The Forever Dysfunction

Slickly settled, fingers flicking petals,
homeless no, but home is thickly nettled,
trick to trick, a trade in precious metals,
try to forget they pet where daddy meddled.

No, stop, not there, a kiss can't happen,
not love, not here, not this,
don't care,
you open wounds, chop, chop,
I cry, you're napping,
do you even know why I'm still here?

I tried to love, but it crushed me,
a weight down on my back,
with a shit-stained shirt, you rushed me,
fed me lies like you fed me crack.

Wait mom - hate hazing, crazing metal,
mind gone, so long, she's sure to stay,
but she don't, she prays up then downs the pedal,
grasp the nettle, crash and burn away.

No, stop, don't go, no this can't happen,
not you, not here, not this,
don't care,
you burn red, pop, pop,
I cry, you're cracking,
how the fuck is it that I'm still here?

I tried to love, but you burned me,
my seared red dripping face,
thought of yourself and you spurned me,
now even dead you keep me in my place.