Submissions by Blood_xxDespair
POEMS AND SHORT STORIES
Poet Introduction
I've uncovered the mask I allowed to harden me. I've broken free from its cold plaster, and share the truth hidden behind each crack.. each scar.
LOVE POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2012 1:15pm
2nd Dec 2012 1:15pm
To You, My Love, My New Life
I'll choke on these words before I swallow.
Although I've become so hollow..
Although this world has pushed me till the end.
I love you more than I can stand.
I've said this all before but, this, I cannot ignore.
My finger to the trigger
Mind expanded... to this god damned forsaken high.
The tears... I let seep from my eyes.
Suicide written deep in my skin.
My mind set to die.
But, you...
You read between the lines.
Made me think before I said goodbye.
Drowning in an abyss was I.
I wallowed in my past tense fixations. ...
Although I've become so hollow..
Although this world has pushed me till the end.
I love you more than I can stand.
I've said this all before but, this, I cannot ignore.
My finger to the trigger
Mind expanded... to this god damned forsaken high.
The tears... I let seep from my eyes.
Suicide written deep in my skin.
My mind set to die.
But, you...
You read between the lines.
Made me think before I said goodbye.
Drowning in an abyss was I.
I wallowed in my past tense fixations. ...
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DARK POEM
Published
2nd Dec 2012 7:50am
2nd Dec 2012 7:50am
better of dead
I have no empathy for anyone, including you.
Apathy and infamy burn deep within me.
I've scolded you with the light I had for you.
I held it up to show you a new path.
But, now I choose blastphomy over you.
Ill no longer be your savior.
You've left me high and dry in my time of need.
Only left me to bleed.
I've worked so hard to elevate you.
Just enough to bring me down.
Everything is worthless to you.
But, let me ask..
Does that include I?
No need to answer..
I can see the "pain" I've brought you in your eyes.
...
Apathy and infamy burn deep within me.
I've scolded you with the light I had for you.
I held it up to show you a new path.
But, now I choose blastphomy over you.
Ill no longer be your savior.
You've left me high and dry in my time of need.
Only left me to bleed.
I've worked so hard to elevate you.
Just enough to bring me down.
Everything is worthless to you.
But, let me ask..
Does that include I?
No need to answer..
I can see the "pain" I've brought you in your eyes.
...
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DRUGS POEM
Published
27th Nov 2012 9:09pm
27th Nov 2012 9:09pm
Addiction Fades ?
Cigarettes and crimson pictures stain my mind.
Both leave me feeling beyond sublime.
This addiction.
This restriction
All the times I've been convicted...
My mind burnt beyond expansion.
Skin torn beyond repair.
Lungs are black
But this heart of mine is blacker.
So ill do another line.
Take another toke
Slip away for awhile and stand in a corner and scream with angst.
How much more can I take?
How much longer till these addictions will mend the heart ache?
Pop the pills
Crush em up
Start with a...
Both leave me feeling beyond sublime.
This addiction.
This restriction
All the times I've been convicted...
My mind burnt beyond expansion.
Skin torn beyond repair.
Lungs are black
But this heart of mine is blacker.
So ill do another line.
Take another toke
Slip away for awhile and stand in a corner and scream with angst.
How much more can I take?
How much longer till these addictions will mend the heart ache?
Pop the pills
Crush em up
Start with a...
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LOVE POEM
Published
27th Nov 2012 4:35am
27th Nov 2012 4:35am
One and Only
You captivate me
Invigorate me.
Mesmerize me.
Intoxicate me.
In your eyes I could drift away..
But, all I do is look away.
I've promised you everything.
Yet given you nothing.
To say I love you is just a scratch on the surface.
So I dedicate the song of my heart to you.
A raven with broken wings is all ill ever be.
Everything I do or say lacks of direction.
Manic depression, and fits of rage.
All I've ever had and everyone I can't take!
This smile I've faked.
But, to hurt you...
I could never be the...
Invigorate me.
Mesmerize me.
Intoxicate me.
In your eyes I could drift away..
But, all I do is look away.
