Selfish desire

How could I ask you to love in me the one thing I could never love in you?
How could I ask you to love all that I am, when I can't apply that to you too?
I want to come as I please, and leave when I'm done.
I want to be held in the morning as if I'm your only one.
I don't want to love you, not tomorrow, not today.
Though every time I watch you leave, I wish that you would stay.
Cause your touch is lightning no one else can make me feel
But you and i could never share emotions that are real
I watch the door for your footsteps when I crawl into my bed
We've got a dirty little secret, but I'm playing with your head
Both stripped of our innocence, were fueled by selfish desire
Each thinking the other will fall, were racing towards the fire
I want all of the perks with none of the pain
I want all of the answers without playing the game
I want to feel loved, but I won't let you love me
I want it to feel real, while we both know it won't be
I'll never ask you to love me, because I'd have to love you too
And as much as I want to feel your love, that's just one thing I can't do.