Submissions by BrokenSoul123 (Alex Is Dead)
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
16th Jun 2019 5:21am
16th Jun 2019 5:21am
Something Is Wrong With Me
I shouldn't feel like this
To have this feeling like something is amiss
Surrounded by people who love me
How in the hell am I lonely?
It's like walking through a dream
And everything around me is a scene
Carefully set, just waiting for curtain call
When the actors melt away behind the wall
I shouldn't feel like this
To have such melancholy in my chest
Laughter echos through this room
So why can't I see through the gloom?
It's as if a part of me is in mourning
And it comes without a warning
I'm smiling,...
To have this feeling like something is amiss
Surrounded by people who love me
How in the hell am I lonely?
It's like walking through a dream
And everything around me is a scene
Carefully set, just waiting for curtain call
When the actors melt away behind the wall
I shouldn't feel like this
To have such melancholy in my chest
Laughter echos through this room
So why can't I see through the gloom?
It's as if a part of me is in mourning
And it comes without a warning
I'm smiling,...
#depression
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Aug 2017 9:19am
11th Aug 2017 9:19am
Losing Battle
I've lost, even when I thought I'd won
I told myself over and over I was done
But it wasn't meant to be easy
And I knew the relief only lasts briefly
I did the one thing I swore I wouldn't
Deep in my mind I knew I shouldn't
But the voice in my head kept insisting
That this would ease the pain of existing
I tried with every fiber of my soul
Not to fall back into that dark hole
But I find myself falling back where I was before
Deep down into the misery I held in my core
I have failed to win my own war ...
I told myself over and over I was done
But it wasn't meant to be easy
And I knew the relief only lasts briefly
I did the one thing I swore I wouldn't
Deep in my mind I knew I shouldn't
But the voice in my head kept insisting
That this would ease the pain of existing
I tried with every fiber of my soul
Not to fall back into that dark hole
But I find myself falling back where I was before
Deep down into the misery I held in my core
I have failed to win my own war ...
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LOVE POEM
Published
14th Jun 2017 8:24am
14th Jun 2017 8:24am
Shut Out
In the beginning, we were strong
Now I feel something is wrong
We used to stay up all night
But now everyday seems like a fight
We were partners in crime
These days there's never any time
I have to fight you to get a smile
And when I win, it only lasts a small while
You are distant, and your mind is always elsewhere
And no matter what I try, your thoughts you never share
You just sit there behind those walls
While I'm counting every brick that falls
But no matter how many fall
Your wall will always be too tall ...
Now I feel something is wrong
We used to stay up all night
But now everyday seems like a fight
We were partners in crime
These days there's never any time
I have to fight you to get a smile
And when I win, it only lasts a small while
You are distant, and your mind is always elsewhere
And no matter what I try, your thoughts you never share
You just sit there behind those walls
While I'm counting every brick that falls
But no matter how many fall
Your wall will always be too tall ...
981 reads
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
13th Jul 2016 12:10pm
13th Jul 2016 12:10pm
Society
I'm fat, I'm thin
I can't seem to fit in
I'm smart, I'm retarded
No one to be highly regarded
Society is giving me whiplash
Leading me to safety, only for me to crash
One day I'm beautiful, and bright
The next, I can't do anything right
My tattoos make me unemployable
My curves, make me undesirable
People are intimidated by me
And hate me, before they know who I can be
Hide the tattoos, they are unsightly
Wear an ungodly amount of make up, and you won't be ugly
Diet until even the slightest breeze will blow you away...
I can't seem to fit in
I'm smart, I'm retarded
No one to be highly regarded
Society is giving me whiplash
Leading me to safety, only for me to crash
One day I'm beautiful, and bright
The next, I can't do anything right
My tattoos make me unemployable
My curves, make me undesirable
People are intimidated by me
And hate me, before they know who I can be
Hide the tattoos, they are unsightly
Wear an ungodly amount of make up, and you won't be ugly
Diet until even the slightest breeze will blow you away...
678 reads
1 Comment
DARK POEM
Published
30th Nov 2015 10:48am
30th Nov 2015 10:48am
Ink Therapy
I need more ink
It's better than seeing a shrink
The pain of the needle sinking in
Is so satisfying, it should be a sin
I don't need therapy
There's no better cure for misery
Than to hear the tattoo gun start
And feel it leaving its taboo art
Needles and ink, that's all I need
Art is only worth keeping if you bleed
It only hurts for a little while
And the whole time I'll wear a smile
It's better than seeing a shrink
The pain of the needle sinking in
Is so satisfying, it should be a sin
I don't need therapy
There's no better cure for misery
Than to hear the tattoo gun start
And feel it leaving its taboo art
Needles and ink, that's all I need
Art is only worth keeping if you bleed
It only hurts for a little while
And the whole time I'll wear a smile
824 reads
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LOVE POEM
Published
18th Nov 2015 11:32am
18th Nov 2015 11:32am
Don't Let Me Fall
You pulled me out of my personal hell
Through the painfull silence, your voice rang like a bell
But now I'm beginning to question
Just how far this will go
How much of me can you handle before you just let go?
How long will you stick by my side
Until you decide that I'm too broken down on the inside
And drop me back to the terrifying place I was before
And send my heart back to a time when it was torn
When darkness was all I could see
When a painful memory is all I could ever be
I'm only hoping that you will always...
Through the painfull silence, your voice rang like a bell
But now I'm beginning to question
Just how far this will go
How much of me can you handle before you just let go?
How long will you stick by my side
Until you decide that I'm too broken down on the inside
And drop me back to the terrifying place I was before
And send my heart back to a time when it was torn
When darkness was all I could see
When a painful memory is all I could ever be
I'm only hoping that you will always...
