tremendous oversight of intellectual responsibility

I love you.  
when my fuckin car is broken down  
when my fuckin bills are due  
when I have a boss  
and he thinks he owns me  
when I have no money  
when I have nothing  
when I have to no one to talk to  
I love you  
   
I miss you  
I wait for the day  
that I can get my head on straight  
so that I can feel  
the way people do  
when they are awake.  
I love you when I'm pissed  
I can only feel when I'm pissed  
I can only be a alive in the deepest  
darkest rift.  
   
I hate rhyming.  
   
I fucking hate everything.  
I'm angry and it's reminding me  
that I love you.