Submissions by Codex_intelligence (Katie Dykes)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
poetry in my veiw; an expression of gratitude for all of the pain. may we express it proudly, for it is what makes us human. as a poet i call myself Codexintelligence, Codex as the latin root for god. i will do my most to impress you.
I'm A problem
I guess i'm scared?
That one day...
You might leave?
I guess that's why i'm always next to you
Constantly tugging on your T-shirt sleeve
Maybe i'm afraid that tomorrow you wont see me the same
And maybe that might be the thing that will one day drive me insane
When i see a potential tear in the shimmering seams of my fantasy
I think out every scenario that could take place
And the problems that match them bring me back to my reality
And i guess that reality is that i can be alone
That one day this thing we have going will eventually end ...
That one day...
You might leave?
I guess that's why i'm always next to you
Constantly tugging on your T-shirt sleeve
Maybe i'm afraid that tomorrow you wont see me the same
And maybe that might be the thing that will one day drive me insane
When i see a potential tear in the shimmering seams of my fantasy
I think out every scenario that could take place
And the problems that match them bring me back to my reality
And i guess that reality is that i can be alone
That one day this thing we have going will eventually end ...
#SelfHarm
#confessional
#addiction
#MentalHealth
#PTSD
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just breathe
One day you'll believe she loves you as much as you love her
One day you'll see how important you are to her and to everyone around you, including yourself
One day you'll wake up and want to stay awake and not close your eyes and say fuck today because it will be worth it
One day the sun will shine through your window and in that moment everything will make sense
One day you'll beat this, all of this, and I'll be right there beside you
Until then, rest easy because you can't find light in the darkness, there's no darkness from the sun(?)
This is Lacuna
...
One day you'll see how important you are to her and to everyone around you, including yourself
One day you'll wake up and want to stay awake and not close your eyes and say fuck today because it will be worth it
One day the sun will shine through your window and in that moment everything will make sense
One day you'll beat this, all of this, and I'll be right there beside you
Until then, rest easy because you can't find light in the darkness, there's no darkness from the sun(?)
This is Lacuna
...
#sadness
#depression
#suicide
#bipolar
#hurt
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Cleaning my Room
Mom comes in my room, "Are you serious? Clean this up and turn down that fucking music!"
I look her dead in the eye,
"Mom, don't you know those cloths all around my room are my unorganized thoughts?Those empty bottles are for my coming up feelings to be bottled inside of,
and that trash...
oh, that trash that hasn't been taken out since last Tuesday?
Those are all the the things i worry or have doubts about overflowing
so heavy now i cant lift them up out of the bin.
All those papers are hate and critic letters i've sent to myself, and
yeah, i pick...
I look her dead in the eye,
"Mom, don't you know those cloths all around my room are my unorganized thoughts?Those empty bottles are for my coming up feelings to be bottled inside of,
and that trash...
oh, that trash that hasn't been taken out since last Tuesday?
Those are all the the things i worry or have doubts about overflowing
so heavy now i cant lift them up out of the bin.
All those papers are hate and critic letters i've sent to myself, and
yeah, i pick...
#sadness
#anger
#anxiety
#hate
#emotional
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Intensity of Mixed Emotions
Look into my eyes
When i am vexed
And tell me i am not a ferocious beast,
For the root anger stems from is fear...
But you don't understand that i'm only scared of me.
Not scared of myself, as much as i am scared of my anger.
Not angry at my being vexed, as much as i am angry at my fear.
So angry at fear...
And fearful of anger i stare into your frightened eyes.
I guess i'm not so angry as i am scared
And not so scared as i am angry.
So, tell me, if there is no existence for anything without name
And no name for anything without...
When i am vexed
And tell me i am not a ferocious beast,
For the root anger stems from is fear...
But you don't understand that i'm only scared of me.
Not scared of myself, as much as i am scared of my anger.
Not angry at my being vexed, as much as i am angry at my fear.
So angry at fear...
And fearful of anger i stare into your frightened eyes.
I guess i'm not so angry as i am scared
And not so scared as i am angry.
So, tell me, if there is no existence for anything without name
And no name for anything without...
#anger
#anxiety
#confusion
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Missing The Moon
Oh, where do you go
When the sun comes out and the wind blows,
Long hair bundled
And my skin shows?
Dandelion fuzz kisses the nape of my neck.
The sun is a sorry story
When your missing the moon.
When loneliness called me inside
We sat together by the dining room window,
Head on his shoulder
As he told me the dangers of the sun
Together we wait for your return
So loneliness can leave
And ill be in the presence of the moon.
When the sun comes out and the wind blows,
Long hair bundled
And my skin shows?
Dandelion fuzz kisses the nape of my neck.
The sun is a sorry story
When your missing the moon.
When loneliness called me inside
We sat together by the dining room window,
Head on his shoulder
As he told me the dangers of the sun
Together we wait for your return
So loneliness can leave
And ill be in the presence of the moon.
#sadness
#loneliness
#sun
#moon
#nature
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Now, A Stranger to me
Your blue eyes are cold ice
Against my heart
Your picture... up against the wall?
It cannot cure me.
The missing warmth
Of your soft hand in mine and the echos of your deep voice
Bouncing against the walls of my head,
Like that of elastic.
How could you leave me?
You used to inundate me in i love you,
But those words have been torn apart into an infinity
Because you never did.
You only wanted my body
Love is as meaningless now
As the soft spoken words
From an empty heart.
Making you now, a stranger to...
Against my heart
Your picture... up against the wall?
It cannot cure me.
The missing warmth
Of your soft hand in mine and the echos of your deep voice
Bouncing against the walls of my head,
Like that of elastic.
How could you leave me?
You used to inundate me in i love you,
But those words have been torn apart into an infinity
Because you never did.
You only wanted my body
Love is as meaningless now
As the soft spoken words
From an empty heart.
Making you now, a stranger to...
#sadness
#love
#motherhood
#breakup
#disappointment
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