Anger makes it beautiful

To josh
My first

My brother's best friend?
Till death do you end?
Sarah I love you
I'll never ever hurt you
Makes me think what wouldn't you do?
O wait WHO wouldn't you do???!!!!
You're a fucking whore 7 months and I still hold on
You made me cut
My scars a constant reminder
I was only 15!!!
I thought you were serious
You played me as if I were a ball game
A hurt that will NEVER heal
A scab you ALWAYS peel
Tears you made me cry
A love you sold
A love ill always by
So maybe you cared a little
And maybe I cared a lot
But wait to see if you're really "friends til the end"

I am fucking crazy
so I've been told

I always thought I would save the world from pain
trying to keep our children from being FUCKED over and over again
literally

I hear the SCREAMING of the rabbits in my brain
finding it hard to differentiate my SCREAMS from theirs
I see me with that lead pipe as I bash and bash your head to pulp while smashing your smug all knowing smile again and again

I don't refrain from hearing the voices in my head
telling me kill kill kill you smash you till you're  dead
yet your evil ghosts still won't leave my mind
for gods sake daddy   i see you awake and in my dreams

all because YOU LOVE ME me

Youd be crazy too if you had to listen to your father fucking anything that moves male or female

Or try watching movies at the drive-in with you and mother dearest
kids get in the back seat
Clothes your eyes kids
NO WALT FUCKING DISNEY FOR YOU KIDS
the documentary about sadism and masochism playing in our ears it's only for adults
like YOU really needs instruction DADDY

Try living with YOUR crawling hand worse than the movie one
BRING ME A BLANKET to hide the crawling hand
SIT ON MY LAP cream puff  WHERES THE VASOLINE?

god I hate the smell of vasoline THE lotion of your choice

oh mama mama   where for art thou mama
mamas cooking cleaning going to church
praying to god for my evil soul?

Using your self blinding manipulations
your Black hole in your memory mama
you are the BLACK HOLE

What? you cant see daddy in the cars middle seat
smothering me because I bite hard
smashing my lips with a hand full of  
'This will hurt me more than you daughter'
so i can wear a permanant crack turned to scar on my lip
THATS RIGHT   I'LL BITE THAT MOTHER FUCKER RIGHT OFF

mama stops the car so I can puke his cream of the crop out the door
watch it shaunda
those could be your future  brothers or sisters
FOR GODS SAKE HOW MANY MORE DOES HE NEED

move every six months so no one sees you two for the worthless pieces of shit that you are

BABY MURDERERS

make ME PISS AND SHIT IN A CAN in my closet because the bathroom is no longer safe
while I write poems of screaming bunnies
i see you waiting in the dark living room daddy

ID RATHER SHIT AND EAT IT before I use the bathroom again

WHAT? if i dont let you do it to me  
You'll get my baby sister and when I hear her scream I'll know
IT'S MY FAULT

dont tell on daddy or hell go to prison
who'll take care of us then
well all be adopted out never to see each other again

liar liar pants on fire
get me in the sack
beat it blue and black
as daddy smuggly smiles
and mama hides her eyes

I can't take it
every day  every minute
im so afraid
so i'll slit YOUR throat while YOU sleeps

im just a little girl
im just a little girl
im just a little girl

and mama wants to know how I ever got this crazy?
well FUCK YOU MOTHER AND THE DICK YOU RODE IN ON

i cant take it anymore
my brain is cracking from all the people screaming in my head

YOUR better off dead
AND I'M FUCKING CRAZY?
so ive been fucking told

I'd love to shove you down mamas BLACK HOLE, daddy
you like rabbit so much
you fucking eat it.


and I smile

I am touched. My two grandchildren died from Leighs Syndrome. Grief like nothing I've known before. People who haven't been thru this cannot possibly know the pain one goes thru.  Thank you and I am so sorry for your loss.

Fuckin' love verse!

Fuck you BITCH!!!  
Fuck you for hurting me!!!  
Fuck you for screwing!!!  
Fuck you for letting me suffer!!!  
Fuck you for making me bleed!!!  
Fuck you for causing me too much pain I don't fuckin' deserve!!!  
Fuck you for ruining my life!!!  
Fuck you for making a fool out of me!!!  
Fuck you for cheating!!!  
Fuck the sorrow!!!  
Fuck the tears!!!  
Fuck the miseries!!!  
Fuck the burden!!!  
Fuck the lies!!!  
Fuck all your shits!!!  
Fuck all your broken promises!!!  
Another FUCK for your fuckin' new bedmate!!!  
I just want you to get the fuckin' out of my life!!!
Fuck TRUST!!!
Fuck FAITH!!!  
Fuck LOVE!!!  
Fuck everything!!!  
FUCK!!! FUCK!!! FUCK!!!

Well "fuck" me. Better get an entry prepared