Sober from you [A double meaning]

I can't take this any longer.
We have to be through, dashed, eliminated.
Our bond must be broken one final time.

I have not grown stronger.
Each day I grow even more infuriated.
Is asking this of you such a crime?

I want out.

Pill after pill, hair turning white,
What was I thinking that night?

Glass after glass, liquor flowing red,
Not to drink, no, for soon I'll be dead.

Cig after cig, coughing up black,
Why must I deal with all this crap?

Hit after hit, happiness turning blue,
This is why we must be through.

You and I are done.
Day after day I want to tell you this,
But my heart is weak,
And all I want is my next tweak.

For once, I want to be sober.
Leave me alone, and don't call or text.
My voice is gone,
And my phone is on silent.

You will NOT reel me back in.