Submissions by CourtneeChaos (ChAos)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
Hey. I'm ChAos... I write stuff... I don't really know what else to say about myself.
DRUGS POEM
Published
8th Jun 2013 6:23pm
8th Jun 2013 6:23pm
30cc's Of False Reality
Don't wanna feel anything, don't wanna care-
Like I really give a fuck if I end up no where-
Only way I know how to numb emotions & pain-
Shoot another dose of false reality into my vein-
Like I really give a fuck if I end up no where-
Only way I know how to numb emotions & pain-
Shoot another dose of false reality into my vein-
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1074 reads
7 Comments
DRUGS POEM
Published
8th Jun 2013 5:50pm
8th Jun 2013 5:50pm
Hopeless Surrender
Maintained my existence through a false serenity-
Thru a junkies dead eyes, life is the hardest thing to see-
Habits are revealed, impossible to conceal your addiction-
Admitting the truth becomes inevitable when life is consumed by affliction-
So finally after coming so far, this misery was unforeseen-
Familiar sorrow continues to fill each day even while living life clean-
Hopelessly trying to escape you, although you had me from the start-
Embracing my destiny, I surrender... Til death do us part-
Thru a junkies dead eyes, life is the hardest thing to see-
Habits are revealed, impossible to conceal your addiction-
Admitting the truth becomes inevitable when life is consumed by affliction-
So finally after coming so far, this misery was unforeseen-
Familiar sorrow continues to fill each day even while living life clean-
Hopelessly trying to escape you, although you had me from the start-
Embracing my destiny, I surrender... Til death do us part-
#PopCulture
965 reads
4 Comments
LOVE POEM
Published
12th Aug 2012 3:03am
12th Aug 2012 3:03am
If I was God
If I was God, I'd change the world-
First thing I'd do is take the pain away from this innocent little girl-
With the bruises under her eyes and her bald little head-
I plead with God, questioning "Why not me instead?!"-
She fights a battle everyday just so she can take another breath-
While I've taken life for granted slamming dope and coming close to death-
I don't understand why it has to be her, but God hasn't given me an answer-
Why does it have to be my 3 year old sister that has to fight this cancer-
...
First thing I'd do is take the pain away from this innocent little girl-
With the bruises under her eyes and her bald little head-
I plead with God, questioning "Why not me instead?!"-
She fights a battle everyday just so she can take another breath-
While I've taken life for granted slamming dope and coming close to death-
I don't understand why it has to be her, but God hasn't given me an answer-
Why does it have to be my 3 year old sister that has to fight this cancer-
...
#PopCulture
1026 reads
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DRUGS POEM
Published
6th Sep 2011 6:01pm
6th Sep 2011 6:01pm
No Longer In Denial
Fading quickly away right before our eyes-
Drowning in a life of pain hidden under my disguise-
This wasted life has become nothing but a blur-
Left now with only memories of who you once were-
Find yourself reminiscing back to the days that you were clean-
Now just find myself waiting for someone to intervene-
Slipping away from reality as the poison attacks-
Damaged arms hold evidence of affliction just follow the tracks-
...
Drowning in a life of pain hidden under my disguise-
This wasted life has become nothing but a blur-
Left now with only memories of who you once were-
Find yourself reminiscing back to the days that you were clean-
Now just find myself waiting for someone to intervene-
Slipping away from reality as the poison attacks-
Damaged arms hold evidence of affliction just follow the tracks-
...
#PopCulture
1129 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
14th Jun 2011 00:50am
14th Jun 2011 00:50am
Fear In Solitude.
Their bodies are still.
But their eyes follow me.
The room is still.
I can hear the whispers.
Yet I can't see the words.
I'm the only one moving.
Feels as if I'm the only one here.
I can see the images of fading people.
Silhouettes of life that are almost invisible.
When I look in their eyes, an empty soul is what I see.
...
But their eyes follow me.
The room is still.
I can hear the whispers.
Yet I can't see the words.
I'm the only one moving.
Feels as if I'm the only one here.
I can see the images of fading people.
Silhouettes of life that are almost invisible.
When I look in their eyes, an empty soul is what I see.
...
