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Times like this, I feel giving up is the best. Not because it is easy, because its the only fate and destiny of this path I feel I chose but rather the path that chose me. In these next months doesn't change my mind about the faith I have or belief system in God for its a consequence from the decisions I make in this world of free will. I would not spare mercy on me for I have done things in my past my mind will not let me forget living purgatory some days are enough already to make me feel imprisoned in my body Though you will do what you are going to do may you not regret it, for this will be the first move of war between us of chess. I have never prayed or does this situation make me want to start praying, I've made up my mind that I believe in him, its up to him if he will stick by my side. I will only pray each move I make will be strategic and always have meaning. I know being anxious will only make my decisions fuzzy, do stupid actions. I must remain calm clear minded and control the pace of the battle. Repetition and practice has not been successfully mastered and though I dont know much about anything anymore, I must adapt quickly. The future happens every instant that we dont call the past. Being able to read my opponent, though I already feel I have read their first move im not certain. Though if my reading is correct I must be guaranteeing a back up plan, that will have me with the upper hand or be ready for even trades. If I ever shall end up with my back in this very corner I will do my all to fight back, not with anger or hate. Only with the knowledge I have learned on my opponent. If I shall get check mated may the time I will lose be only a solitaire time in life where mental spiritually I become one. To the point where before I prepare myself for wargames and adapt to reading my opponent.. I simply adapt and read before one is my opponent.