Least Read Poems About Eating Disorders

I used to be her
be that way
spending every day
shrinking ...

Shrinking myself down
pound by pound
towards some ideal
I thought I could feel

Reveling in the pain
vomit down the drain
the toilet
the bushes right outside

Feeling this mixture
this twisted melange
of guilt with joy
hoping to attract that boy

With a newer me
someone he would see
not the girl I was

just because ...

I haven't talked about this in a while. Honestly, it's always in the back of my mind.

As someone like me who's not going to live as long as someone without trauma, mental health issues, and so on, I'm honestly obsessed with my health. I have an orthorexia type brain. Can't say anything about anorexia because I don't starve myself at all yet I do have an obsession with thinness.

Naturally, when I eat a piece of cake (when I never do otherwise) or brownies at times or french toast, I feel that pang of guilt and shame. And it is intense.

I was bullied by a fat...