#PopCulture
929 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
25th May 2011 8:34am
25th May 2011 8:34am
Remembering Me
I wish we could go back
to the days when things were good-
The days when you
were all I needed to feel alive-
You were my cure,
my pulse,
my drug-
The days when you
were my heart and soul-
I longed to breathe you in-
Now I suck my soul through glass, and long for the next cloud that numbs my heart-
Awaiting the day
that I gain control of my life-
I poison myself with every deep breath-
And I lose myself a little more
when I...
to the days when things were good-
The days when you
were all I needed to feel alive-
You were my cure,
my pulse,
my drug-
The days when you
were my heart and soul-
I longed to breathe you in-
Now I suck my soul through glass, and long for the next cloud that numbs my heart-
Awaiting the day
that I gain control of my life-
I poison myself with every deep breath-
And I lose myself a little more
when I...
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SELF POEM
Published
25th May 2011 8:21am
25th May 2011 8:21am
I Wasn't Enough
I always wondered why I wasn't worth getting to know-
Can't understand how a father wouldn't want to watch his only daughter grow-
After all this time you never sent one birthday card-
I'm so damaged that I can't trust anyone because I'm too scared to let down my gaurd-
It hurt that the only thing I everknewabout youwas thatyour name was "Lee"-
Hurt even worse knowing that if you ever saw me, you wouldn't even recognize me-
Did you know that you'rethe reason I cried myself to sleep every night-
Did you care if I was hurt or if I even turned out alright-...
Can't understand how a father wouldn't want to watch his only daughter grow-
After all this time you never sent one birthday card-
I'm so damaged that I can't trust anyone because I'm too scared to let down my gaurd-
It hurt that the only thing I everknewabout youwas thatyour name was "Lee"-
Hurt even worse knowing that if you ever saw me, you wouldn't even recognize me-
Did you know that you'rethe reason I cried myself to sleep every night-
Did you care if I was hurt or if I even turned out alright-...
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1092 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
4th May 2011 00:20am
4th May 2011 00:20am
When Dreams Meet Reality
My soul, dead-
Heart has bled-
Emptiness remains-
Nothing left in my veins-
Empty inside-
Courtnee has died-
Don't be sad, don't cry-
I wanted to die-
Never can I be woken-
I was shattered, completely broken-
Happiness is what I chased-
Never reaching it, my life was a waste-
Too late-
Too much hate-
Will be buried below-
Answers I'll never know-
Words empty, no one could hear-
Invisible pain, never see a tear-
Never coming back-
Life is what I lack-
It was a promise, not a threat-
Couldn't live with so much...
Heart has bled-
Emptiness remains-
Nothing left in my veins-
Empty inside-
Courtnee has died-
Don't be sad, don't cry-
I wanted to die-
Never can I be woken-
I was shattered, completely broken-
Happiness is what I chased-
Never reaching it, my life was a waste-
Too late-
Too much hate-
Will be buried below-
Answers I'll never know-
Words empty, no one could hear-
Invisible pain, never see a tear-
Never coming back-
Life is what I lack-
It was a promise, not a threat-
Couldn't live with so much...
#PopCulture
875 reads
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DRUGS POEM
Published
24th Apr 2011 6:03am
24th Apr 2011 6:03am
Stranger In The Mirror
Stranger in the mirror, you’re not whoI used to see-
You were once strong, but now you are weak-
Stranger in the mirror, with your empty blue eyes-
Seems so long ago your smile was real and not just a disguise-
Stranger in the mirror,the marks on your armsyou try to hide-
These marks are not cuts, but they’re proof of a slow suicide-
Stranger in the mirror looking a little more familiar I see-
Stranger in the mirror your not a stranger at all, I just refuse to accept the new reflection of me-
You were once strong, but now you are weak-
Stranger in the mirror, with your empty blue eyes-
Seems so long ago your smile was real and not just a disguise-
Stranger in the mirror,the marks on your armsyou try to hide-
These marks are not cuts, but they’re proof of a slow suicide-
Stranger in the mirror looking a little more familiar I see-
Stranger in the mirror your not a stranger at all, I just refuse to accept the new reflection of me-
#PopCulture
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