Shaking

I pull open
dreams sent
many yesterdays
past

wwhhhoooosssshhhhh

all of them at once is too much
so greedily I eat as many as I can before that darkness numbs again
stealing, my uneaten dreams vanish
shutting me out, again

I sit bursting with ideas 
fears fighting for spaces in my heart and head
memories of life, of us and you, them, that, you
ideas of fears, yesterday

waiting ahead of me
to walk in on it all again
my past again
waiting ahead of me, us you

then the Blackbird shows up
tempting me to let go
fall forwards through this earth planet star
to feel

fear loving me
saying 'I won't hurt you'
and those words kicking and biting their ways
slowly towards a fractured heart

a heart pumping pushing forcing
words blood dreams fears spirits breaths
to shape
to shift