The fuckin feelings

True love was such a wonderful thing,..The whole world seemed to shine,made my heart sing,made me
smile,made me feel free,feel on top of the world,no one would reach my heights,no one wud hurt me... I was in love with the perfect woman,...The sparkle of her eyes,the warmth of her touch made every part of me glad to b alive,the mention of his name made me smile,up the happy thought of being together made me glow... the people around me were envious of the love,they wanted to know,they wanted to experience such joy,to embrace the passion,they told me it was too good to be true,they said such love would only hurt me,i became defensive,i became bitter,wat dd they know?wat dd they understand?
then the day came,the sky clouded over,the birds ceased to sing,a cold wind blew through me,a feeling of fear took over every thought,i ddnt know where it came from or why,all I knew it was overwhelming and frightening,
suddenly I started questioning his intetions
Does she love me
Was it real
Were they right to warn me after all?
Did I really feel wat I felt)
I looked in her eyes and questioned wat was thea,wondering if thea was an ulterior motive hidden smwea
I started to wonder if someone would make her happier
I found myself pulling away
Giving him space yet wanting him to stay
I thought I was doing the right thing giving him freedom.
I walked away thinking I was protecting myself
I ddnt want her to hurt me by replacing me
So instead I said gudbye nt realizing I had only betrayed true love
Its too late now,the damage is done,once again I am lonely
I blame myself
I blame my friends
I even blame her cause the pain never ends
I regret wat I have done
I want to turn back time
I want to hold her in my arms
but av hurt her too much
This pain she cnt forgive
she do gvn evrythn
bt trust I ddnt gv
she do done nathn bt love me completly,
bt my fear of rejection has left me lonely
thea was no reason for thz to happen
the love was true
so hea I sit
nt knwng wat to do,
do I kol her?do I beg
do I apologise for alla mistakes av made
do g tl her am sorrwl never doit again
do I derserve her mercy
after the damage I dd
do I run to her crying,?
wud thz do any gud?
have my mistake ruined everything?
is some love stil thea?
is thea a way to repair?
is it too late hunny?
do u stil care?
is it too late baby?
is sme love stil thea?
is it too late my love?
have I hurt you too much?
is it to late... to feel yer touch again....??