The fight

So many Fears & to many tears.
Been chasing this dragon now 20+ years.
Fighting my will.
Always chasing a thrill.
To much already , the past I burnt it.
The steps now iv  learned it .
Resentments , fears, so many
harms.
I sit and stare , these scars on my arms .
Endless pain and emotions so twisted.
I see it now , to many to list it.
Fear  &. hate, oh there a calling.
Adrenaline now I feel like I'm falling.
Emotions so thick , now I am sic.
I  knew that already,  now I hear the click.
It's just me now no numbing the pain.
No running, no gunning & sleeping in the rain.
I wonder now what will I be.
A friend, a father, a husband  or all three.
The curse now I feel , it's still there.
The rage and fear are so near.
Chasing the dragon, no more playing that game.
Not a lizard, But a daemon , just the same.
Feeling like a warrior on parade through the streets.
Our foe was a disease , that  thrives  on defeats.
Works just the same when your walking on lakes.
Impending doom & the success it takes.
Now I am finally strong enough to fight , daemons or dragons all through the night.
With gods help I will make this right.
No more chasing the dragon till morning light.
No more doom, calling the fight.