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There's Nothing Left

Holding on to the gun struggling with the trigger
Fuck it I blew it
Here I go
I shoot it
Let it go
Confused on what to do with it
Emotions fall down to the ground
Fuck I wanna mute it
Words of regret are circling around
Why I pursed it
My heart colder then ever
Eyes closing in together
And then it all snaps back
As my vain pops out
I reach for a pack
Eyes still closed as I light it up
Gun still on the floor
Fuck why I had to fire it up
Wind rushing through my body but I feel nothing
I take this white skinny cylinder and I keep puffing
Feeling my lungs give out with every inhale
Eyes still closed as I feel heat, damn man I feel like I'm in hell
I feel the dark tension inside me
Trying to control so it wont take over me
But I can't
At this moment of my life I can't
I can't seem to put my life on that right track
Cause every time I do I end up fighting back
Then I realize fight back for what
I think about it everyday what I'm I living for
Inhaling this white cylinder got me thinking about more
More of what I done in life
Damn man what did I just do tonight
I fucked up big time
Were I can't even strap into my mind
Where it all went wrong
Fuck how that bullet hit you so strong
I open my eyes and I look across of me where the blood remains
There goes that white pale face that will never be the same
I look closer and everything falls down
As I look on the ground
I see the truth of it all
I inhaled the last bit as I watch my life completely fall
I should of never pulled the trigger, I didn't even get to do a goodbye call
I can't believe I was the cause to my last breath
Now there's nothing left ...