bro chose the coke
And I chose the blade
We are all fucking insane in our own way
Daddy why the fuck did you do this
Why was the needle more important than your own life
Why did you push me away
Why the fuck did you turn you back on us
Are the fucking drugs really that important?
What happened to family first?
I don't even know who you are anymore
Mama how could you just leave me like that
Was it really so easy to just drop me off...
Daddy chose the needle
Mama chose the money and pills
Big bro chose the coke
And I chose the blade
We are all fucking insane in our own way
Daddy why the fuck did you do this
Why was the needle more important than your own life
Why did you push me away
Why the fuck did you turn you back on us
Are the fucking drugs really that important?
What happened to family first?
I don't even know who you are anymore
Mama how could you just leave me like that
Was it really so easy to just drop me off...
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DARK POEM
Published
8th Jul 2013 11:59pm
8th Jul 2013 11:59pm
Trapped
To be trapped in this darkness
Is such a sad sad state of affairs
Its like dancing with death
You never know what will set you off
Slowly losing control
So lost and confused
You no longer control yourself
The darkness controls you
And you must listen to its demand
And there is no escaping that
Its like being swallowed by this deep cold abyss
There is no where safe
No where to hide
It will find you
It wants you to feel hopeless
Its a pain you feel deep in your soul
There's no stopping it
And soon you'll realize how truly...
Is such a sad sad state of affairs
Its like dancing with death
You never know what will set you off
Slowly losing control
So lost and confused
You no longer control yourself
The darkness controls you
And you must listen to its demand
And there is no escaping that
Its like being swallowed by this deep cold abyss
There is no where safe
No where to hide
It will find you
It wants you to feel hopeless
Its a pain you feel deep in your soul
There's no stopping it
And soon you'll realize how truly...
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DARK POEM
Published
8th Jul 2013 10:50pm
8th Jul 2013 10:50pm
A Thought
Behind these eyes
Deep in my mind
Resides thoughts of suicide
In this dark place in my head
Is where my demons are bred
Where my true intentions lie
This is where I contemplate my suicide
When I take that last breath
Write that last note
I clear my head
I put that blade to my wrist
I release the demon
I release the pain
And open vein leads to an open mind
No more second thoughts
Just pure impulse
Pure bliss
Then I fade to a place of black nothingness
As I lay there lifeless
I realize
...
Deep in my mind
Resides thoughts of suicide
In this dark place in my head
Is where my demons are bred
Where my true intentions lie
This is where I contemplate my suicide
When I take that last breath
Write that last note
I clear my head
I put that blade to my wrist
I release the demon
I release the pain
And open vein leads to an open mind
No more second thoughts
Just pure impulse
Pure bliss
Then I fade to a place of black nothingness
As I lay there lifeless
I realize
...
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DARK POEM
Published
8th Jul 2013 2:33am
8th Jul 2013 2:33am
Fight
Everyday I fight for my will to survive
I'm being consumed by this darkness deep inside
But I refuse to let it win
But what if the only way it will lose is if I
Die
The more I fight the stronger it gets
I can't over come this darkness on my own and
I need to accept that
But how could anyone help me if
I can't even help myself
This darkness is all I've ever known
Its become my home
I'm losing my grip on reality
Who is fake? Who is real? Who to trust? What to feel?
I don't even know what is real anymore
I'm slowly losing control...
I'm being consumed by this darkness deep inside
But I refuse to let it win
But what if the only way it will lose is if I
Die
The more I fight the stronger it gets
I can't over come this darkness on my own and
I need to accept that
But how could anyone help me if
I can't even help myself
This darkness is all I've ever known
Its become my home
I'm losing my grip on reality
Who is fake? Who is real? Who to trust? What to feel?
I don't even know what is real anymore
I'm slowly losing control...
