No It Simply Cannot Be

Since before it all began
There were voices inside of me
Screaming, shouting, telling me
"It simply cannot be!"

When first I held your hand
The night it all began
A voice inside screamed "not so fast"
But I went ahead and ran

When you said you would go out with me
My heart was filled with glee
But deep inside, a solemn voice said
"No, it cannot be"

Shortly after we started dating
I heard a voice inside of me
Screaming those same words again
"You know this cannot be!

What will you do?
Where will you flee
When she breaks up with you
You know full well this cannot be
But you go on in ignorant glee"

I thought it nothing more
Than simple depression
And fear from long before

But only when I read that note
Did I take heed the warning
Too little too late
To stop heart ache
And save me from my mourning

When I read your message
Saying you were sure
My body gave in to collapse
For my suffering there was no cure
This simply could not be

I cannot tell how long I stayed
Paralyzed on my bedroom floor
I swear I heard the sound of death
Knocking on my door

And as I my heart is healing
My dreams whisper to me
"How can this have happened?
It simply cannot be!"

How can I go on
When even she'd betray me
When my only source of joy
Is my source of bitter agony

I wish that I had yielded
That I had taken heed
What the voices told me
That from my pain I'd be freed

I should have listened to the voices
That kept on warning me
Not to put my trust and faith
In what could never be