To my mother

I can't be what you want me to be
To follow your way every day
I am my own person, can't you see?
That's the way it is going to be ok?

Pressure has been on me before I was ten
A parents divorce and a family split into two
I still remember way back then
The pain that still lingers strong and true

It needed to be done
I always understood
The only son
I did the best I could

I don't know what you expect me to be
I just know what ever I do is never enough
No one else can understand and see
Yet I am expected to forget all that stuff

Calling me lazy and fat when I was down and sad
With no one to turn to
Which made me depressed and sad
So I turned to pen and paper, who knew?

I was always there to assist
With the younger sisters no matter what
To destroy me with your words you could not resist
Creating and opening another cut

You did the best you could
Under the circumstances that occurred
Did everything a mother should
Somethings I question and think are absurd

Always there for us when we needed you
Sick or hurt you were there
Doing everything a mother could do
to help us with your knowledge, love and care

You always put your children first
Something few do these days
It was real and true, nothing rehearsed
A person of morals and character in many ways

You have taught me many things in life
Some good and some bad
The meaning of a good husband and wife
Always giving everything you had

I admire you for all that you have done
From being a good mother and wife
Doing all you could for your daughters and son
Indeed you have had a hard life

I thank you for everything you have done for me
Even if I am angry and offended by you
Because I love you, even if you don't always know or see
From the bottom of my heart it is true

Everything needed to be said
For a bloody reason
Always in my head
Never coming and going like a season

I want to be there for you forever
No matter what, that is what I want to do
Our lives will eventually sever
Time always proves it true