Fighting Suicide
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Daniel Long
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Daniel Long
Thought Provoker
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Joined 26th Nov 2018 Forum Posts: 192
Poetry Contest Description
The title says it all. There are no rules. Fight the devil however you wish. Just has to pertain to the topic of suicide.
Grae
Bryan Gray
Joined 9th Oct 2014
Forum Posts: 9
Bryan Gray
Twisted Dreamer
Forum Posts: 9
happiness
i can hear the roll-up door at the back of the truck
bouncing up and down
people are honking
i forgot to latch it shut again
i don't care
i hate this job
i'm wondering
if a .380 against my temple would kill me
or just hurt like hell
there's a homeless guy on the corner
beating a lamppost with a tent pole
and with an expression
somewhere between mental illness
and happiness
maybe it's both
could i be happy?
i deal with my loneliness
by stalking a lady on the internet
someone i knew some years ago
that i've come to admire
i obsesse over her
i sent the friend request with a fake name
it felt wrong
it all feels wrong
i wonder
if maybe one day
i could pass out at the wheel
and wake up in another life
bouncing up and down
people are honking
i forgot to latch it shut again
i don't care
i hate this job
i'm wondering
if a .380 against my temple would kill me
or just hurt like hell
there's a homeless guy on the corner
beating a lamppost with a tent pole
and with an expression
somewhere between mental illness
and happiness
maybe it's both
could i be happy?
i deal with my loneliness
by stalking a lady on the internet
someone i knew some years ago
that i've come to admire
i obsesse over her
i sent the friend request with a fake name
it felt wrong
it all feels wrong
i wonder
if maybe one day
i could pass out at the wheel
and wake up in another life
Written by Grae
(Bryan Gray)
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DallasNichols
Joined 2nd Nov 2016
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Lost Thinker
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Goldy-992
David Gold
Joined 29th Oct 2024
Forum Posts: 2
David Gold
Strange Creature
Forum Posts: 2
I Walk The Line
I walk the line between confidence and suicide, A delicate balance, a tightrope to abide.
One step too far, and the fall is so deep, The darkness below, a secret I keep.
The world sees my strength, my unwavering stride, But inside, a battle rages, a war I can't hide.
Confidence, a mask I wear with such grace, Hiding the turmoil that dwells in this place.
The line is so thin, a razor's edge to tread, Uncertainty looms, a constant dread.
Yet, I press on, determined to find my way, Hoping to reach the light of a brighter day.
One step too far, and the fall is so deep, The darkness below, a secret I keep.
The world sees my strength, my unwavering stride, But inside, a battle rages, a war I can't hide.
Confidence, a mask I wear with such grace, Hiding the turmoil that dwells in this place.
The line is so thin, a razor's edge to tread, Uncertainty looms, a constant dread.
Yet, I press on, determined to find my way, Hoping to reach the light of a brighter day.
