Beg and Pray

Deeper and deeper
becoming depressed more an more.
last night, i just laid on the floor.
crying.
i feel that im dying.
im loosing.
this game of love and happiness.
God do you really want this?
The truth is in my heart.
he dont believe me.
i can feel he wants to part.
im stuck in my mind, alone in the dark.
dancing in pain, the devils remark.
lock me away, throw the keys.
im tired of crying down on my knees.
my head is pounding, my heart is tearing.
" hes gonna leave you, hes gonna leave you."
those words blaring!
My mind is fucking with me, my soul believes it.
Oh my God, Jesus! Jesus!
i want to cut, make myself bleed!
i deserve it, cause my words,
noone believes.
i can feel his second guessing
its really depressing.
that boys my life! Christ!
i need to go, im afraid to stay.
if he leaves me, that will be
kaylas very last day.
all i can do,
is beg and pray.