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No Affection

Breathing in and out trying to calm myself down
I'm so angry that my face shows an expression that's stronger then a frown
Hot air rushing through my body
Blood boiling all around and going up my body
I fee like ima about �to explode
But I stay calm and hold
Hold on to the last bit of cool I have in me
I hold on while my mind running free
I seen enough and read as much as I can to make me want to go insane
I just don't get it why the fuck do you like to play this game
I get no text goodnight but all day you seem to wanna fight
And for what because of instagram a fucking social media website
Thanks for fucking up my God damn night
And no I'm always the wrong one in this relationship but your the one acting like a bitch
I fucking hate when you trust me like your God damn puppet
But I still do what you say and I get a "Don't text" message fuck it
I try to make you happy but nothing good enough for you
Not the love, not the changing, no nothing I do
Will ever fucking prove to you that you need to cut me some slack
Cause I'm with you going through all this shit
I hold on cause I love you and that's a fact
But you always make things into a fit
What the fuck I do to you to get treated this way
What the fuck did I do or even say
It's like you trying to fucking hurt me or better yet have me broken
It's like you want my heart to be cut open
But if you did you will be the fucking cause of it all
And you know what YEAH I'LL FUCKING FALL
But I'll try to get back up on my feet
I'll try to learn a new love beat
But you just won't care that you might loose me
Nope your not worried about that
Cause to you your my owner and I'm like your house cat
It's crazy how I say all that I feel and you don't give a flying fuck about one word
But you still laugh at my like the words I say are the funniest things you ever heard
Do you even know the shit I go through when it comes down to you
Do you even know the fights I get into with my family for you
You probably don't even give a shit about what the fuck I do
I protect you for what fucking reason
When to you I'm just like a weather change that won't last during the season
Everyone says I can do better but never did I listen to them
Cause of course I'm the dumb one holding on while you have fun
Hope your nights are better then mine
Thanks to you I can't sleep cause your on my mind
But hey don't worry like you always think I'll be fine
I'll waist no more of your precious time
Go keep texting your hoes at night while I get nothing but mixed feelings and depression
It's cool cause I'm used to no affection � � �