memory

I'm feeling
HAUNTED

I'm feeling
USED

I'm feeling mentally broken
And ABUSED

I'm feeling
Like there's nothing left
To be said

All my blood is gone
For I have cut and bled

All of my knives
Lay on the bed seductively
All of the lies people say just
Fuck with me

I'm so tired
Why
Can't you see?

My wrists are
Bleeding and defeating
Any strength inside my veins
I feel like my emotions
Aren't emotions but just chains

I feel adrenaline
Settling
Coursing through my lungs
I taste the lies inside my mouth
As we flick and lock our tongues

I'm pushing the limits
I shouldn't be alive
I thought last night
Was the night I took my life

The doctors hold me down
And sedate me with a needle
I feel like such a loser
So weak and sad and feeble