Written by Goldy-992
(David Gold)
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drone
Forum Posts: 2277
Tyrant of Words
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Joined 3rd Sep 2011 Forum Posts: 2277
I don't like this
COZ I didn't write it
I'm joking
Its one of the best
I've read
That's not mine
In a long time
COZ I didn't write it
I'm joking
Its one of the best
I've read
That's not mine
In a long time
Everavalon
Forum Posts: 89
Fire of Insight
7
Joined 19th Dec 2022 Forum Posts: 89
Artful drone
The knife that has cut me
recollects pain
My blood, the wine of sorrow
spills for each rank thought
and one sip lost to the seller of morrow
The rope I twine into a noose
complicates me
Seven coils to rid the toils of woe
Delve into the spaces between the fibres
And scribe your thoughts on each strand
Lest the words be forgotten
This pistol has planted a seed
A revolving simmer
The ground swells under its conclusion
Bloom for me
Swoon for me
Blossom in this shallow dusk
Climax at twilight to close its husk
The water that I sink into
coats my breath
My body saturates
as moist azure wrinkles my skin
The liquid light of the darkest hue
lay ripples in my vision
The choices fate hands me
has yet to abandon me
Quiet lyrics writ my heart with euphoria
these thoughts of finality wove into my breath
to lecture this flesh
into permanence
The end I have tailored
sutures my soul to this pelt
My fabric in tatters
draped onto my bones
stifling the chill of repentance
These hands hold my circumstance
This mind bolds my dance
These eyes glance at envy with pry
Save not a wish for me
as I settle this artful drone
recollects pain
My blood, the wine of sorrow
spills for each rank thought
and one sip lost to the seller of morrow
The rope I twine into a noose
complicates me
Seven coils to rid the toils of woe
Delve into the spaces between the fibres
And scribe your thoughts on each strand
Lest the words be forgotten
This pistol has planted a seed
A revolving simmer
The ground swells under its conclusion
Bloom for me
Swoon for me
Blossom in this shallow dusk
Climax at twilight to close its husk
The water that I sink into
coats my breath
My body saturates
as moist azure wrinkles my skin
The liquid light of the darkest hue
lay ripples in my vision
The choices fate hands me
has yet to abandon me
Quiet lyrics writ my heart with euphoria
these thoughts of finality wove into my breath
to lecture this flesh
into permanence
The end I have tailored
sutures my soul to this pelt
My fabric in tatters
draped onto my bones
stifling the chill of repentance
These hands hold my circumstance
This mind bolds my dance
These eyes glance at envy with pry
Save not a wish for me
as I settle this artful drone
Written by Everavalon
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WillowsWhimsies
Forum Posts: 303
Dangerous Mind
20
Joined 8th Mar 2016 Forum Posts: 303
need & want are not the same thing
draped in hollow darkness
bleeding hope into cold shadow
tired of the sound of my own voice
the constant taste of salt coating my cheeks
stiff where it dried untended
closer to over than I’d ever come
prepared to bid farewell
throw in my existence towel
afraid I was no longer strong enough
to keep holding on
feeling more defeated than ever before
exhausted at my deepest core
finally debating if it was really worth it
not at all sure
grip slowly slipping
a finger’s length from just letting go
how simple it would be
locked inside the hell in my head
begging for something more appealing
anything more attractive than my being
in desperation I approached
seeking a heart-to-heart
with the only source always trusted
and She pressed Her answer against my temple
in the eye of my mind
showing me where I’ve been
regardless of where I am
reminding me how hard I fought to arrive
and I was suddenly ashamed for believing
giving up was any better
than simply being alive
lowering my face from Her grace
I apologized
message received
what I sought was not what I need
crying out to the Moon
searching for beauty & discovering Truth
and therein lies the blessing
Copyright © 2023 Willow. All Rights Reserved
Written by WillowsWhimsies
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Daniel Long
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Daniel Long
Thought Provoker
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Joined 26th Nov 2018 Forum Posts: 192
Beautiful entry WillowsWhimsies! And thank you to everyone so far and great work!
moon_bather
Forum Posts: 49
Twisted Dreamer
1
Joined 15th June 2024Forum Posts: 49
Goodbye
Problem is, I forgot how to sit still. Even when the tide is low and the wind subsides, I feel the need to consume…be it content, canna, alcohol, drama. Or just take the simple solution.
Can’t rest anymore. Can’t sleep without pills. Can’t function without amphetamines. Can’t learn without guidance. Can’t be comfortable in my own skin. Not comfortable with this mind.
I trust no one. Especially not myself.
Goodbye.