I've promised you everything.
Yet given you nothing.
To say I love you is just a scratch on the surface.
So I dedicate the song of my heart to you.
A raven with broken wings is all ill ever be.
Everything I do or say lacks of direction.
Manic depression, and fits of rage.
All I've ever had and everyone I can't take!
This smile I've faked.
But, to hurt you...
I could never be the...
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Nov 2012 6:26pm
24th Nov 2012 6:26pm
Time of dying and bullshit lies.
Another bullshit promise.
"I wont cut again."
I just can't kick the shit!
As soon as the blade hits my eyes turn pitch till I see red again.
I'm shocked I'm not dead yet!
Every vein in my body split!
You really think I'm gonna quit?
How bout this...
You take all my blades and strap me down.
Ill find my way out.
You say ill go to hell
Well ill burn till my fuckin skin melts!
I've been held back, held down way too long
Every passion I possessed long gone.
Hell is in my head.
Each time I close my eyes tears...
"I wont cut again."
I just can't kick the shit!
As soon as the blade hits my eyes turn pitch till I see red again.
I'm shocked I'm not dead yet!
Every vein in my body split!
You really think I'm gonna quit?
How bout this...
You take all my blades and strap me down.
Ill find my way out.
You say ill go to hell
Well ill burn till my fuckin skin melts!
I've been held back, held down way too long
Every passion I possessed long gone.
Hell is in my head.
Each time I close my eyes tears...
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DARK POEM
Published
24th Nov 2012 4:53am
24th Nov 2012 4:53am
crimson turns grey
I'm nothin to you
Just another thing to give you a high
I'm just another one of your sadistic releases.
Ive let you feel me up
So look in my eyes fill me with betrayal and lust
Say its alright
Say its not my time to die
But on the inside I'm no longer alive
Ill take the blade
Ill leave myself with nothing but blood stains
Touch me one last time
Hear my invigorating sighs
Feel me take my last breathe
Kiss away everything that remains
And take what all is left of me
I watch as my crimson veins turn to grey
All I have...
Just another thing to give you a high
I'm just another one of your sadistic releases.
Ive let you feel me up
So look in my eyes fill me with betrayal and lust
Say its alright
Say its not my time to die
But on the inside I'm no longer alive
Ill take the blade
Ill leave myself with nothing but blood stains
Touch me one last time
Hear my invigorating sighs
Feel me take my last breathe
Kiss away everything that remains
And take what all is left of me
I watch as my crimson veins turn to grey
All I have...
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SELF POEM
Published
24th Nov 2012 4:24am
24th Nov 2012 4:24am
String left to fray
I'm just another puppet lost in a crowd.
You pull my strings
Force me down
Sell me out
And blind me with conformity.
My scars all just nothing to you.
these memories..
These vendettas I write in my skin.
All just something you call a sin.
You bend me over
Tell me to pray
But, I would rather be just another string left to fray.
Its the only thing that's worked anyway.
Burn me with this crucifix
Leave me lying on the concrete
You wanted me to give in
Be just as screwed up as you
I've found my...
You pull my strings
Force me down
Sell me out
And blind me with conformity.
My scars all just nothing to you.
these memories..
These vendettas I write in my skin.
All just something you call a sin.
You bend me over
Tell me to pray
But, I would rather be just another string left to fray.
Its the only thing that's worked anyway.
Burn me with this crucifix
Leave me lying on the concrete
You wanted me to give in
Be just as screwed up as you
I've found my...
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SELF POEM
Published
20th Nov 2012 5:10am
20th Nov 2012 5:10am
Scarlet Letters
All the secrets I hide under my skin.
Scarlet letters appear as the blade sinks in.
"I don't want to be here anymore!"
Highlighted by vivid crimson.
I'm shattered deep within.
Veiled only by this smile.
I'll scream out one last time before I bleed out.
I Need You Now!
Hear me through this distance.
Feel how hollow I've become.
Oh god! Please! Just someone!
On the inside I'm no longer alive.
Everyday I hear my own eulogy.
