Other Drug

One pill of anti-depressants to keep me calm.
Two grams of marijuana for a good time.
Three lines of cocaine as a backup.
Heroin what would I ever do without you?

My desires have locked me up so tightly.
They refuse to call me another human being but that's okay.
But instead they now call me a fiend on the corner.
So I suppose I'll live up to the title that they gave me.

If no ones cares if I'm dead or alive
they shouldn't care what I do my life.
It's already been destroyed.

If emotions were in capsules like any other drug.
I'd only take the ones I'm lacking in the most.
But I'm afraid I'd abuse it like the way I do now.
So I suppose its still a lose, lose situation.
Is 'help' really the only answer left for me?
Can it really make big of difference to my way of life?
I hope so...

If it's so easy why do I have a hard time?
I need my fix.
If it's so easy why do I relapse with every try.

One pill of anti-depressants to keep me calm isn't enough anymore.
Two grams of marijuana was my best friend, now give me more.
Three lines of cocaine that too has evolved.
Heroin I'm so sorry but I need something stronger.

If it's so easy why do I have a hard time?
I need more than a fix.
If it's this difficult, I'll chose suicide over this.

I don't want to live like this anymore.
Forgive me.
Streaming through my veins isn't blood it's a acid.
It's melting right through.
The pain is so unbearable for me...