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DARK POEM
Published
6th Jul 2013 10:19pm
6th Jul 2013 10:19pm
Life hurts
You come home wasted off your ass
You say you love me but you don't give a shit
You hit me cause you love me
You say it builds character
I scream stop your hurting me but you don't care
You hit me I fall to the floor
You sit in the corner crying ashamed of yourself
Screaming I'm sorry I didn't mean it
You try to help me up I yell
Daddy your hurting me
Don't help me
Then you go to your room you fall into a deep sleep
The next morning you wake up don't remember a thing
While I'm fucked up not only physically but
Mentally
Now you're...
You say you love me but you don't give a shit
You hit me cause you love me
You say it builds character
I scream stop your hurting me but you don't care
You hit me I fall to the floor
You sit in the corner crying ashamed of yourself
Screaming I'm sorry I didn't mean it
You try to help me up I yell
Daddy your hurting me
Don't help me
Then you go to your room you fall into a deep sleep
The next morning you wake up don't remember a thing
While I'm fucked up not only physically but
Mentally
Now you're...
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DARK POEM
Published
6th Jul 2013 9:32pm
6th Jul 2013 9:32pm
Pain
Do you know what it's like to want to end your life?
Do you know how it feels to drag the blade across your wrist?
Do you know what it feels like to write that final note?
I know what all of this feels like
It's like I'm drowning and I can't be saved
It's this never ending cycle of pain
Most people are glad that they're alive
Well I'm furious that I'm here
I don't know how to live
I'm miserable but I know how to fake a smile
This isn't a life I wanna live
Every fucking day I have this depression that's just
Consuming me
I don't...
Do you know how it feels to drag the blade across your wrist?
Do you know what it feels like to write that final note?
I know what all of this feels like
It's like I'm drowning and I can't be saved
It's this never ending cycle of pain
Most people are glad that they're alive
Well I'm furious that I'm here
I don't know how to live
I'm miserable but I know how to fake a smile
This isn't a life I wanna live
Every fucking day I have this depression that's just
Consuming me
I don't...
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DARK POEM
Published
5th Jul 2013 10:11pm
5th Jul 2013 10:11pm
The Touch
Razor blade to skin
It's this sick kind of
Bliss
Some choose heroin or meth
I chose the blade
The cutting of my skin,now that is my drug
I hate that I do this to
Myself
But it's hard to kick an addiction like this
Most don't understand what its like
To put the blade to your skin
It's this kind of high you can't imagine
For that split second all your pain is
Gone
The cut silences the voices for a second
It's like an escape from everything
Even though it's only for a little bit
But the cutting isn't the...
It's this sick kind of
Bliss
Some choose heroin or meth
I chose the blade
The cutting of my skin,now that is my drug
I hate that I do this to
Myself
But it's hard to kick an addiction like this
Most don't understand what its like
To put the blade to your skin
It's this kind of high you can't imagine
For that split second all your pain is
Gone
The cut silences the voices for a second
It's like an escape from everything
Even though it's only for a little bit
But the cutting isn't the...
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DARK POEM
Published
5th Jul 2013 9:34pm
5th Jul 2013 9:34pm
Breaking Point
Sooner or later I'm gonna fucking
Loose it
I can't handle being consumed by this
Darkness
This constant struggle
This battle in my mind
Nothing's okay, nothing's alright
I'm gonna end up dead anyway so
What's the fucking point of this thing you call
Life
You're suppose to enjoy being alive
Well I don't
I sit here with thoughts of suicide
Contemplating why I'm still alive
While you sit there enjoying life
Enjoying breathing
I don't understand how people can be
Happy
Like how the fuck do you get happy?
Why the fuck...
Loose it
I can't handle being consumed by this
Darkness
This constant struggle
This battle in my mind
Nothing's okay, nothing's alright
I'm gonna end up dead anyway so
What's the fucking point of this thing you call
Life
You're suppose to enjoy being alive
Well I don't
I sit here with thoughts of suicide
Contemplating why I'm still alive
While you sit there enjoying life
Enjoying breathing
I don't understand how people can be
Happy
Like how the fuck do you get happy?
