CHILDHOOD ABUSE AWARENESS

I am not going to die tonight,
because im to afraid to sleep tonight
the monsters in the dark crawling thru my head since last night
when the electricity snapped on in me,
like someone flipping on a damn  light
in pitch the  darkness of night
it shocks me

suddenly
surging thru me, hurting,  it flows..,  thunderstruck,.. im ac-dc,.. its now is pumping thru me.
mostly likely now thru corroded arteries, but still,,up and down tho it still flows  thru me
and with a power source it will continue endlessly, for eternity,
fuck that
writing this now, i shivering nervously ...I told you!!!  stay the fuck away from me!.... noo why!
your my father don't you love me..with a crooked smirk and saddened eyes he approaches me
in the beginning I would close my eyes.
hoping if I didn't see it
it would trick my mind
make it a lie

body paralyzing
teeth grinding
neck stiffening
eyes barely able to dart down to look for searing pain.
I cant help it  teeth chipping
I scream!!!!! scream loud, I  scream bold,
hoping for its hold to let me go,
straightening me like a board, spine stiffening ,back aching, straining,
focusing hard on it not snapping me and ending me
turning me inside out
I smell the flesh starts to burn
yup in smoldering  
i feel my blood boiling
i fade out
as i blackout
but it's ok
i can try to go back to sleep now..
soaking wet, curled in a ball
i rock myself to sleep.

Loving the viewpoint of a child's pain! However, the competition has closed & Alenore has won! Terribly sorry, SURVIVOR➰

Thank you for this.  It means alot.