I wonder why

I wonder why
I felt so lost
Your well-being was the cost

I wonder why
I could not leave
Thought you had a grip on me

I wonder why
I felt ashamed
I asked you to take my name

I wonder why
I could forgive  
I knew without you I could not live

I wonder why
I felt alone
solitude had become my home

I wonder why
I could not breathe
your were my air of which I was reaved

I wonder why
I felt this way
I had to leave when you begged stay

I wonder why
I could hurt you so
I guess some things I'll never know

I wonder why
I felt morose
When a life together was call for toast

I wonder why
I could lie
When for you I said I'd die

I wonder why
I felt I could
mistreat you when you were so good

I wonder why
because of me