Selfish me

Letting go of someone u adore,
does that make me a bad person?
Letting go of someone who loves u,
am i really a bad person?

I know i have my reasons,
but of issues we vowed to work through together.
Am i selfish cos i looked at it
from my point of view
and rendered you incapable of change?
Is change not inevitable,
something that we have to deal with,
we cannot run.

Then why do i decide by myself?
Once again, is it my selfish nature to decide for you.
I know i must not fully blame myself
but not put the blame on u at all.
Yes u did not give me enough reason to stay,
apart from trying i know you did.

You may not know it
but i cannot comprehend the sadness
knowing that i actually hurt someone,
a being, God's creation.

Why must i be so selfish?
Did u even deserve this?
But is this not for your own good,
to get away from this selfish being?
For your own piece of mind?

While i beat myself up
and only wish you best for the future,
would u please forgive my selfishness
and not forget to ever make time for yourself?
I know i left a lot of work undone,
please do not stop there,
i really did care that much.