Ignorance!
Impudence!
Masochists!
All words of my inadequacy..
I will never find an...
Scarlet letters appear as the blade sinks in.
"I don't want to be here anymore!"
Highlighted by vivid crimson.
I'm shattered deep within.
Veiled only by this smile.
I'll scream out one last time before I bleed out.
I Need You Now!
Hear me through this distance.
Feel how hollow I've become.
Oh god! Please! Just someone!
On the inside I'm no longer alive.
Everyday I hear my own eulogy.
Ignorance!
Impudence!
Masochists!
All words of my inadequacy..
I will never find an...
813 reads
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Nov 2012 7:09pm
11th Nov 2012 7:09pm
Death Her Beautiful Caress
Death
Her beautiful caress.
She'll take you in her arms,
Leave you to linger in mid air.
Take her hand, and she'll run her fingers through your long dark hair.
She runs cold through the most crimson of veins.
Take her by your side..
You'll never be the same.
She wont judge you for choosing your own bittersweet release.
After all this worlds to blame for your constant pain.
Her breast against mine
This feeling is sublime
Her eyes burn from infamy just as mine.
As I fall into her sweet embrace darkness encloses me. ...
Her beautiful caress.
She'll take you in her arms,
Leave you to linger in mid air.
Take her hand, and she'll run her fingers through your long dark hair.
She runs cold through the most crimson of veins.
Take her by your side..
You'll never be the same.
She wont judge you for choosing your own bittersweet release.
After all this worlds to blame for your constant pain.
Her breast against mine
This feeling is sublime
Her eyes burn from infamy just as mine.
As I fall into her sweet embrace darkness encloses me. ...
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SPIRITUAL POEM
Published
11th Nov 2012 6:54am
11th Nov 2012 6:54am
Brink Of Life
Withdrawn, and bleeding out.
Blood seeps from these forsaken, morbid wounds
All light bent and fraying.
Hell I'm losing track of what I'm saying.
Everything becoming an illusion.
The black has engulfed me.
Ill try to hang on.
But, my fingers have lost all grip.
Ill just slip away, and maybe this time in hell ill stay
Falling, my mind becoming weightless.
My body painted with my crimson red.
Falling, even this sting is weakening.
No more tears will I shed.
Ill say goodbye just one last time.
Ill love you forever.. a lullaby...
Blood seeps from these forsaken, morbid wounds
All light bent and fraying.
Hell I'm losing track of what I'm saying.
Everything becoming an illusion.
The black has engulfed me.
Ill try to hang on.
But, my fingers have lost all grip.
Ill just slip away, and maybe this time in hell ill stay
Falling, my mind becoming weightless.
My body painted with my crimson red.
Falling, even this sting is weakening.
No more tears will I shed.
Ill say goodbye just one last time.
Ill love you forever.. a lullaby...
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DARK POEM
Published
11th Nov 2012 6:07am
11th Nov 2012 6:07am
One last time!
BLEED!
GRIEVE!
AND BE DECIEVED!
Forever on your own!
After this your forever alone!
All words carved on my headstone!
Abuse and addiction!
I'm no longer restricted.
Eyes open wide, you say I'm still blind!
Every lie,
Every coax.
Every stroke you lay apon skin
Just drags me down again!
Choke me out!
Leave me on the fuckin ground to bleed out!
After all you love me so..
You never wanted me to go.
So just hold me down one last time!
TELL ME AGAIN HOW MUCH YOU WANT ME TO FUCKING DIE!
TELL...
GRIEVE!
AND BE DECIEVED!
Forever on your own!
After this your forever alone!
All words carved on my headstone!
Abuse and addiction!
I'm no longer restricted.
Eyes open wide, you say I'm still blind!
Every lie,
Every coax.
Every stroke you lay apon skin
Just drags me down again!
Choke me out!
Leave me on the fuckin ground to bleed out!
After all you love me so..
You never wanted me to go.
So just hold me down one last time!
TELL ME AGAIN HOW MUCH YOU WANT ME TO FUCKING DIE!
TELL...
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