Expressed apology

I don't know why I just Attacked him like that.
Now I feel like crap.
Why did I do it... I don't know.
Perhaps it's because that's the only thing that popped to mind and I'm just so tired of missing him.
I look outside my window and there he is.... Sad and refuses to show.
It's like if any weakness would show.... then you are deemed not worthy.
Not worthy of what.
I thought that a family was suppose to love each other no matter what.
I guess it's all from the lies of the people.
I was fooled once that a family isn't always tough.
Of course he was wrong because a family is only as strong as there weakest member and right now I'm feeling very strong.