Written by moon_bather
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Helopolis
Joined 1st July 2024
Forum Posts: 2
Strange Creature
Forum Posts: 2
You will be great
It's what you want
I'm disappearing
but you can't see that,
not at your distance
They're saying it was too quick
ribs showing
stomach inverted
skin hanging
but my collar bone is looking perfectly 90's
it's hard to not enjoy the discomfort
stress kills
loneliness kills
my hand is more deft
I'm glad my light is fading
I can drop the pretense of permissible par
I can surpass the darkness into disregard
I will be forgotten
and I am grateful
you will recover
and you will be great
Do not remember me,
actively
Oh, please don't listen
Despite the time
the care
what I thought was generosity
I'm under water now
and back to work soon
it won't be long
and I'll take my way out
I'm disappearing
but you can't see that,
not at your distance
They're saying it was too quick
ribs showing
stomach inverted
skin hanging
but my collar bone is looking perfectly 90's
it's hard to not enjoy the discomfort
stress kills
loneliness kills
my hand is more deft
I'm glad my light is fading
I can drop the pretense of permissible par
I can surpass the darkness into disregard
I will be forgotten
and I am grateful
you will recover
and you will be great
Do not remember me,
actively
Oh, please don't listen
Despite the time
the care
what I thought was generosity
I'm under water now
and back to work soon
it won't be long
and I'll take my way out
Written by Helopolis
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ThePalestRider
Forum Posts: 42
Thought Provoker
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Joined 14th Sep 2018 Forum Posts: 42
"Empty Clicks"
Click—
Steel bites flesh, sweat drips thin
The hollow sound echoes under skin
Eyes like ash, the room won’t breathe
Each empty chamber a mocking reprieve
Click—
The bottle’s dead, the room’s a tomb
A life dismantled in a dim-lit gloom
His thoughts churn black, a choking tide
No ghosts to guide, just rot inside
Click—
The trigger’s weight, a sick refrain
Fingers tremble, blood still in vein
A flicker—cruel—like a dying star
Life’s grip cuts deep, leaves a jagged scar
Click—
The gun drops heavy, a snarled hiss
No bullet to carry him out of this
He sits in silence, shadows creep
A prisoner now, too broken to weep
Click—
Steel bites flesh, sweat drips thin
The hollow sound echoes under skin
Eyes like ash, the room won’t breathe
Each empty chamber a mocking reprieve
Click—
The bottle’s dead, the room’s a tomb
A life dismantled in a dim-lit gloom
His thoughts churn black, a choking tide
No ghosts to guide, just rot inside
Click—
The trigger’s weight, a sick refrain
Fingers tremble, blood still in vein
A flicker—cruel—like a dying star
Life’s grip cuts deep, leaves a jagged scar
Click—
The gun drops heavy, a snarled hiss
No bullet to carry him out of this
He sits in silence, shadows creep
A prisoner now, too broken to weep
MidnightSonneteer
Forum Posts: 487
Dangerous Mind
6
Joined 13th May 2022Forum Posts: 487
Think it Through
Oh, what becomes of a hominid brain
when the heaven of pleasure takes a stroll
and daily logistics seem like a drain
that drags away what is left of a soul
and meaning is lost in an endless sky
that seems to serve only to suck or blow
so harshly that even a stone could cry
and melt down into Hell's magmatic flow
where hopes are all turned into poison pills
rudely injected into cracks of doom
like the way a vein can fissure cheap thrills
for a dying artery's final flume,
as if it were a bargain to borrow...
an entire future...to pay for sorrow?
when the heaven of pleasure takes a stroll
and daily logistics seem like a drain
that drags away what is left of a soul
and meaning is lost in an endless sky
that seems to serve only to suck or blow
so harshly that even a stone could cry
and melt down into Hell's magmatic flow
where hopes are all turned into poison pills
rudely injected into cracks of doom
like the way a vein can fissure cheap thrills
for a dying artery's final flume,
as if it were a bargain to borrow...
an entire future...to pay for sorrow?
Written by MidnightSonneteer
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Daniel Long
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Daniel Long
Thought Provoker
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Joined 26th Nov 2018 Forum Posts: 192
MidnightSonneteer this struck a cord with me. Great entry! The rest of you, great entries!
AspergerPoet56
Forum Posts: 1902
Tyrant of Words
33
Joined 4th Dec 2018Forum Posts: 1902
30 (will it be enough)
those
little
pills
eyes laid
out
on the table
each
one
of them
staring
straight
into my soul
viewing
my weeping
sores
that
ooze
madness
winking
at
me
they promise
everlasting
peace
little
pills
eyes laid
out
on the table
each
one
of them
staring
straight
into my soul
viewing
my weeping
sores
that
ooze
madness
winking
at
me
they promise
everlasting
peace
Written by AspergerPoet56
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CasketSharpe
Forum Posts: 165
Tyrant of Words
16
Joined 12th June 2013Forum Posts: 165
Suicide (The Cowards Exit)
Opener of the Vein
"Your mama went through uncomfortable pain for nine months
Just for your stupid ass to end it all with a cut,
"The uncomfortable sting dancing across flesh
Is this your fucking best, for an eternal rest?