Why the fuck...
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Jun 2013 10:58pm
20th Jun 2013 10:58pm
Insight
So you wanna get in my head
You wanna know why I want to be
Dead
Its all because I'm just this
Waste
Of time,breath,life
I'm not worthy of this thing you call life
You see I find myself useless
I'm just a failure at life
I don't know how to live
This depression has trapped me and won't
Let me free
I'm being consumed by the darkest parts of me
Its like your drowning and no one can save
You
I'd just rather die than live a life like this
Well here you go now you're in my head
But be careful because you
Never know just...
You wanna know why I want to be
Dead
Its all because I'm just this
Waste
Of time,breath,life
I'm not worthy of this thing you call life
You see I find myself useless
I'm just a failure at life
I don't know how to live
This depression has trapped me and won't
Let me free
I'm being consumed by the darkest parts of me
Its like your drowning and no one can save
You
I'd just rather die than live a life like this
Well here you go now you're in my head
But be careful because you
Never know just...
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DARK POEM
Published
31st May 2013 00:18am
31st May 2013 00:18am
War In My Head
Its this constant fucking battle between
Wanting to Live or to Die
I'm constantly being consumed with
Thoughts of Suicide
I try and fight this overwhelming
Urge to end my life
But I've been fighting for to long
I'm not strong anymore, not like I
Used to be
I'm just in so much Unbearable pain
Its like I already have the rope around
My neck
Or the gun to my head
This constant battle will end with me
Dead
There's just to much darkness in my head
I can't go on like this
Everyday is a constant struggle
I'm losing my will to...
Wanting to Live or to Die
I'm constantly being consumed with
Thoughts of Suicide
I try and fight this overwhelming
Urge to end my life
But I've been fighting for to long
I'm not strong anymore, not like I
Used to be
I'm just in so much Unbearable pain
Its like I already have the rope around
My neck
Or the gun to my head
This constant battle will end with me
Dead
There's just to much darkness in my head
I can't go on like this
Everyday is a constant struggle
I'm losing my will to...
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DARK POEM
Published
24th May 2013 3:27am
24th May 2013 3:27am
Dream
Do you ever think about how you’re gonna die?
I think about it everyday.
I actually fantasize about it.
They day I finally slit my wrists
and become free as
I’m finally fading away into a dark deep sleep
but someone would probably find me
as I was peacefully fading away
but as the ambulance rushes to try and save me
they’d say that there is nothing else we can do
she’s lost too much blood
I’m sorry but she’s gone.
Its kinda sad how I dream of this happening.
And it kinda scares me how tempted
I am to go through with it.
I think about it everyday.
I actually fantasize about it.
They day I finally slit my wrists
and become free as
I’m finally fading away into a dark deep sleep
but someone would probably find me
as I was peacefully fading away
but as the ambulance rushes to try and save me
they’d say that there is nothing else we can do
she’s lost too much blood
I’m sorry but she’s gone.
Its kinda sad how I dream of this happening.
And it kinda scares me how tempted
I am to go through with it.
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DARK POEM
Published
8th May 2013 5:37am
8th May 2013 5:37am
The Dark
I hate this, I hate this
I'm being consumed by the
Darkness
Its becoming who I am
This pain and numbness
I just don't know how much
Longer I can go on like this
There's just so much
Pain
And it just can't go
Unseen or unfelt
It consuming me
I feel the pain in my chest
As if the world is coming down on
Me
I'm lost in the dark
I'm fading to black
And soon it will take me and
I'll be gone and
I'll only be
Memory
I'm being consumed by the
Darkness
Its becoming who I am
This pain and numbness
I just don't know how much
Longer I can go on like this
There's just so much
Pain
And it just can't go
Unseen or unfelt
It consuming me
I feel the pain in my chest
As if the world is coming down on
Me
I'm lost in the dark
I'm fading to black
And soon it will take me and
I'll be gone and
I'll only be
Memory
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