plain old me

 
some people don't get my need for an alter ego
I understand this confusion
if my voice were consistently one way or another
my alter wouldn't be needed
 
as it is my bipolar has me flipping switches
between dark, light and all things beautiful
then there is my drug issue
I just came out honestly on my Crimsin pages
at first, I wanted it hidden
 
until the Mistress wisely made it a rule
all alter egos must be listed on our profile page
I almost deleted this account then
but I didn't because I feel freer here
 
not too many people read this account
I can post the poems I want to
without feelings of rejection if no one likes them
I wish I could say I don't feel bad if a poem doesn't take
but I do because I put my heart/soul into them
 
here I can write my flower poems
and no one is disappointed I didn't go dark
 
I can just be plain old me
perhaps with talent
perhaps not