"A slow release, alone and in personal silence
Chaos a distance away-limited hurt, with zero violence,
"Or go to the blood bank and tell em' to drain your ass dry
At least serve a purpose, if you want to bleed out and die".
Trigger Thinker
"9mm, AR15, granddaddy's old shotgun or 357
Finger fuck the trigger and punch your ticket to hell or heaven,
"Have you thought about the wonders your dead ass will behold
Not much thinking when your head has an extra motherfuckin hole,
"But the ones you left behind will do the thinking for you
Never truly understanding what your coward ass went through,
"With a split decision you decided to end it all
Now your fucking bullshit is being scrubbed off the bedroom wall".
The Pill Twerker
"Various colorful medications all lined up like at a candy store
Just waiting for you to become a pill popping whore,
"Kool-Aid, water, liquor or whatever used to wash it down
Your throat swallowing will be the only verification sound,
"Oh shit! One of the pills refuse to travel with the others
Another swig. Okay there it go-the stubborn motherfucker,
"Now the only thing to do is play the waiting game
While your internal organs and weak mind drive you insane".
Bottom Feeder
"You know a motherfucka was never born with natural flight
But you will make sure the head and concrete will bloody fight,
"Deciding a while ago to make this a one-time shit show
In a few seconds your body falls and life will permanently go,
"No turning back-yeah motherfucka too goddamn late
The countdown is on for you to feel your splattered fate,
"The dive will not get you an Olympic gold metal
But scooped up off the pavement with a rusty shovel".
Ending
"My feelings about suicide-many will say I'm not right
Also eliminating your life long experiences for that eternal night,
"When all seem lost-remember strength in oneself is left
Don't ever take the cowards exit and fight until your last breath".
"Your mama went through uncomfortable pain for nine months
Just for your stupid ass to end it all with a cut,
"The uncomfortable sting dancing across flesh
Is this your fucking best, for an eternal rest?
"A slow release, alone and in personal silence
Chaos a distance away-limited hurt, with zero violence,
"Or go to the blood bank and tell em' to drain your ass dry
At least serve a purpose, if you want to bleed out and die".
Trigger Thinker
"9mm, AR15, granddaddy's old shotgun or 357
Finger fuck the trigger and punch your ticket to hell or heaven,
"Have you thought about the wonders your dead ass will behold
Not much thinking when your head has an extra motherfuckin hole,
"But the ones you left behind will do the thinking for you
Never truly understanding what your coward ass went through,
"With a split decision you decided to end it all
Now your fucking bullshit is being scrubbed off the bedroom wall".
The Pill Twerker
"Various colorful medications all lined up like at a candy store
Just waiting for you to become a pill popping whore,
"Kool-Aid, water, liquor or whatever used to wash it down
Your throat swallowing will be the only verification sound,
"Oh shit! One of the pills refuse to travel with the others
Another swig. Okay there it go-the stubborn motherfucker,
"Now the only thing to do is play the waiting game
While your internal organs and weak mind drive you insane".
Bottom Feeder
"You know a motherfucka was never born with natural flight
But you will make sure the head and concrete will bloody fight,
"Deciding a while ago to make this a one-time shit show
In a few seconds your body falls and life will permanently go,
"No turning back-yeah motherfucka too goddamn late
The countdown is on for you to feel your splattered fate,
"The dive will not get you an Olympic gold metal
But scooped up off the pavement with a rusty shovel".
Ending
"My feelings about suicide-many will say I'm not right
Also eliminating your life long experiences for that eternal night,
"When all seem lost-remember strength in oneself is left
Don't ever take the cowards exit and fight until your last breath".
Written by CasketSharpe
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