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DARK POEM
Published
7th Feb 2015 6:37am
7th Feb 2015 6:37am
Empty
Walking through these empty halls
The memories of laughter echo off the walls
Memories of what once was, and what will never be again
And I long for what I had then
Dust clings to the abandoned table
Where friends gathered so long ago, it seems like an ancient fable
Laughter no longer fills these rooms
And they are as silent as darkened tombs
The emptiness is haunting
Company is all my heart is wanting
But the phone never rings, and the doorbell lays dormant
What did I do to deserve this torment?
I wait, hoping for the slightest...
The memories of laughter echo off the walls
Memories of what once was, and what will never be again
And I long for what I had then
Dust clings to the abandoned table
Where friends gathered so long ago, it seems like an ancient fable
Laughter no longer fills these rooms
And they are as silent as darkened tombs
The emptiness is haunting
Company is all my heart is wanting
But the phone never rings, and the doorbell lays dormant
What did I do to deserve this torment?
I wait, hoping for the slightest...
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DARK POEM
Published
20th Jan 2015 2:47am
20th Jan 2015 2:47am
No Happiness
Happiness is just a dream
We follow the current like boats on a stream
Hoping to reach the promised land
To lay on the soft beaches of sand
But its just a creation of the mind
Yet we are unwilling to accept what we find
So we keep going, time after time
Instead of cutting the search off in its prime
We relish in the light
Thinking we have found true delight
But for every sunny day, a storm isn't far behind
That's just the way this was all designed
A simple trick we all fall for
Thinking we are in the clouds, only to awake on...
We follow the current like boats on a stream
Hoping to reach the promised land
To lay on the soft beaches of sand
But its just a creation of the mind
Yet we are unwilling to accept what we find
So we keep going, time after time
Instead of cutting the search off in its prime
We relish in the light
Thinking we have found true delight
But for every sunny day, a storm isn't far behind
That's just the way this was all designed
A simple trick we all fall for
Thinking we are in the clouds, only to awake on...
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DARK POEM
Published
19th Jan 2015 10:27am
19th Jan 2015 10:27am
Trigger
I've got my finger on the trigger of a loaded gun
Thinking this day could be the one
The one where I end it all
And watch as the darkness begins to fall
There's no one to take the bullets out
No one to save me, as the revolver spins about
This is my fault, I dug my own grave
I'm getting back what I gave
I wish I had known that the signs were on the wall
Written in blood to be seen by all
But I was so blind
And didn't know to leave you behind
My finger on the trigger, ready to pull
The voices screaming endlessly in my skull...
Thinking this day could be the one
The one where I end it all
And watch as the darkness begins to fall
There's no one to take the bullets out
No one to save me, as the revolver spins about
This is my fault, I dug my own grave
I'm getting back what I gave
I wish I had known that the signs were on the wall
Written in blood to be seen by all
But I was so blind
And didn't know to leave you behind
My finger on the trigger, ready to pull
The voices screaming endlessly in my skull...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
4th Jan 2015 10:09am
4th Jan 2015 10:09am
Mind Block
If I could think of what to say
I would write an entire essay
But there's a wall in my mind
And the rhymes are getting harder to find
If I had inspiration
I could write a story of desperation
But the blank I've drawn won't go away
And it's keeping all my thoughts at bay
Maybe if I could sleep
In my dreams I could invent something deep
But my mind is stuck on overdrive
And I can't seem to make these words come alive
So here I sit, feelings stirring
The gears in my mind frantically whirring
Unable to produce...
I would write an entire essay
But there's a wall in my mind
And the rhymes are getting harder to find
If I had inspiration
I could write a story of desperation
But the blank I've drawn won't go away
And it's keeping all my thoughts at bay
Maybe if I could sleep
In my dreams I could invent something deep
But my mind is stuck on overdrive
And I can't seem to make these words come alive
So here I sit, feelings stirring
The gears in my mind frantically whirring
Unable to produce...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
10th Dec 2014 10:22pm
10th Dec 2014 10:22pm
Heart Attack
The world stopped spinning
That phone call was just the beginning
My heart stuttered and skipped
Over my own feet I nearly tripped
In the hospital, barely breathing
My little brother lay, as if he were just sleeping
And I was too far away
The though of losing him caused my nerves to fray
The world came crashing down
I felt as if I would surely drown
Panic quickly set in
I wasn't there like I should have been
All I could do was wait for the next call
Sit, and do nothing at all
Try to hold myself together ...
That phone call was just the beginning
My heart stuttered and skipped
Over my own feet I nearly tripped
In the hospital, barely breathing
My little brother lay, as if he were just sleeping
And I was too far away
The though of losing him caused my nerves to fray
The world came crashing down
I felt as if I would surely drown
Panic quickly set in
I wasn't there like I should have been
All I could do was wait for the next call
Sit, and do nothing at all
Try to hold myself together ...
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MISCELLANEOUS POEM
Published
19th Aug 2014 7:41am
19th Aug 2014 7:41am
Let Go
Collapse the mirrors of the past
You cannot dwell on the things that didn't last
Break down the walls of insecurity
Because that pain is just a faded memory
Leave the broken pieces behind
And make room for all the new ones you will find
Broken hearts aren't forever
So do not cling to the ties that they sever
Let go of your mistakes
And forgive others, no matter what it takes
Release old grudges before its too late
For life is too short to fill it with hate
You cannot dwell on the things that didn't last
Break down the walls of insecurity
Because that pain is just a faded memory
Leave the broken pieces behind
And make room for all the new ones you will find
Broken hearts aren't forever
So do not cling to the ties that they sever
Let go of your mistakes
And forgive others, no matter what it takes
Release old grudges before its too late
For life is too short to fill it with hate
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