Submissions by BigLittleBug

Frozen in this moment - I can't think anymore!
"Selling myself" to the schools, is exhausting
Trying to "frame" myself in
Just.
The.
Right.
Light.
I feel so FAKE and insecure.

Will they see me? Do I want them to see me? Will they care?
~no, they don't care~

Deeper pain arises.
Why am I even trying? Fighting for this? Hours of pain and self-loathing have resulted from this application process.
I cannot win at this game of life, the continued fight against my feelings is more pain.
The.
Rat.
Race.
It...